Wannabhealthy barbie

ugh!

Oct 09, 2011

I always have time to think on Sundays and I think about all kinds of things like being a single mom, the boyfriend I have and that new life that Kayley and I have, and as always my looks/weight. I have gained some weight back but am staying around the same weight I have been at. Watching it very closely and hoping that if I keep doing what the doctor tells me I will start losing again. I went back to the doc and they said to eat 1000 calories a day and exercise 45 min everyday. I am working on both of those things. The exercise is still hard to fit in but I am working on it. I guess it isn't really hard to fit in I just have to make myself go. It is about 15-20 min from my house to the gym and I hate the drive so that isn't helping. And as far as my calories go I don't really know how to count them sometimes so I am guessing and estimating on the high end to be sure I don't over eat. But I am always feel fat and need to work on making sure I am doing what I am suppose to be doing so I can feel good about me. The boyfriend thing is tricky I feel like he isn't really all that into me or like I am annoying him so I think I am going to stop texting him unless he texts me first and stop trying so hard to be near him. I just miss having a man so I want to be with him whenever I am not with Kayley, And this single mom thing is a financial nightmere! I can't believe how hard it is. I am working a ton of overtime to keep us a float and it is tiring. I don't want to work this much but I like my apartment and need to buy a car! Plus I have to have money to feed my family!  Things are just a big ball of stress and sometimes it is overwhelming! I do miss being married...not sure that I miss the drama and fighting but I miss the companionship very much. My boyfriend has a ton of friends and is use to not having anyone so he doesn't need it like I do.

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