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Oct 11, 2010

 Ok so i had an amazing wow  moment yesterday.  Went to Costco to do some shopping and when we get to the check out, i hand my card to the cashier like I always do. He rings up my stuff and than he looks at me and said "that picture doesn't look like you" I thought he was going to accuse me of using someone else's card, than i realized that It was because I lost so much weight!!  This is the first time someone looked at a picture of me that I  have not shown as a pre-op and had this reaction. At 2 years 8 months post op, sometimes I need motivation to keep on the right track and this has definately given me the motivation to continue stay on track. I love my RNY!!!!

Mar 03, 2010

 Well 2 years ago today i made a decision that changed my life. I spent a few hours with an amazing Doctor that made that change possible.  I've lost a total of 133 pounds from my highest weight and gone from a size 24-26 to a size 8. I'm off blood pressure medication and my feet, knees and hips don't hurt any more. I can  walk and breathe at the same time. Hell I can run and breathe at the same time. I can cross my legs when I sit down and fit comfortably in any chair I sit in. I've learned about new ways to eat and new things to eat. Am I perfect when it comes to food? OH NO!!!, But I work hard every day and go to tons of support groups. My life has changed in ways I could never imagine and I plan to work hard to maintain this new life of mine. Some of my WOW moments in the last 12 months include being Matron of honor for my very very good friend. The red dress was AMAZING. Walking around NYC with my husband and having him tell me to slow down!! WHAT!! And the big one, Falling down one day and before I realized what happend, I was up and chasing papers around a parking lot. And I got them all!!!  I've fallen down to much in the past and had to be helped up or I had to struggle to get up on my own .  My RNY was the best decision I've made for myself in a long time and I WILL NOT go back to having high blood pressure, aching feet and being stuffed into chairs that were not made for me.  I love my RNY!!!

May 03, 2009

What do you day when a friend has gone to sleep for the final time? Do you say Goodby or See ya later? Are we sad for them or for us? Is she in a better place? Well she's not suffering any more, but we who are left behind suffer the loss of a loved one. A mother, wife, sister, grandmother, best friend. We do what we can to extend our lives, (WLS, diet, excersize) and we don't expect to lose friends. Espically due to tragic accidents. . She was truly the glue that held her family together. Her oldest son now feels responsible for his siblngs. He's such an honorable and proud young man and I'm honored to call him Godson. So many folks came out to see her home, it warmed my heart.  I think I'll just say see ya later. Goodby seems so final, and the thought of never seeing my friends and family ever again is just to much to bare, So dear friend, see ya later. I know you'll be waiting with everyone else that went befor you.  SEE YA LATER!!!!   

Apr 25, 2009

Apr 23, 2009

Well, I've not posted for a few weeks and thought I would just post about what's been going on in my head lately. I post this for me, so that i can know where I am, where i've been and where I need to go.  I now get on the scale every day. Been doing that since my one year surgiversary. I've lost ove 125 pounds and I would like to stop losing. I am now about 13 pounds below the goal I've set for myself and I'm having issues with the fact that I cant stop losing. My surgeon told me that he actually expecte me to get down to 125 pounds.  That would be a total of 136 pounds lost if that happens. It scares me. I don't know why but it does. Everyone keeps telling me that the weight loss will stop, and that I WILL gain some pounds back. I understand that, but it seems like I'm afraid to loose, and I know that I'll be afraid to gain. Seriously considering finding someone to talk to. I do go to support group meetings, but I think I need more.  I think some of my issues are hormonal.  Still having problems with the hot flashes, but I've been using a bio-identical cream that seems to be helping with my mood swings. Really need blood work done to see where my hormone levels are and find the right kind of bio-identical for my specific needs. Inside my head just seems to ba a ball od confusion, it seems like I can't put thoughts into words, can't figure out why I feel the way I feel and think the way I think. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with my life, with my husband, family, friends, and work is work. But it just seems like a few pieces of the puzzle are lost and I don't know where to begin looking for them. Well, I guess that's all for now. Maybe my next blog posting will make more sence to me and to the reader (if anyone chooses to read this). TTFN

Mar 23, 2009

Well, I went to Baltimore to visit a friend this past weekend, by plane. Had a ticket I had to use or loose. Any how, since I was just going to be gone for 2 days I decided to carry my bag on the the plane instead of checking it. While I was trying to ge my bag in the overhead compartment, the flight attendant was watching. She saw me having a bit of a problem and came over to help and said "oh my, your such a tiny thing". I was able to sit in the seat with room to spare and cross my legs on the plane. I was also able to click the seatbelt and pull it tight. 4 WOW moments in one flight!!!!  I LOVE MY RNY!!!!!!!

