Desari63
Let's get started!!
Aug 03, 2021
Hello All! I'm the creator of this group and available via here or email any time someone needs to talk or just someone to listen!
Barbara
Going back to the beginning...
Jul 22, 2020
Well, I'm back here again where I started back in 2012. I started out at 276 prior to my surgery and got all the way down to 179. Over the last 5 years, I have slowly again and I'm now at 225. It seems my body doesn't like anything below 200 and that SUCKS!! I have no energy and don't want to anything except work, go home, get in my PJ's and sit on the sofa doing NOTHING!
I had a kidney and heart surgery in 2018. Boy was that a sucky year! Filed for bankruptcy in 2019 and basically debt-free with the exception of our 2 vehicles, home, and now new windows for that home. I think that was a cause of alot of my stress and it's gone now but damn if I can't shake this feeling of being tired and not wanting to do anything. CoVid-19 isn't helping matters but at least I have been able to work from the beginning.
I have started journaling my days again and what I eat. The last 2 days I have had barely over 1000 calories and not changed much of what I have. I have been trying to cut down on the carbs and starchy foods. I take my meds/vitamins daily and drink enough water that I need a catheter...LOL!
I can do this but I need the support that I don't seem to be getting at home like I used to. Ken says he's worried but he doesn't help matters when he decides on meals and such. I keep telling him "no" but he keeps asking if I want what he's having (ie, ice cream...GRRRR!!!).
I'm leaving on my trip to NY to see my family on 08/26/2020 so I want to see just what I can do between now and then and see if I can lose even 5 pounds...Wish me luck!
Weight Stall
Apr 04, 2013
Well since I last wrote I have been in a stall. I am still at around 180 to 185 and have been flucating between the 2 for about 6 months now. I am now trying to go back and eat differently that I have been lately..I'm feeling puny so it's been a power bar for breakfast, a glass of tea, an 8oz cup of chicken broth and a handful of peanuts (salted of course). I'm stressing right now and I haven't wanted to eat so much since before I had surgery but this is hard and I'm having trouble.
Lord help me get through this and get back on track...
FINALLY...ONDERLAND!
Jul 30, 2012
Almost there!!!!!
Jul 20, 2012
This is really pissing me off!!!!!
Jul 13, 2012
Okay..now I'm really getting mad about this! I was in a stall for about 2-3 wks and then the scale started to move just slightly down so I thought...Cool, it's broke and it should start dropping again. Well guess what....IT STOPPED AGAIN AND I PUT 2LBS BACK ON!!! WTF!!!!? I have cut back again on eating, taking my vitamins, drinking my protein shakes and cut out almost all carbs expect what's in the foods I do eat that have the protein in it....CRAP CRAP!!!
I'm not giving up and it will never win! I'm winning this battle and the WAR!!!!! 
Bring on the calvery!!!
Didn't make my goal...crap.
Jun 19, 2012
I'm going to do this...time to get back on track with walking and eating again.
OMG...here we go again!!
Jun 11, 2012
Now for the bad news...went to the dr for my 3 month check up and my BP is high and not sure why. My A1C is great at 6.5 which my doctor is happy about but he's concerned about the BP. Told me to keep an eye on it and if it gets over 140/80 consistantly, then we may be back on meds again for a little while until more weight comes off. Did I mention...I HATE MEDS!!!!? I so hate them so I'm keeping any eye on it and it's doing a little better but still not down where he wants it to be. I'll keep track for another 2wks and if no improvement then I'll give him a call.
I will not let this defeat me! I will be med free before the year is out if I have to go back on BP meds!!! NEVER GIVE UP...NEVER SURRENDER!!!
My new adventure!
Jun 04, 2012
Fast forward to February 29, 2012 and another husband later..LOL!...
I had my Gastric Sleeve surgery in Juarez, Mexico that day. We drove into El Paso, Texas the day before and was picked up at the airport by the shuttle service and they took us over the border directly to the hospital w/o incident (Keep in mind that Juarez is the most dangerous city in Mexico). Needless to say I felt as safe there as I would in my own home. Surgery came and went without any complications. I was walking within 4 hours after surgery, had my fluorscopy the next day and off pain medication at that time as well. At the time of surgery I weighed in at 266 with a BMI of about 43.
Fast forward again...are we dizzy yet?...Monday June 4, 2012...
Stepped on the scale and BAM!!! 212 pounds! That's a total loss of 53 pounds in less than 4 months! I'm so totally shocked! I have dropped in clothes size from a 22/24 to an 18 and just about ready to go to a 16. I'm in my last pair of jeans that I had in the closet that I haven't been able to wear in about 3 years and they are 16W. I have a regular pair of size 18 jeans but they are not "W" so they are a little snug but I will get in them soon. I can see the change based on my clothes but I can't see one when I look in the mirror. Is that "fat girl syndrome"? I had a friend that had that until this year when she had all the surgery to fix the access skin and her boobs. That was the day she finally realized that she was no longer that same fat girl she saw in the mirror for so long. Will it take me that long to see the difference and get that out of my head? My husband, who loves me regardless, can see it and all my friends at work and away from work can. Even my son and his wife can but I can't for some reason. I can't seem to take my own advise to heart when I tell my friends that have had this surgery that they have changed so much!
As for now, I will try and keep blogging when I feel the need to vent or to just remind myself that I can do it and all it takes is me caring about me..
