9/19/2014... My 5 year anniversary !!!

Sep 09, 2014

Update... It's been almost 5 years since my surgery. The past couple of years have been very hard on me. The last time I updated was in 2012 and I weighed 110 pounds. I thought I was fat and ugly at that size. Since that last post I have gained 40 pounds. Yes, I said 40 pounds. I look back at my pictures and laugh. I can't believe I would have those crazy thoughts. I was beautiful and had a damn good body. I just wish I could have seen it myself. Looking back over the years (since I had my surgery) I have noticed I had been so depressed and miserable. In my mind I thought being skinny was the only way I could he happy. Boy was I wrong. It didn't help that my life had hit rock bottom during that time. Since my surgery, I have gotten a divorce, gained 40 pounds, lost my job, apartment and everything I own but I can honestly say I have found happiness :) I always come back to this site hoping to get inspired and motivated. I want to get this 40 pounds off and get the body back that I once had. I go back and look at old profiles just to see how everybody looks today and it amazes me at how well they have done keeping the weight off. I could kick myself everyday for letting myself gain the weight back that I did. I just look at the bright side and thank The Lord for letting me be the person I always dreamed of being. It's funny cuz all my life every time I made a wish or prayed, I would pray to be skinny. God answered my prayers !!! I guess I should have prayed that I would stay skinny once I got skinny...LOL ;) 

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