Cindy W.
Back Again....April 9TH 2013
Apr 09, 2013
I have missed this site and now I find myself needing it more than ever . FB is nice and a fun way to keep up with what is going on in everyone's life ( may I mention the oh so addicting games also ) but it seems like nothing more than a continuous flow of likes not a place you really want to say how you feel and what your feeling especially about this thing called "weight".FB can have its days but I need to make time for this site to because when all is said and done here is where it started and here is what is going to help keep me on track .
I cannot believe so much time has gone by since my weight loss surgery I wish I could say all has been good but at best all I can say is it has been bittersweet . Sweet when I lost a good bit of weight and a tad bit bitter for gaining it back and not being able to keep it off . Part my fault I will say 60% and the other 40% the band I tried at first I really really did but I have had so many problems with this band I gave up which ended up creating more problems as in more weight gain emotional and physical pain.
Which also brings me to the present day : 1 ) Only 6 lbs. less from where I started almost 7 years ago , 2) an empty band , 3 ) something in my stomach which doesn't appear to be a slip but isn't suppose to be there either and when I ask him what it was he didn't know ( this was during the swallow test ) 4 ) and on clear liquids for two weeks... yes two weeks... not easy at all . When I go back to the Dr. in two weeks I have no idea what to expect . Will I have to make a decision to have the band taken out , get a fill eat very very little and hope for the best . I know in my heart this band is not going to work for me but I don't want to give it up I also know I would like to have a revision surgery only not another band . So undecided . Then there is the painful question will anything work for me ? This band has left me so scared and disillusioned about any weight loss surgery and the thought of failing again would be devastating to me .
On The Bandwagon Again .....4 /22/09
Apr 22, 2009
Just Another Day.....
Feb 14, 2009
Somewhat Puzzled....01/07/09
Jan 07, 2009
Here I am again . It was so nice to see my friends at the meeting last night . Everyone looks wonderful ! The way things have been going for me lately I needed an uplifting moment . I try not to let myself be the jealous kind because I think jealousy is a destructive trait and it just makes you feel worse . I am happy for everyone that is winning this weightloss battle . I just wish my time would hurry up and get here . Well ..... you know what they say about wishing lol . I think once I get this health issue diagnosed I will feel better when I exercise . Before Christmas I went to my pcp and unfortunately she was retiring that week . My problem is I am having numbness in my hands , arms , feet and legs . It really scared me . She was not going to be in the office to get the bloodwork results which is the first step so she was going to go ahead and send me to a neurologist . She said after three days I should hear from the office about my appt . I never did so I called . Come to find out they were behind in doing their refferals and hadn't got to it yet . After thinking about it for a few days I had decided I didn't need to go to a specialist . I am almost sure the numbness is caused from my exercise .. a pinched nerve or something so I told them that was O.K. I changed my mind and not to make the appt . So I had to find a new pcp . My husband ask his coworkers who would be a good one and two of them use the same Dr. and just really like her . So I made an appt . with her. Now here is where the puzzle comes in : They told me to be prepared to be in the office three hrs. because she was going to do a complete physical . She looked over my medical history knew all about the band and then I told her about my numbness . Before I left I met with her in her office . She told me from what I told her and the examination she had an idea what was wrong with me but she wasn't going to discuss it until the bloodwork came back and she was pretty sure my bloodwork was going to be fine. I thought oh goody just as I thought a pinched nerve no big deal I'm home free . THEN she writes me a prescription and I swear to you this is how it played out.... for an ASTHMA inhaler..... I LOOKED STUNNED.... what the heck I'm thinking . So I tell her I haven't had asthma since I was 12 . I do have problems with sinuses and allergies but I take medication for that when I need it . She just shook her hand and said give it a try and in about 3 days after taking it I should see a difference in how I feel . Then she told me we would discuss it more when I go back for my next appt. after she gets the bloodwork results . I decided to not go to the gym for a few days and after taking that medication the numbness went away so I thought . I went to the gym yesterday did a heavy workout and I was miserable last night the numbness came back everytime I tried to sleep on either side . so that makes me almost positve it is something to do with the weights I'm doing . I had the engery to run on the treadmill which I haven't done in a while . I do feel better since taking the inhaler . My sinuses feel a lot better . But I go in there for numbness and walk out with an asthma inhaler ???? and why couldn't she just tell me it was a pinched nerve or whatever instead of having to wait for the bloodwork to come back if she thought the bloodwork was going to be fine . I'm soooo confused ....... I just want some relief from this numbness . ~ Cy
New Year New Attitude.... 01/02/08
Jan 02, 2009
It seems the mantra of my life the last two years has been "getting back on track". I am so sick of those words . This year I'm going to change it to "don't let it derail in the first place" . Is it me or is it the band ? or is it me not communicating with the band ? All I know is we are not in sync with each other and I'm getting tired of doing ALL the work lol . O.K. I know how that sounds but it is a tool and it should do SOMETHING besides make me sick when I eat to fast . WHY don't I have restriction ??????? Better yet WHY do I have it only sometimes and WHY do I stay hungry and not satisfied after I eat.... I can eat way more {at times} than I do at meals if I wanted to . Somedays I just want to throw the queen mother of hissy fits because I get so hungry and wind of eating the wrong foods . MY can do never give up attitude has not left the building yet but it is inching toward the door . I know there is a solution out there I'm not ready to throw in the towel yet . I have had good restriction before I know what it feels like...... its like falling in love lol . I know restriction is not a phantom word it does exist and this union be it love/hate now and forever relationship I have with this fickle thing is not going to be my undoing . Can do never give up girl is going to do just that . Divorce is not an option lol I still love my band . ~Cy
Killer Abs , Gluts & Triceps 10 /25 /08
Oct 25, 2008
I was absolutely to exhausted to post this yesterday and to tell you the truth don't even know how to begin to explain the exercieses but I will try .
