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Aug 19, 2010

I have decided that I am going to really document my journey to good health.  I am going to be raw and honest with myself and reveal in my blogs what is really going on. SOOOOOO... I am going through a divorce with a dead bead husband after a 12 year relationship I finally feel so FREE TO BREATHE!  He says he never cared about my weight ...but I can see how mad he is about my progress already. He says I am always going to be alone and that i will never have anything (well I would have child support if he ever paid it!)  I cant lie he was with me when I got dehydrated to the point of staying in the hospital 5 (yes 5) days.  I think he just did not care...I mean i had no strength to even wash myself (sorry gotta keep it raw) and he never tried to get me help.  I told him I think he was trying to kill me.  He even did things to sabotage my doctors appointments. The funny thing is... I wish him the best.  God has taken all the shackles off of me and I am going to the gym now...amazing.  I am so happy withm y DS  I could Sing!  I went out a few weeks ago with friends and I noticed that my heels were super lose on my feet...can it really be...my feet are not so fat,  I have been waiting for this for so long.  I can not wait to buy the heels of my dreams!  I walked pass a mirror at the mall yesterday and realized..I'm so fat...only thing is this time i knew things were changing.  My daughter already says she is so very proud of me....and that means the world to me.  

Oh yeah One of my best male friends from college told me that he told his brother I had surgery and had lost 46lbs...his brother replied..."she already Fine as h#ll who cares! (Very cute) lol
I told him to tell his brother thanks but fine is not healthy!  and that is what I am trying to do regain my life!!!

BTW  as long as I am being RAW and real..My pants almost fell of me yesterday...everything is big on me...Gotta Love it! 


PS  Good Luck to my Soulie Alyssa today...she is meeting with my doctor Dr. Chasen for the first time! Get it mama!

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07/06/2010
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