deborah72
Miserable to Happy in 22 months......
Dec 19, 2011
Technically.... it is closer to 23 months ANYWHO......It amazes me looking back at how quickly time has flown. In some aspects it seems like yesterday that I was getting all my things lined up to have WLS and making sure I have everything covered. Then in other regards it seems like forever ago that I made my lifestyle change for a better way of living and being healthy.
I am happier in relation to my looks, confidence and outlook on life. I am healthier than I have been in years and that is including going back 20+ years when I was in high school and back then teenagers didn't sit on there ass watching TV or playing video games. As kids we were made to go to the yard and you better not come back in unless you were bleeding or hurt badly. Even then you were patched up and sent back to the yard...LOL!
Now fast forward to adult life and being married adding happy fat weight on...then here comes the kids and you have pregnancy weight and you were 'eatting for two" or atleast that was the excuse. Then once having the baby you forgot who you were and mom/dad mode hit and you forgot who you were as a person. You eat for comfort...for social gatherings and just because you were bored. Realizing that I need to do something I started Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Bariatics of (insert state), Adepex pills, Phen/Fen pills and then the yo yo weight starts. Your up and then down get comfortable then you are back up. Til you have your rock bottom...for me it was having your spouse trying to be sweet and buy an outfit and telling them to find the biggest size they could and it still being too small. He wanted to see it on me....seeing the pants not come up past my thighs and wondering if taking the shirt off will cause it to rip in half. They ask you Oh my Gah Deborah ...how big are you. Then I say bigger than this outfit for sure...That was my rock bottom. I realized I lost who I was and was so consumed in being mom and wife I had no idea who I was. I use to be fun to be around and hang out with...What the hell happened to me...LIFE...that is what happened. I wanted control again. So I did my research and found the perfect place for me to get help. I went through all my prequalifications and based on what the insurance would cover my only options for WLS was the lapband and RNY. I weighted my pro and cons and decided to have RNY. Finding out I had hypertension, gallstones, massive hernia, sleep apnea and boarderline diabetic...Hell I was amazed I was still breathing which was a feat in its self I will add. I wanted my life back...I wanted to be NORMAL...whatever that meant.
Lets fast forward now...I am close to two years out and have lost 130 pounds....Having RNY WLS saved my life in more ways than one. I made life style changes and I am healthier than I have ever been...I am running cause I love it and it keeps me healthy...I ran a half marathon at one year out and I am addicted...Speaking of addictions I am addicted to the scale too. I feel for me to keep in check and never wanting to go back to where I was.... I weigh every morning...it is part of my routine now. I just remember how miserable I really was.....I never want to go back there. My home life is not good...with me losing my weight it has caused huge problems at home and my husband has not been supportive...actually he is threatened by my looks and has become very insecure. I am always hearing how I have changed ....you know I have changed...I am a confident woman and want to be appreciated not the slave and going through the motions that I was. I want for my partner to be my best friend and be with me 100%. I feel that I have changed in wanting my family to be healthy. My baby girl is an athlete and stays busy with college scholarship requirements. Hubs (FTR is about 50 pounds over weight) on the other hand just pisses me off and said on many occasions he hates my WLS. Well I told him this is about my health and not about making him feel good, secure and non-threatened. That too is another story for another time.
Bottom line....I am happy with who I am...I love me....and WLS SAVED MY LIFE. Am I telling you that you need to have WLS and it has to be RNY...Hell NO...you need to research and make decisions based on what is good for you. Mine was narrowed down thanks to insurance and not being able to afford selfpay. RNY was the right decision for me...
RESEARCH,RESEARCH,RESEARCH before making your decisions.
Good Luck, Merry Chistmas and I hope you have a wonderful New Year!!!!
This was be before and now!
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About Me
Pell City, AL
Location
25.0
BMI
Surgery
02/09/2010
Surgery Date
Sep 27, 2009
Member Since
Before & After
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