DangerGirl
Hey, Make some room for me :)
Jul 13, 2012
You here that ... y'all better squeeze on over and make some room for on the loser's bench for me ...
SURGERY DATE IS SET - AUG. 17TH!!!! 
I started doing my own research for a year, then in March of 2011 I told my doctor I'd like to look into RNY. There were some admin issues but March 2012, with no hassles, I received my info pack to begin the process.
The whole process took just 4 months to go through tests and evaluations and it will have been just shy of 5 months from the time I received the intro pack to being in the OR. I'm so thankful for socialized medicine.
My work and friends have all been so supportive - New chapters are coming!
Triggers
May 23, 2012
Wow, wow, WOW!!! Yesterday was my first experience with a "trigger" food, or rather, my first experience RECOGNIZING one.
At my work-place, once someone has successfully passed through their 3 month probation period, they're given a HUGE cookie that is then cut up and passed around as they go from department to department. I really didn't think anything of it and, conscientiously, grabbed the smallest piece on the tray. I popped it in my mouth (peanut butter, mmmmmmmm) and then *snap* I became almost ravenous for more sweet.
It was so weird! Maybe it was exaggerated as I pretty much cut sugar out of my diet May first and this was my first bite since then. Thankfully I had some Simple Food brand cookie bites (1 serving is 100 calories) I munched on half the bag and drank a bunch of water and was fine. I've never experienced anything like that in all my life. Of course maybe that's because I've never worked so hard at keeping myself accountable before and I've just always given into it in the past.
Whatever it was, I'm so glad I experienced it this early in my journey so that I can hone my resolve and rehearse my new mantra, "Oh, no thank you." "Thank you but I won't just now." or, in other words, "Thanks but, as it might lead me to have to gnaw off my own foot to stop, I'll just pass."
Starting down the road
May 17, 2012
On week from today I meet with a Social Worker for evaluation. I think, in Ontario, this is the same as the psyche evaluation and it's the only appointment I'm actually nervous about.
I'm a pretty self aware person, one of my best friends is a Psychologist and we've had many a billable conversation. This morning I had my first inkling of doubt that I can do this. An insidious little voice in the back of my head started to say that I shouldn't bother because I'll just become one of the failure statistic.
Rationally, I know this is stupid. I've already started making changes in my life, calorie counting, portion control, being more intentional during meal time rather than just fitting it in and scarfing it down. Still this fear creeps in. Perhaps because I'm single and live alone so my main accountability partner will be me.
How do I tell Ms. Snarky McDoubty-Pants that she can just shut her cake-hole ('cause she won't be indulging in that anymore/for awhile)?
I know this is temporary - this doubt - I'm ready for the journey, it's the right time and I'm the right person.
The Skinny on Skin
May 14, 2012
I've just found this link, http://www.bodyfatguide.com/LooseSkin.htm by "Ron Brown, Ph.D"
This blog post is mostly just to bookmark it for myself as I go down this road however, if there's anyone out there who's "been there and seen that" I would love your input on the article.
What has been your experience with weight loss and your skin?
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This blog post is mostly just to bookmark it for myself as I go down this road however, if there's anyone out there who's "been there and seen that" I would love your input on the article.
What has been your experience with weight loss and your skin?
Taking control - portion control
May 13, 2012
I wandered into a CB2 store today, I've never been before so it was a nice little discovery. While window shopping I saw some great little serving dishes and, moving in the spirit of "what is not yet, shall be one day" I bought them ...
These will be a great way to monitor and start training myself I think. I can't believe how much smaller they are to my regular dishes!Water Enhancer - Simple Review
May 12, 2012
I randomly found this in the drink aisle at my local supermarket yesterday and thought I would give it a try. It's really not bad. I'm using half the suggested amount and find that it's quite a flavour boost and that there's no weird "sweetener" aftertaste at all.
It comes in the Berry Pomegranate I bought plus, Mango-Peach and Sweet-Tea (I think). I'll definitely try the Mango one and see if I can find anymore.
I think this will come in handy when I go on the Opti-Fast.
About Me
Toronto, XX
Location
31.8
BMI
Surgery
08/17/2012
Surgery Date
May 08, 2012
Member Since
Before & After
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2 wks Pre-Op - The Beth Project - Photographer: Blake Morrow
330lbs
1 yr Post-Op - The Beth Project - Photographer: Blake Morrow
174lbs
