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I have been at goal since about the 7th of February.Then life happened,had to do some emergency travel,moved house and in March I lost another 8 pounds in 2 weeks.It was great as I felt great but I was too thin.Imagine that..lol.I couldnt sit anymore as my tailbone was aching so badly I couldnt stand it.the bruising got worse again and I started having severe tingling and burning in my hands.

last week I decided I had to gain back about 4 pounds.Well,it took me only 4 days to do that and it scared the daylights out of me.It is still as easy as ever to gain weight.Just eat some refined carbs.I now weigh 160 and am 5'8 tall and big boned.

At the moment I am struggling as I dont feel good about the gain.I have decided to drop the 4 again,but slowly this time.

 Will be going for bloods next week as I am struggling with LOTS of bruises.I mean a lot,for no reason.Did a dexa scan a couple of weeks ago that was normal.

anyway,I am so happy to be thin.Now I just have to work some more on balance.I need to find out how to not lose (after losing my 4) and not gaining while eating somewhat healthier.

This journey is not over.In fact,I have a feeling that it has only just started.

on another note.I am too scared for plastics.But people stare at my arms.My friend told me it makes me look old,the arms being so wrinkly..lol.I will wait until after summer to make a decision about the plastics.Maybe I will be fed up by then with all this lose skin as we are going on a beach holiday very soon.This is a challenge for me as one cannot hide the wrinkles at the beach..lol.

Still the best thing I ever did for myself though,wrinkles and all.

 

Recently I have been struggling a bit.Decided to up my water and jog just a bit and voila,dropped 2 pounds.I will post when the last one is gone.

Today I weighed 168.8.Not too shabby for 10 months out.Its a loss of 128.2 pounds.

My eating is a bit rough at the moment.I am experiencing the old craving for food in the evening know  that I must not give in to this.Even with the higher carbs I am still losing quite well.there is loads of loose skin and I have to kind of make peace with the way it looks for now.I dont want to go for plastics until I have lost everything and settled into maintenance for a while.

i keep saying I will start exercising but maybe I really should.It wont do much for the loose skin but it might help smoothe out the wobbly legs a little.I really wish I did this surgery just 5 years earlier as when I lost the weight with the band I had almost no loose skin but for the boobs that went south years earlier already.

my size is a 12 UK top and 14 bottom.My butt looks terrible and the kids keep telling me to pull up my pants.They dont understand the butt looks like that for now...lol

all in all I am happy but still want to lose until I feel all the fat bits are gone.

the only complaint I have is that the surgery kicked me right into menopause.My estrogen dropped right away.I am having hot flushes from hell and I hate this.have decided years ago already that I would not so HRT so I just have to try and get some starflower capsules which people say really works wonders for the flushes.

anyway,thats life for now.I will try and take some pics to post as I am still as camera shy as before.

life is good in the desert.

 

A quick pre new year post.We have been on holiday in South Africa now for almost 3 weeks.The eating is super challenging for me as I have to eat what people cook and try to make the best choices when eating out.I am not being good.Have been eating a little of everything,even French fries..

I got on my friend's scale today and it doesn't look as if I have gained anything.It was not a digital scale though.

some food don't agree with me.Veggies seems to not go down,we'll,at all.It makes me slime.Carbs slide down.The protein is still 3oz.I have also had a gin and tonic everyday so far.It is holiday for goodness sake.

having said that,I don't over eat but I have had a few sips of liquid with my meals at times.I am really scared of gaining though.I am also scared of the carbs I am eating as it does make my capacity more.My hair is also falling out a lot again but I have no idea why.I am still doing enough protein I think.

Will post again when we get home on the 5th and really hope to post no gain.

Today I weigh 174.5 pounds.For some reason I've had a wonderful weight loss month.In kilograms that is 79.5kg's and its the first time in 22 years that I weigh less than 80kg's.

At this point I will get to the dr's goal of 165 quicker than I thought and will then lose another 11 pounds to get to 154 or 70kg's for maintanance.

The lose skin is bad but I will see about plastics next year.Not too worried about it now even though I see people look at my flabby arms,or Ai am just super paranoid about it..lol

am off on a holiday to ISouth Africa for 3 weeks and its summer there.I am sure it will be fine but I do worry every time we go away that I will gain weight.

As for food.We eat a lot of spicy food lately.We also use full fat milk in the house now and I've started cooking with olive oil as my kids needs the fats and I dont think the diet mentality that they've seen from me for so long is good for them.My 11 year old started question m about every meal.Is there fat in it?Is there carbs in it and I've realized that she thinks about this too much instead of just eating small portions of great food,not too little not too much.We are now all trying to eat mindfully again and it seems to work very well,looking at my weight loss this month.

So,hopefully with my next update I will be at goal,have a tan and be well rested for the new year.

After another 3 week stall I've dropped a few pounds and now weigh 189.Slower,but still going down.

My surgery was March 13,2012.This has been a great journey so far. Forgive me if there is errors in my typing as I find this format with the tiny column to type in and not being able to see what I have typed hard...lol For the first 7 months I have lost weight in the "stair step" way which I found very frustraring.I would stall for long periods of time (several weeks) and then drop 10 pounds in a few days.Time has made me patient and because I am under 200 now,192 pounds,I have come to accept the way I lose.I do not freak out every day when I get on the scale anymore. It does seem that I can eat a little more but I usually dont.I keep the carbs as low as possible,but I like tea with milk.The carbs in milk can be quite high when you drink 5 cups a day but I have reduced my cup size and only do 2oz of milk per cup.Some days more.The total carbs do come to 30 sometimes just for the milk per day which usually takes my daily carbs to about 50.It is actually too high as I lose faster when I am lower carb but I am not going to change this. As far as exercise are concerned I am not consistent in that I would go on a mad program of running,squash,gygm work and then I would drop most things and only play squash twice a week.At the moment I can see why I should do a lot more toning and am planning to get a personal trainer very soon. Now I can eat most foods but dont and I dont eat fruit,tomato,pickles,olivesor drink too much coffe as it gives me stomach ache and I develop gastritis very often. My clothes size is a 16 and I have set a goal for myself to lose 15 pounds by the 17th of December before I go on holiday to SA. Coping with the amount of eccess skin,everywhere is mentally difficult.My arms makes me depressed..lol.But,what can I do at this point but see it as battle scars?Plastics will definitely be on the cards when I get to goal and when I can have the courage to do it.I hate having surgery and the idea scares me. Well,I will update regularly to keep an organized track record of how the weight and inches are coming off.I keep going back to a friends blog.She had her surgery exactly 2 years before me and kept a very good blog the whole time she was losing until she was finished with plastics.I must confess I do compare us as she exercised like crazy and where as she was a size smaller than me at this point I weigh about 10 pounds lighter.Our stats were exactly the same except I am one inch taller than her.Good reference point for me. November will be the month for exercise and a 10 pound loss!