DALLASMA03
WELL, WHERE DO I BEGIN? I GUESS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH OBESITY FOR ALL MY LIFE, AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN CONSIDERED THE "BIG" GIRL. EVEN WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL AND ON THE DANCE TEAM WEIGHING ON LY 160 POUNDS, I WAS STILL CHUNKY COMPARED TO THE OTHER GIRLS. MY WEIGHT JUST SKY ROCKETED IN THE MOST RECENT 5-6 YRS. IT STARTED WITH THE BIRTH OF MY DAUGHTER, MICHAYLA, I HAD HER AND GOT MARRIED RIGHT OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL. AS I STATED BEFORE I'VE ALWAYS BEEN KINDA "BIG" AND I'VE ALWAYS LOVED FOOD! I TOOK THAT PREGNANCY AS AN EXCUSE TO EAT WHATEVER, WHENEVER I WANTED. NEEDLESS TO SAY, AFTER HER BIRTH I WAS WAITING FOR ALL THIS WEIGHT TO FALL OFF AND GUESS WHAT.... IT DIDN'T!!! I WEIGHED 250 LBS AT THAT POINT. AFTER THAT I JUST KINDA LET IT PROGRESS. THE HIGHEST WEIGHT I'VE EVER BEEN WAS LIKE 310, BUT A PREGNANCY CURED THAT. AFTER MY DAUGHTER, I HAD 2 BOYS, MICHAEL JR AND MEKHI, AND LOST WEIGHT WITH EACH ONE GETTING DOWN TO ABOUT 240 LBS OR SO BUT EVENTUALLY IT WOULD ALL COME BACK. SO RIGHT NOW I'M SITTING AT 297 AND JUST SICK AND TIRED. I DON'T HAVE ANY CO-MORB'S BUT I WANT TO PREVENT THAT. I'M ONLY 5'3 WEIGHING 297 AND I KNOW THAT IS DANGEROUS. I'M HOPING THIS SURGERY WILL GIVE ME THE CHANCE I NEED TO FINALLY BE THE WOMAN I KNOW I WAS DESTINED TO BE. MY PROCESS WENT FAIRLY SMOOTHLY IN REF TO APPROVAL FOR SURGERY SO I FEEL LIKE THIS MUST BE SOMETHING GOD HAD IN HIS PLAN FOR ME TO DO. I HEAR A LOT OF PPL SAY "GOD LOVES U THE WAY U ARE" BUT THEN I THINK YEAH THAT'S TRUE BUT I ALSO ABUSED THE "WAY I AM" WITH MY 7TH DEADLY SIN...GLUTNEY. GOD DID NOT MEAN FOR ME TO BE THE SIZE I AM NOW, THAT WAS ALL MY DOING WITH BINGE EATING AND JUST OVER ENJOYING FOOD. WHEN I EAT I FEEL LIKE I AM OUT OF CONTROL, AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED, MY WEIGHT GOT OUT OF CONTROL. I LOOK FORWARD TO GETTING BACK TO THE PERSON THAT I ONCE WAS.
