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Well I can tell you guys that I am half way there, I went to my inital appt,had my nutrional consult, abd sono, blood work, pft, just waiting on my pshyc eval, and oh my insurance required's 6mo weigh in so tht means i will b done in june and hopefully will have my sx in july cant wait!!!1

So I caled today for a start over appt. in case u dont kno or remember I was suppose to have this surgery Feb 19th of 2008 but because of higher powers i was not able to do so. I called Initial Visit and Orientation is on Feb 2, 2010 YEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS, I have to do a 6 month weight in new thing with my insurance not a problem Im planning to have my surgery in the summer anywayz.



Praise God!!!

Happy New Year Yaw!!

Dear Lord Help me thru this cuz I sure feel crapy, I wish time move a lil faster!!!

Today I feel at my Fattest, yup, I was asked at my job to take a pic to put in the bullentin board of the school, to show the health clinic portion of the school and even thou I told the person not to take my pic she insisted till she took the pic
I was so ashamed of what I saw in the pic, I took sum pic on my cell only to see if what I saw in her camera was true and yes it is my face is fatter, i look horrible, Why am I still here stook on 290lbs, how I wish that my surgery would have happen last year like it was suppose to?, why Lord?, I so dont want to be Fat anymore, I am so unhappy!!!

I tried to avoid this, I new it was going to happen


Well it turns out tht I'm Diabetic, yup here it goes, i tried to have the surgery last year because i new tht i was at 100% risk to become a "D", and if u read my last entry then u know why I didnt have the Gb and so now im here trying to figure how to manage this disease till nxt year when I am able to the surgery.  Gb is like the light at the end of the tunnel if I have the surgery then no more "D", Help God I need to get thru this plzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!

Well its been a yr now since I was last here, I have gone thru so much this past year, Im here today because I have started to reconsider surgery, I  can continue much longer like this, Im stuck in fatville, Im so tired of this fat suit and I cant do this no more I dont have the will power anymore to start a diet and loose sum weight,   If you are reading this and you are considering surgery know that I feel your pain and that I understand your anguish. I've had so many lost this past year I was 8 months prego happy thrill and over all shocked to discover that I was carrying a lil girl inside of me I was so ready  for surgery but the news of a baby  well that changed everything but my happyness was not for long soon after it all started, the nightmare I mean My lil gurl was sick and well I made up to eight months when The good Lord decided that she was better off with him, I dont want to talk about this because it still hurts to much so I will move on I lost so many things this years my gallbladder after six weeks c section, the worst physical pain ever and well my husband lft me and my son this past X-mas and so adding to that Im still fat just much sadder but still fat I need to get my self together I need to loose weight I cant take this lonelyless that I have impose on my self because of my weight, If you read this and it touch u pls write bac I can use abuddy just about now

Godbless!
 

  So I my Surgery was Suppose to be tommorrow Tuesday Feb 26, and until thursday till about 4:55pm I was mentally prep to do this surgery and change my life forever a new me, I did all my pre testing this last tuesday, then a day later rc'vd a message letting me know that my Sx was cancelled and that I should call back, and so i did but I was not able to get in touch with any one in the office, I called the next day and no one was available to tell me why till I got the phone call, It was from a DR and he said " Your surgery needs to be postponed due to the results of your pre testing, to be exact your urine test showed high levels of Hcg , meaning you are pregnant" WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I cant believe it
I did not see tht one coming, I was so upset all my plans to be on hold once more to be pregnant once more been overweight, all the aches and pains of being pregnant plus the 150 lbs over weight that i carry Lord have mercy! Why Why Why? 

And then I just calmed down and Understood that I had put my LIFE IN THE HANDS OF THE LORD and tht he new what was best for me and this surgery at this time was not the best for me, he new I wanted another child and so he blessed me.

well thts my surprise 

later ppls my toddler is crying for his mommy

  Feb 11, 2008, 

I went for my weigh in and I lost 8lbs only 10lbs to go before surgery, i tought they would cancel my surgery but they didnt ,they just rescheduled  my pre ops to the following monday and then they will weigh me again, the nutrionist said to try to loose as much as i can till i get as close to the 18lbs lost as possible, I'm thinking you guys are so confusing first you say u must loose the weight or your surgery will be cancelled then u say just get as close to the weight lost as possible, I dont know Im just happy they didnt change my surgery date.

This past weekend I orderded a fruit flavor protein mix, syntrax nectars in kiwi strawberry flavor Im hoping that I will like it  better than the choclate and strawberry protein mix that i have.


Well I'll keep you all posted 

God Bless  

Ok so finally I have a date for Feb 26 2008 on a tuesday, After all tht waitng, I had my 2nd consult with my surgeon on jan 22, I didnt see the DR i saw the nurse and she review my results and told me tht everything look good except tht i was anemic and need to start on a high dose of vit D and Vit b12, Im not diabetic which i was very concerned about so yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey 
on the other hand my liver is a bit enlarged and i need to loose 18lbs or 10% of weight so they put me on a high protein diet and I am like ok no problem, so i go home tht night feeling some what funny like if I was getting sick sure enough the nxt day I wake up with a stomach flu not only me but my hubby and my 2yr old too.
So of course i couldnt start a diet in my condition.
Finally i get better and I get call from the surgery coordinator telling me that I need to come in for a weigh in on feb 11th and if I havent lost the weight at that weigh in then my surgey has to be rescheduled so tht means I have 1wk and 4days to loose this weight talk about pressure.

Right now I am at day 5 of this diet and if I weigh my self in am i have lost 6lbs if i weigh my self at night i lost 1lbs.
 I been trying to go to the gym in the past 5 days i have  gone 3dys 
but for the last 2dys I feel very weak and tiredsome so I havent gone to the gym maybe tommorrow I will go.

I have been following the diet they gave me but with more protein and no carbs or very lilttle so my weakness may be due to this, Im just anxious i feel like im not gonna meet this dead line i dont want to change the date of my surgery. 

Well till nxt time 
God bless 
laterz

 ok so after the consult with my surgeon, he told me tht he would like me to have sum tests done, pulmonary function test, abd sono, phsyc evaluation, gtt and bt, also and ekg and a letter of support from my M.D., that I should see him in 3 to 4 wks, I told him that I was able to these test with in 1 to 2 wks time that I would really like to see him this month and he said sure not a problem, I went to his receptionist ask for the appt. and she said no 1st you must do all your test then you ask for the appt so i have most my test done with in that next wk and I went back to her and my appt was scheduled for almost 2 months later january 29th omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! talk about anxiety, so I went bac a second time and ask to see if anyone had canceled and my appt was moved on for Jan 22, wow so anywayz I know that I am in Gods hands and he knows why I got that date in the meantime I'm enjoying my holiday feast lol well not exactly I havent been feasting at all but I have been eating everything I feel like with out feeling guilty, starting nxt week im gonna go on a diet to try and loose sum weight so that when I m done with the surgery annd I loose the first 100lbs I can be closer to my goal wt,

Happy holidays to all, take care , and God Bless!