Dannirn
Goal??
Dec 06, 2009
How do you know when you have reached your goal when it seemed so unobtainable for so long? What was my goal to begin with: a number on the scale? a certain size? feeling better? feeling healthy? looking good?People I know are starting to tell me I am getting too thin. Is there such a thing? Are they sincere or insecure? Am I honest with myself or insecure? I am 5ft 3inches tall. I weigh 130 pounds, officially I have lost 1/2 my self, but have GAINED so much!! I wear a size 4. How is that possible?? I bought a size 2 pair of jeans that I am comfortably wearing right now. I struggle with eating. I am hungry within 30 minutes after eating, but I only eat a small amount at a time. I try to get my protein in. I am not a fan of protein shakes, but I think I need to be. I can eat mostly anything except bread. Bread will make my insides blow up and I would just rather not deal with that. I don't watch my carb intake like I did immediately after surgery. I keep a very close eye on protein.
I wake up everyday scared that when I pass by the mirror I will see my "old self" staring back at me. I have not wrapped my head around all this weight loss. It plays a lot of head games with me. Right now, I am happy with myself. Yeah, the skin issues are annoying. But with a good bra and a pair of "suck it in" panties, I actually look good. Do I feel like spending $15,000.00 to get the skin removed and be in pain for at least 6 weeks? NO! Not at this time anyway. Maybe someday. I have girls that need to go to college and a dream house to build; things that are more important than vanity. My husband is amazed with me, and I enjoy it. He deserves it. Last night my daughter asked him what he was staring at, and he said "Your mom's butt". I told her that is a VERY GOOD thing that your dad stills loves me after 15 years. Not many people have that now a days.
Good luck to those of you who read this. If you are considering weight loss surgery--Go for it. You deserve it. Buckle your seat belt and hold on; you're in for the ride of your life! God bless.
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About Me
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20.4
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Surgery
03/17/2009
Surgery Date
Oct 16, 2007
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