I DID IT!!!!!
Sep 02, 2008
Well, I can finally say I am a marathoner! I completed the Disneyland marathon in 3 hours and 32 mins. No picking me up this time. When I passed the 10 mile mark I started choking up. I could not believe I was going beyond 10 miles this time. The last time I tried this marathon I was picked up at mile 10 so the last 3 miles were all new to me this time. And my friends and hubby were there at the end cheering me on. When I saw them cheering me I got my last wind and ran to the finish line. There were times when I thought I was not going to complete it, but I did!!! I was in some pain on Sunday and yesterday, but today I feel pretty good. I did get a couple of blisters but I know they will heal up quickly. Now onto my next accomplishment..the Long Beach marathon. I don't think there is a time limit on this one so I can take it a little slower this time. The best thing that happened on Sunday was when my daughter told me she was proud of me and that she loved me. I want to be an example to both my kids and live a healthier lifestyle.
I went to the Dr today and the PA gave me a little fill to help me get back on track. I need to re-read the program rules and get myself back into theswing of things because I do not want to gain weight again. My goal is to loose at least 40 pounds over the next 4 months. That way I will be almost at goal by my 1 year surgiversary. I will start mesuring my food and eat more vegtables. I know I can do this...I just have to keep reminding myself I can and that I am worth this!
Aug 26, 2008
My Birthday was 2 days ago...it SUCKED!!! I moved my daughter into her dorm the day before and I thought I was fine....until I told her goodbye. I hugged her, told her I loved her and told her I was very proud of her. That's when the tears came. It was a long drive home too, especially since I was by myself. We ended up taking 2 cars because we took a big TV and that took up most of the room in the truck.
I did not realize I would miss her this much. I have always had both of my kids with me on my birthday but she was missing which got me depressed even more. Not to mention that when I weighed myself it looks like i have gained about 8 pounds within the past month. I know I have been vacation for 2 of those 4 weeks but come on! I knew I was eating and drinking the wrong things so what was I expecting? To loose weight? Yeah right! Also my excercise was not up to par either. I have to get back on track and re-focused. I have a 1/2 marathon to think about for gods sake!!!
Speaking of marathon, I trained last night..something I have not done in 2 weeks since my 10 mile run. I think I did pretty good. Breathing was a little out of control, but I was able to get it back on track by the end of my 4 miles. When I came home I figured out my intervals to be 13.5 min miles. Pretty cool. Now I just need to keep that pace....as long as I am about 15 min miles I know I can finish this thing....this is my goal! I wanted my other goal to be under 200 lbs by this time but that did not happen. After the marathon I need to re-focus on that goal and obtain it. That's why I made a Dr appointment for next week to possibly get another fill to help me out.
Aug 13, 2008
Looking at my weight history, it looks like I have been stuck at the same weight for the past 2 months! I really need to get re-focused on what I am eating. The excersing is not a problem since I have been training for the 1/2 marathon later this month. I am very proud that I completed my 10 miles this past Sunday. Especially when I did it by myself. Now I just need to complete the 1/2 marathon! I am logging this down because I want proof that I am reminding myself to get back on track with my eating habits!!! Not sure how this weekend will go since I am going to Vegas with my friends but I definately want to be down more weight for my 1 year surgiversay in Jan. I know that I can do this!!!!
Mar 07, 2008
Today is Friday and I go to WW tomorrow. It seems like this last fill was really helping me this week. I am not getting hungry alot during my meals and I am feeling satisfied with the portions that I am eating which is a good thing. I still am sticking to working out 3 times a week and then on the weekend. And I am going to Brandon my trainer twice a week at night. I think the weight lifting is helping alot. I lost 4.2 last week at weigh in. I can't wait to see what I am tomorrow! I was able to reach my 1st 10% at WW. So total of 25 pounds down since I joined in November! I can't tell you how good it felt for the leader to give me my 10% keychain. All the times that I have joined WW in the past, I have never gotten to 10%. This is giving the courage to continue on my journey. I know I can do this. I work my butt off and it is finally showing on the scale!
Feb 28, 2008
Got my 2nd fill today. Doc told me he normally only adds 1 cc on the 2nd visit. I told him I have been pretty much hungry every 2 hours for the last week. He gave me 1.22! I am crossing my fingers this helps with the hunger and weight loss. See I gained .2 last Saturday. When I got weighed in at the dr today I had lost only 1 pound from the last time I saw him which was 2 weeks ago. I am working out now more than ever and I just want that damn scale to drop! I am going on a plane at the end of next month and it will sure be nice to not have to suck it all in to put my seatbelt on. I see the doc in another 2 weeks. Sucks being on liquids today. I am so sore from my trainer session on Tuesday I could barely walk! I had to take some of my pain meds from surgery last night, but it left me soooo drowsy today. I am dragging! Crossing my fingers to when I eat tomorrow that I will be satisfied more. And here's hoping the WW scale shows more of a loss this Saturday. I looked at my log in and I have really not lost anything in the past 4 weeks. SUCKS bigtime! Trying to keep positive that I still made the right decision to have the surgery..but there are doubts in my head especially since I pretty much eat the same now as when I was dieting. My husband keeps reminding me that in the past, I would gain pounds at a time and not just .2 so I should try to remember that. What would I do without him!
IT WAS MY IMAGINATION!
