dawnsmith
Back To My Roots
Jun 25, 2008
Hi everyone,
Every time I return to my profile after a long absence, I feel like I am returning to my roots. I am reminded of that night over four years ago when I sat at my computer feeling such misery and desparation. I did a search and typed in the word obesity. It brought me to OH and there was a sentence that scrolled across the bottom of the screen; "you are not alone...." My eyes filled with tears and that was the beginning of a long, difficult and life changing journey. But I wouldn't be where I am today, if not for OH and those comforting words. I have not been alone ever since, and neither are you!!
Every time I return to my profile after a long absence, I feel like I am returning to my roots. I am reminded of that night over four years ago when I sat at my computer feeling such misery and desparation. I did a search and typed in the word obesity. It brought me to OH and there was a sentence that scrolled across the bottom of the screen; "you are not alone...." My eyes filled with tears and that was the beginning of a long, difficult and life changing journey. But I wouldn't be where I am today, if not for OH and those comforting words. I have not been alone ever since, and neither are you!!
Food Hoarding
Apr 21, 2007
When I was on a jury for two months, I stuffed myself on every break for fear that I would get hungry during the trial!! I do the same thing before church on Sunday! God forbid that I start thinking about food instead of listening to the Pastor's message LOL!!
Whatever it is that varies in our stories doesn't matter. My counselor friend used to say; "same root, different fruit". In whatever way that our food addiction manifests itself, the ROOT stems from the fact that we "get something" from food that we are supposed to be getting elsewhere.
I know that for me, I can receive everything I need from my relationship with the Lord. But many times I avoid bringing Him into my food arena, because then I will actually have to be accountable!!
The answer is within each of us. As we learn and grow healthier in mind, body and spirit, so will our strength in fighting the roots that still remain. One of the reasons that I won't allow myself to feel hunger is because the "emptiness" is where my pain is and I prefer to avoid it at all costs!! But it's a deceptiveness that almost cost me my life. Because no matter how we try to avoid pain, it will just find another way to express itself. The only way to deal with pain is by going right through the middle of it!! The trick is to be mindful enough to respond differently BEFORE the "mindless feeding frenzy" kicks in!! I still have lots of work to do!!!!
Hugs,
Dawn
Whatever it is that varies in our stories doesn't matter. My counselor friend used to say; "same root, different fruit". In whatever way that our food addiction manifests itself, the ROOT stems from the fact that we "get something" from food that we are supposed to be getting elsewhere.
I know that for me, I can receive everything I need from my relationship with the Lord. But many times I avoid bringing Him into my food arena, because then I will actually have to be accountable!!
The answer is within each of us. As we learn and grow healthier in mind, body and spirit, so will our strength in fighting the roots that still remain. One of the reasons that I won't allow myself to feel hunger is because the "emptiness" is where my pain is and I prefer to avoid it at all costs!! But it's a deceptiveness that almost cost me my life. Because no matter how we try to avoid pain, it will just find another way to express itself. The only way to deal with pain is by going right through the middle of it!! The trick is to be mindful enough to respond differently BEFORE the "mindless feeding frenzy" kicks in!! I still have lots of work to do!!!!
Hugs,
Dawn
Century Club
Mar 21, 2007
No matter how upset you get at times, know one thing: the ONLY way you can fail is if you give up. There are many more people who haven't experienced the "text book" WLS success story than you think. But that doesn't mean we won't have the victory in the end!!
In my experience, I can eat much more that the "normal" WLS post-op. So it has taken me since September of 2005 to lose 101 lbs. (and I have a LONG way to go). But after many ups and downs I have chosen to focus on the "benefit" of my situation; I have to deal with my food issues right NOW instead of later (which is somewhat common for others who might melt away quickly but may struggle with weight gain afterwards). I have been stuck on alot of plataeus but I'll tell you one thing; in ANY of my previous "diets" I would have gained ALL of the weight back and then some by now.
I focus on the good things that have come about because of my surgery. I continue fighting the good fight! We all need to be cheerleaders for each other, because when one is down the other can lift us up. O.k. I better stop before I break out in song LOL!!
In my experience, I can eat much more that the "normal" WLS post-op. So it has taken me since September of 2005 to lose 101 lbs. (and I have a LONG way to go). But after many ups and downs I have chosen to focus on the "benefit" of my situation; I have to deal with my food issues right NOW instead of later (which is somewhat common for others who might melt away quickly but may struggle with weight gain afterwards). I have been stuck on alot of plataeus but I'll tell you one thing; in ANY of my previous "diets" I would have gained ALL of the weight back and then some by now.
I focus on the good things that have come about because of my surgery. I continue fighting the good fight! We all need to be cheerleaders for each other, because when one is down the other can lift us up. O.k. I better stop before I break out in song LOL!!
The Prodigal Returns
Feb 25, 2007
2-25-07
I've been MIA from the OH Website for many, many months. But I'm so glad to be here again. This has been an amazing journey and I'm happy to say that things are going well. My lifestyle has improved dramatically. I continue in my efforts to develop a "lean" spirit, mind and body. Sometimes I struggle, but the Lord has helped me through every battle!
I've been MIA from the OH Website for many, many months. But I'm so glad to be here again. This has been an amazing journey and I'm happy to say that things are going well. My lifestyle has improved dramatically. I continue in my efforts to develop a "lean" spirit, mind and body. Sometimes I struggle, but the Lord has helped me through every battle!
