4 years out and 2 years lost
Oct 22, 2014
Returning to a supportive group
I just realized the last time I posted was in 2011. A lot has happened since then- I have graduated with another Master's Degree.
I am still working full-time and I am attempting to regain my focus on me.
I don't know exactly what happened to my weight, but I have re-gained 40 lbs since my last post. I can make every excuse in the book but that would not matter. What does matter is that I keep taking care of me. I have been meeting with a counselor, I met with a dietitian and I have been keeping up my surgeon in on my concerns. I am frustrated, and have been dealing with depression again. I do not see this as a failure, but an experience to learn from.
My surgeon has offered another option, as he knows I have been putting forth my efforts. I am not sure what my plans will be- revision or not, but something has to change.
However, without putting myself down- I know there are things I can do and I DON'T. I don't know why I don't exercise, I always feel better when I do- But I don't make it a priority. I don't know why I crave chocolate and find myself sneaking it like a child hiding the cookie. I don't know why I find it hard to look at myself and appreciate what I have accomplished. I am making mistakes that cause difficulty- eating carbs occasionally seems to be an easy habit to get back into. Typically I don't drink anything when I eat, but I am not sure that I wait the 30 minutes before and the 30 minutes after. I also know that I do not drink enough water.
If I think about it I know there are several things I can do. NOW just to get motivated again.