Mar 03, 2009

Well, today is March 3rd, 2009. What that means to me is 365 days since my laparoscopic RNY. It means going from 261 pounds to 138 pounds (122 pound weight loss).  It means going from a BMI of 44 to 24, (18-25 is Normal).   I visited my surgeon today and he informed me that I have lost 100% of my excess body weight. 100%!!!! OMG!!!!. When I began this journey, I just wanted to be less than 200 pounds; I wanted to be able to fit in the seat at a Broadway show. I wanted to be off my blood pressure medication, I wanted to be able to bend over and tie my shoes. I wanted to walk from my car in the parking lot into the airport terminal where I work and breath at the same time.  I wanted to be able to sit and cross my legs.  I wanted to not have to shop in Layne Bryant, or Avenue. I wanted to be healthy, I wanted to be happy, and I wanted to not be FAT. I tried to believe that crap that “Big is Beautiful” and that it was ok to accept that “This Is Who I Am”. Inside I was dying and lying to myself.  I wanted to feel NORMAL. I wanted to feel sexy for my husband, I wanted to HAPPY.   I can honestly say that 365 days after surgery, I am able to do all of the things I wanted to do plus so much more.  I now know that “This Is Who I AM”. Healthy, happy, sexy, and feeling Normal.  Please don’t get me wrong, I don’t think that being overweight is abnormal, but it was abnormal for me.  The past year has been an absolute gift for me. I attend support group meetings and I see the nutritionist on a regular basis and I frequently look at my pre-op pictures, to remind me of where I don’t want to be ever again.  I am in no way delusional, I know that I’m still in my honeymoon phase, and that the pounds will pretty much just drop off at this point, but I’ve been using this time to learn how to make better food choices. I LOVE exercising now.  For me this has not been a struggle or chore. Life has been so much easier. I’d like to thank Dr. Edward Cussatti, Rosanne Deluca and all the folks from the Good Samaritan Support Group. Mary Ellen, Karen, Lisa and all the folks from the LIPO Support Group.  My dear friends Iris and Ivy.  Eggface and Melting Mama. (I’ve never met them, but they inspire me) and the entire OH Family.

Feb 06, 2009

Last night we went to Radio City Music Hall to see John Legend in concert. We first went to the M & M store because we got to the city about an hour before our diner reservation. After the M & M store we were walking to the restaurant and my dear husband decided it was ok to cross the street in spite of the fact that we did not have the light.  He told me "come on, you can run", I reazlize that I can run, so I started running. (here comes the WOW part). I kept runing and my husband had to tell me to slow down!!!!  It was so cold in Manhattan last night, but I felt amazing, alive, and loved the walking around and runnng. I told my husband that I can't wait until the weather gets better so we can spend more time in the city now that I can walk around and enjoy it. 

Dec 30, 2008

Well, I did some after christmas shopping today and to my suprise, I am now able to fit into a size 8. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!!!  I'm still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that I can fit a size 8.  I'm not talking about just 1 store size 8, I shopped in 3 different stores, Coldwater Creek, Bass and Lord & Taylor, all size 8. What a way to end 2008 and kick off 2009.  Happy New Year to me!!!! 
 

New Photos!!!

Dec 07, 2008

Well, I uploaded new photos today. 9 months and 4 days post op, 109 pounds down . I can't believe it. The jeans I'm wearing are size 12 Levis. I bought them at the outlet buy 1 get 1 half off. The second pair I got are a size 10. My first pair of Levis.  My sister in law wants my size 12 jeans when they don't fit me any more.  I've never been smaller than her!