1) Roll Bar : 15 reps 3 sets , 35 lb. wts.
Stand with one foot in front of the other leaning slightly forward, pull bar toward chest . Tighten abs on the way down.
2) 21's : 12 lb. wts 3 sets
Hold wts palms up, elbos close to body, bring wts 7 times from waist to shoulders , 7 times shoulders to waist , then 7 times from shoulders completely down , all the while keeping abs tight and butt tucked in .
3) Single Arm Curl
15 reps sets 12 lb wts :
Stand one leg { side that does not have the wts } in front of the other , bend forward that side hand on wall , other side has the wt. bring it up and down while tightening abs .
4) KILLER Abs & Triceps :
15 reps 3 sets 20 lb. bar
Lean against wall , knees bent , small of back pressed against wall , abs tight , bring bar from wait to chest . Not easy !
5) Lower back & Abs . I don't even know how to explain this one :
15 reps 3 sets
Lie on bench , hands holding on to bench lightly behind head , cross legs, raise in air and lift butt off bench . I couldn't do this so she had me raise my crossed legs and bring them toward my chest...... that is going to take some work for me as my lower back is really weak .
6) Back : T Bar
15 reps 3 sets 10 lbs.
On machine , feet on bottom , leaning forward , grab bar , bring bar to middle , arms wide , bring wts. up and down . Its harder than it sounds
7) Preacher curls : 15 reps 3 sets
8) arm extenion curls : 8 lb. wts. 15 reps 3 sets
stand straight abs tight arms at side . Extend arms bring up to should height then down to side .
I was so tired I can't remember if this is all or not will have to look at my sheet Monday and update and get correct names of exercises .
Second Day Of Workout 10 / 22/08
Oct 22, 2008
I don't know what the names of some of these are but I will do my best to describe it.
Killer Legs/abs/butt Workout :
1) legs : 25 lb. wts. 15 reps 3 sets . Put a belt around ankle of right leg cross over other leg and back with toes flexed.. you really feel that in your inner thighs ... not letting the wts touch as you go back to position . Wait 30 seconds between reps and 1 minute before doing other leg .
2) Squats : 35 lb. wts. 15 reps 3 sets
Grab bar , pull up , keep arms straight , feet apart , lean slightly back , butt out back straight , then go down .
3) Deadlifts On Board :
15 lbs. 15 reps. 3 sets
Stand on the front part of your feet on a board , 1st rep feet slightly apart , wts. at ankles , ends almost touching held close to body , bring up slightly past knees while tighting butt and thighs , butt out , back straight . 2nd rep feet a little farther apart . 3rd rep feet wide apart .
4) Leg Press :
120 lbs. of wt added to the 35 lbs. of the machine so total of 155 lbs.
15 reps 3 sets
sit in seat and push forward and back pushing with heels when going forward .
5) Leg Extensions
35 lbs. 15 reps. 3 sets :
Sit in seat roll bar above ankles , push bar forward , flex feet when pushing forward , relax feet on the way down .
) Almost forgot this one its a doozie Ab Roller :
40 reps 3 sets
1st set : feet on bar , 20 slow then 20 pulse
2nd set : feet in air knees bent legs crossed , 20 slow then 20 pulse
3rd set : feet on end of bench knees bent , 20 slow then 20 pulsed
on all of these you hold on to the handles and roll upper body forward.
Posting My Workout.... 10 /20 / 08
Oct 20, 2008
For me this is the best way to keep up with it even though I have it on a chart at the gym . Hope someone can get some benefit out of it too . I'll add more the end of the wk when I have the full workout .
