Embarrassed...

Nov 27, 2012

Well I made the call today to go back to work. I am so embarrassed about my weight that it is almost debilitating but I know that I can't continue to hide in my sweatpants and house. I need to get back to my life...but I am scared. I can't believe I let myself get to this point. I don't want my ex that I work with to see me... I can only imagine what he will be thinking and what everyone will be saying. UGH!!! I have to go shopping and get some work clothes that fit...this will not be fun!! But I am lucky because my daughter and grandma are so supportive of me getting back to work and my daughter just keeps telling me how proud she is of me for quitting my destructive behaviors and getting back to work and the gym.

Kayley, my daughter, goes with me to the gym now. She even asked to be added to my membership. I love spending time with her so it makes going to the gym not so scary...I don't even think about the other people there when she is with me. She makes me so happy! I just want to continue to make good choices for us so she can have an awesome life.

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