Getting back on the wagon....

Jun 10, 2009

My life has been a monster roller coaster....on May 24th my mother passed away. Just though she was going in for a regular check up and passed away two days later.  That just took my breath away...Well in the process of that my husband came home on Emergency Leave. I was overwhelmed with people and kids, that I did not pick him up from the airport. One of my friends did and when he first saw me he gave me a light wave. He did not know that it was his dag on wife. Of course I had on something cute, that he would of never thought I would where. But he gave me a light hug, kept looking at me. He was so distance...I'm getting pissed because I want him to be all over me. And he was so dag on distance. Well he told me I'm too small and need to gain some weight. He does not like thin women. He gave me such a complex, I started eating out of control and my pouch was like what the heck.  I drinking Smirnoff to help sleep and red bull to keep me up in the day. I had chips like it was going out of style and never once exercised. Candy, Kool Aid gosh the list goes on. Stuff that I was afraid of eating. Then my nutrition face flashed before my eyes and made me snap back to the new me. I told me husband that if he wants to leave leave...but this is the new me and you either love me for who I am on the inside or get out. I was super shocked that I told him that. I have to laugh because that man gave me a look like this woman is serious. Well, my hubby got a grip and realize that my personality on the inside was still the same, I'm just a hundred pounds smaller. He finally started loving on me and being there for me during this time. I gained four pounds in a week and finally got two of those pounds off. So, I'm back in the gym. Working out is my therapy right now. It allows me to cry, sweat and scream. And I can lose weight too... It just hard, because my mother and father are my biggest supporters. And now my hubby is coming along.  I just realize how easy it is to go backwards. And I refuse to go there. I love myself too much to put that weight back on.  OH family keep me in your prayers. Love you all!!!

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Copperas Cove, TX
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10/06/2008
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