Dandee

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How the time has flown. It has been 3 years since I walked into the OR for my RNY.
I am at 136 pounds.... from 347 at my pre-op appointment and down from 291 the day of surgery.
Life is an adventure now, no longer captive by a body that can't move.
I am free.... liberated and so joyous!

Hadn't realized that I hadn't updated my blog since June. Must be all the living I am doing. No more sitting on the sidelines.
I am in a size 12......down from a size 30... wow!
Feel younger, have more energy... even went camping and had a fantastic time. Had to move my seat up in my car~ no more belly in the way of the steering wheel! I have achieved 3 of my post-op goals! I have had poeple who have known me for years walk right past me and not recognize me.... including my ex-husband.
I feel alive again... like an activbe part of society.
No words can describe the liberation that I feel.

Ok.. I know I am weird.. I do my updates every six weeks instead of monthly... I like the progression better!!!

I cannot even begin to explain the liberation of not living to eat anymore... I feel so free, so happy and so much smaller. I commented yesterday on my shadow... it is getting smaller. I ran into an old boss at WalMart and she had to do a double-take!!

I am loving life!!

I can't imagine how much more my life is going to change!

I have been walking 2 and 1/2 miles every other day for the last month. No excuses, no reasons to not do it. I cannot believe this!!! I used to get winded from just walking around the block and now I am looking forward to my walks. It is amazing all the little things that now seem so monumental.

I am living my life again instead of sitting on teh sidelines cheering everyone else on!

I love my RNY!!!! 

I am in shock!!! Shock!!!! 
My big fat ass is in a pair of 16's. Not 26's but a true size 16!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I always said I would be happy here, but I want to be smaller!!!!

I feel like a new person.... not just because of the weight loss so far, but because of how excited I am about this journey! (though, I can't complain about the 6o+ pounds lost or the 54" since surgery)
It has been the hardest, saddest, happiest, craziest and certainly, the most interesting 3 months of my life. I have gone from "WTF did I do?" to being satisfied with a SINGLE bite of my hubby's desert. 
I don't pay homage to the food god anymore. I am not hungry, I don't have to eat to feel happy! I feel like myself, only 10 years younger. I have energy! I feel good!
I think the metamorphosis is certainly beginiing. Thank God I bought a ticket for the ride!

Where has the time gone? 
The amount of weight lost is nothing in comparison to how I feel. I feel alive again, like in the movie "Awakening" with Dinero and Robin Williams. The only difference is that this is a permanent awakening! I feel better than I have in years... off the CPap machine at night.... no more pain meds for my knees... no more piddles when I giggle too hard! I don't feel like the ugly, fat girl anymore. I feel like my world is getting better.
I also got the wonderful opportunity to meet a fellow OHer and a fellow patient of my surgeon's! What a wonderful treat! I didn't even want to leave her house, the conversation and sharing of our experiences was so warm and caring... she even put up with my 3 kiddos for the entire visit! WHat a wonderful way to celebrate my 2 month surgiversary!

I can't hardly believe that it has been 5 weeks since surgery. How the time does fly.
I am struggling this week with a big, fat, annoying stall. The scale hasn't moved in over a week, so I am annoyed. However, the inches are still going down, so I know the stall will be over and more weight will soon be gone.
I am shocked at the way my body feels these days. It is foreign to me at times, lots of new dimples wher the skin used to be taught and stretched out from the weight. I have loose skin on me for the first time in a very long time.
I am trying to get all my liquids down but I am having a hard time with it. My NUT says that practice makes perfect and that it will get easier and easier with time. I just have to repeat teh mantra of sip, sip, sip all day long!
I have no hunger.. except for the head hunger... so I have to set reminders on my cell phone in order to remind myself to eat.

I have lost a total of 28 pounds as of today!!!!!!!!!!!
(since walking in to the OR for surgery)