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Confused in April!!!!
Apr 23, 2009
Well, I've not posted for a few weeks and thought I would just post about what's been going on in my head lately
. I post this for me, so that i can know where I am, where i've been and where I need to go. I now get on the scale every day. Been doing that since my one year surgiversary. I've lost ove 125 pounds and I would like to stop losing. I am now about 13 pounds below the goal I've set for myself and I'm having issues with the fact that I cant stop losing
. My surgeon told me that he actually expecte me to get down to 125 pounds. That would be a total of 136 pounds lost if that happens. It scares me
. I don't know why but it does. Everyone keeps telling me that the weight loss will stop, and that I WILL gain some pounds back. I understand that, but it seems like I'm afraid to loose, and I know that I'll be afraid to gain
. Seriously considering finding someone to talk to. I do go to support group meetings, but I think I need more
. I think some of my issues are hormonal
. Still having problems with the hot flashes, but I've been using a bio-identical cream that seems to be helping with my mood swings. Really need blood work done to see where my hormone levels are and find the right kind of bio-identical for my specific needs. Inside my head just seems to ba a ball od confusion, it seems like I can't put thoughts into words, can't figure out why I feel the way I feel and think the way I think. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with my life, with my husband, family, friends, and work is work. But it just seems like a few pieces of the puzzle are lost and I don't know where to begin looking for them. Well, I guess that's all for now. Maybe my next blog posting will make more sence to me and to the reader (if anyone chooses to read this). TTFN
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About Me
Brentwood, NY
Location
44.8
BMI
Surgery
03/03/2008
Surgery Date
Jun 14, 2007
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