My Six Week wkout :
MONDAY : Abs , Arms , Back :
1) push ups with a stabality ball - 15 reps 3 sets
2) butterfly arm press - 15 reps { 35 lbs. of wt } 3 sets
3) sitting chest press machine - 15 reps {30 lbs} 3 sets
4) bicep machine - 15 reps { 45 lbs. } 3 sets
5) pull down { rope } - 15 reps { 17 lbs. } 3 sets
6) free wts - {10 lbs.} 15 reps 3 sets .. zipper like motion start at chest raising elbos as high as possible
7) Bench dips - 15 reps 3 sets
8 ) med size stability ball { killer ! } between ankles hands under lower back raise legs in air halfway then lean legs forward as far as possible to get bum off floor then back down to halfway position . 15 reps 2 sets
9) 10 lb med. ball - count of 35 { 15 each side } 3 reps . Sit with legs bent leaning back as far as possible and move ball from side to side .
RETHINKING.....10/16/08
Oct 16, 2008
I've been thinking , after my rant the other day I need to take a real good look at myself and my eating habits . The truth is I am falling back into old habits again and that is not healthy . True , at times meat does hurt me but I know that and I will just have to work around it . I know what to do to make it work and I will . This is just a bad time of year and I've got to deal with it another way besides eating and exercising myself to death . Monday I start with the trainer and I am really looking forward to that . My goal is to do exercises that will { hopefully } tone me and get me out of the gym quicker . I am positive I have been doing so many I'm being repetitive . Also I'm going to listen to the trainer and do the recommended cardio... that might be hard if she suggest less than an hr. because I really believe you need an hr. to boost the metabolism, hmmmm maybe I'm wrong but I'll find out . I've really been mad at myself because I know better, its not really a choice if I want to feel better and be healthy , I've got to eat slower , chew slower , and not graze . Pep talk over lol .. I'm feeling motivated already .
~ CY
O.K. Whats going ON With This Fickle Band.... 10/12/08
Oct 12, 2008
O.K. I'm not going to be mad at myself I'm going to think this through like a sane person lol . This band today at this moment is driving me crazy !!! I have thrown up twice now and don't know exactly why . I ate chicken earlier to fast... not even 2 ozs with sauce on it ...lost it .... A little while later had a large glass of milk felt wonderful . Nearly an hour later wasn't that hungry so decided to have some cornbread.... big mistake ! Lost it . I don't have hardly anything in my band why am I so tight ? I get hungry and can't eat enough to get full . Then if I eat the least bit fast I throw up . At this moment I am miserable . I just have to vent . My DH poor man doesn't know what to say or do ! I am so tired of him looking at me everytime I eat like..... are you O.K. is it going down.... This is what I think..... When I was on vacation I ate in moderation most of the time... had no problems ... well I think once I did . With the stock market and the economy the way it has been this last week I have been really upset and I have been having trouble . I think stress and the band don't mix . I had a test done and they have found nothing.... so why do I hurt still even at times when I take tiny bits and eat slow... I've been told to eat six small meals a day to control my hunger guess I will have to go back to doing that . Tomorrow I'm doing liquids to settle my stomach and start over again . I don't eat fast all the time and when I do BAM ! lol . Well at least I know the band works and maybe after two years I just don't know how to work it . I just can't figure out why all of a sudden I have such restriction... I don't { hardly ever } eat over a cup and a half of food at a time but I am guilty of eating to fast and probably to often ... because I'm hungry but not all the time . There just doesn't seem to be any consistancy with this thing . I get tired of eating the same old foods that go down good . I can't do bread , oatmeal , most veggies , most meats and hardly ever can eat more than a couple of ozs of it , but I can do cobblers , ice cream , chocolate , anything sweet and not grainy ... beans , lettuce and mushrooms and some fruit ... without pain . After thinking about this maybe my problem is I'm not on a schedule anymore so this is what I'm going to do :
B @ 8 a.m. protein shake with fruit or eggs with fruit
L @ 1 p.m. protein { Meat 2 -oz }, veggie usually salad
S @ 4 p.m. protein shake / with fruit or protein bar
D @ 6:30 p.m. Protein {meat - 2 oz} , veggie
S @ 8 p. m. cottage cheese and peaches or some type of cheese and sm fruit or v 8 juice
To look at this it looks like I go a terribly long time from breakfast to lunch and yes I do . But I can't go to the gym and go on with my day if I stop and eat and truthfully I am not hungry during that time . My bad times are around 4 p.m. I am starving . GRRRRR its not the band its ME !!! lol The more I write the more I think.... it is my fault I'm the one that has to be consistant ... but the thing is I can't eat 3 ozs. of meat.... I have pain why is that ? . Another day in the life of .... ~ Cy.... I WILL DO THIS !! I will figure it out .