DangerGirl
Starting down the road
May 17, 2012
On week from today I meet with a Social Worker for evaluation. I think, in Ontario, this is the same as the psyche evaluation and it's the only appointment I'm actually nervous about.
I'm a pretty self aware person, one of my best friends is a Psychologist and we've had many a billable conversation. This morning I had my first inkling of doubt that I can do this. An insidious little voice in the back of my head started to say that I shouldn't bother because I'll just become one of the failure statistic.
Rationally, I know this is stupid. I've already started making changes in my life, calorie counting, portion control, being more intentional during meal time rather than just fitting it in and scarfing it down. Still this fear creeps in. Perhaps because I'm single and live alone so my main accountability partner will be me.
How do I tell Ms. Snarky McDoubty-Pants that she can just shut her cake-hole ('cause she won't be indulging in that anymore/for awhile)?
I know this is temporary - this doubt - I'm ready for the journey, it's the right time and I'm the right person.
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About Me
Toronto, XX
Location
31.8
BMI
Surgery
08/17/2012
Surgery Date
May 08, 2012
Member Since
Before & After
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2 wks Pre-Op - The Beth Project - Photographer: Blake Morrow
330lbs
1 yr Post-Op - The Beth Project - Photographer: Blake Morrow
174lbs
