Going back to the beginning...
Jul 22, 2020
Well, I'm back here again where I started back in 2012. I started out at 276 prior to my surgery and got all the way down to 179. Over the last 5 years, I have slowly again and I'm now at 225. It seems my body doesn't like anything below 200 and that SUCKS!! I have no energy and don't want to anything except work, go home, get in my PJ's and sit on the sofa doing NOTHING!
I had a kidney and heart surgery in 2018. Boy was that a sucky year! Filed for bankruptcy in 2019 and basically debt-free with the exception of our 2 vehicles, home, and now new windows for that home. I think that was a cause of alot of my stress and it's gone now but damn if I can't shake this feeling of being tired and not wanting to do anything. CoVid-19 isn't helping matters but at least I have been able to work from the beginning.
I have started journaling my days again and what I eat. The last 2 days I have had barely over 1000 calories and not changed much of what I have. I have been trying to cut down on the carbs and starchy foods. I take my meds/vitamins daily and drink enough water that I need a catheter...LOL!
I can do this but I need the support that I don't seem to be getting at home like I used to. Ken says he's worried but he doesn't help matters when he decides on meals and such. I keep telling him "no" but he keeps asking if I want what he's having (ie, ice cream...GRRRR!!!).
I'm leaving on my trip to NY to see my family on 08/26/2020 so I want to see just what I can do between now and then and see if I can lose even 5 pounds...Wish me luck!