Feb 22, 2008
Well, after re-reading my last blog, I realized that it was my mind playing tricks on me! I guess it was just the fact that I had the fill in the morning and it took me awhile to drink my shake. But the next day I was back to being hungry and not getting full fast enough. Last Saturday when I weighed in, I had lost .8 of the .6 I had gained the previous week. But the good news is, I have completed week 2 of my working out. I get up at 5 am on Tues, Wed & Thurs. But last night I worked out again at the gym doing weights. And I signed up with my trainer again. So that means for the next 15 weeks I will be doing 2 a days on Tuesday & Thursdays. Lord give me strength! I want to loose the weight so bad and I am hoping this will kick it up to gear. I also make sure to do some kind of excercise on the weekends. So I am crossing my fingers that when I weigh in tomorrow I will be more than a pound down. I am looking forward to my next fill. I am hoping it will help with the hunger pains I get. And the amount of food I intake. I think it is too much. Although it is a lot smaller potion than what I use to eat.
Here is hoping to good news tomorrow!
Feb 14, 2008
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!
Well today I got my first fill and I think it is already working or maybe it is my imagination! I have been sipping my slim fast shake since about 9:30 and it is now 11:00 and I cannot finish it! I was scared to have the fill. Not sure what to expect, but all went well. Only felt a little burning when the doc gave me the numbing shot. I already had 2.5 cc in the band and the doc gave me 1.5 to bring me up to 4 total. I go back in 2 weeks to see how it is working. I am hoping the fill will help me with hunger and weight loss. I have not lost anything this week. In fact when I weighed myself yesterday the scale said I gained 3 pounds! I was totally upset. My hubby was trying to keep me positve, but I felt so defeated.
I probley have been eating some things that I should not. A little chocolate here and there (because there was no problem with it going down) and more carbs that I know I should not have.
So today is a new day and I am getting back on track! I worked out 3 times this week at the gym in the morning, so I am hoping that will help me out too. I am going to stick to this. I am thinking this is more atainable that trying to commit to EVERY day. I am looking foward to sleeping in a little tomorrow morning. Getting up at 5 really sucks! But I know I need to do it.
So hopefully I will be able to check in at a lower # next week!
Feb 08, 2008
Just checking in, since it has been awhile. I started a new position at work and I have not had any free time since I am in training for most of the day. When I went to my WW meeting last Saturday 2/2/08, I weighed in at 218. So far that is 16 pounds down! What a feeling! At lunch today I went to Old Navy and bought a new pair of jeans....and yes, I am down a size. Acutally more than that because I normally would wear the plus size section of 20 but I tried on a 18 in the regular womans section. I can't how good it feels to be in a pair of jeans like that. I can't wait to wear them! I think they make my butt look smaller...hehe!
I am trying to stick to excercising at least 4 times a day. I have been feeling good so I think I am going to try and step in the gym next week. Since it is early in the year and everybody and their mother is at the gym at night, I will wake myself up early and go in the mornings before work.
My eating has been pretty good. I am not 100% sticking to EVERYTHING. I am still lacking on my vegtables. But I am trying to make sure that I get in at least 60 grams of protein a day.
My first fill is next Thursday and I am hoping it will take my hunger away some. I am starting to feel hungry more in between meals and I don't like it! So hopefully my 1st fill will help me out.
I weigh in again tomorrow so hopefully I will down a little more...not sure since I have been PMS'ing this week!
Also...I was having some personal "piping" problems going on for the past 2 weeks, but I am happy to report that this week all pipes seem to be clear! That was pretty rough while it lasted!
Crossing fingers for tomorrow!
Jan 18, 2008
I just got back from the Dr's office and I have lost a total of 11 pounds since I last saw him on 1/3/08. I know this has to do with only having liquids, but what a way to start! I have never lost this much so fast! It just gives me hope that I can do this whole thing this time. I go for my 1st fill in about 4 weeks. And I am also happy to annouce that tonight will be my LAST slim fast shake! Yup, I can finally eat soft foods. I am feeling pretty good so I am going to start walking tomorrow morning. I normally could walk for about 3 miles but the doc told me to take it slow. I have another 4 weeks of healing to do. I can't wait to take my bike down to the beach for a long ride! I never thought I would get so excited to go to the market, but tonight I am going to fill my cart with things I will be able to eat. I told the Dr I was kind of scared to actually eat. I don't want to have anything "come up" or get "stuck" on me. She said a little fear is good. It will make me more aware to eat slowly. Believe me, I will be eating slowly and enjoying every bite! I also am aware that the weight loss will be slowing down now that I will be eating. I am prepared for that. As long as the scale goes down and not up, I will be a happy camper! Have not tried to wear jeans to work yet, afraid they will hit my port site which is still a little sore, so we will see what happens next week!
Jan 16, 2008
This whole liquid thing sucks! My Dr has me on two weeks of liquids and I swear, I never want to see a slim fast can again after I am done with this. Technically I my two weeks stops on Monday, but I am going to ask the Dr's office if I can start on Saturday. I can't wait...I never thought that I would see the day that I would be happy eating cottage cheese! Other than that, I am doing fine. Stopped needing to take the pain medication and was able to sleep on my stomach for a couple of nights, so that was nice. I came back to work today. We will see how tired I will be when I get home. I am trying to not weigh myself everyday, but looking at it like every 3-4 days and I am happy to report that I see the numbers going down. I will give a offical clock in on Saturday after my WW meeting. They weighed me in at 228. In November when I started WW I was at 239. In the Dr office in November I was at 241 so I am curious to see what my weight is there when I check in on Friday for my nutrition class. You know I will be updateing!