I want one moment in time,
When I'm more than I thought I could be.
Then all of my dreams are a heartbeat away,
And the answers are all up to me.
Give me one moment in time,
When I'm racing with destiny.
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel eternity.
I will be free.
-
Whitney Houston

I'm married 32 years to the same wonderful gentleman, my best friend, my lover.
I have 3 grown successful children, 1 grandson, Trevor and 2 granddaughters, Emma & Mia Rose.
My family is my entire life.
I retired from nursing in 2002 because of health problems and am now preparing for graduation from college with a degree in Interior Design soon if things keep going well for me.

I've struggled with my weight really all of my life. When I was 17 years old I lost a lot of weight on Weight Watchers and that's when my life took a major turn. Some for the good...some not so good.

But because I had spent all my younger years as overweight I really didn't enjoy it all that much. I never really stayed thin long enough to really experience it totally.

I become so angry and it gravely saddens me because I've found it to be very true that a person is treated differently when you are "obese."

I was even told by someone at one time, a very pretty young lady too that, "I won't talk to you because I only speak to pretty people." What a kick in the behind... it was devastating to have someone seriously mean that.

My good Dr. friend John recently talked honestly with me about my WLS plans and confided to me that unfortunately super over weight people are viewed as weak people who lack self control and self respect. He admitted though he tries not to be that way, he occasionally does when meeting a patient for the very first time and needs to remind himself of this prejudice & stereotypical thinking.

So back to before...I met my husband not long after I lost that first big weight back in the early 70's and we married 9 months later... and on my wedding day I was a mean lean 120 lbs. I felt so happy then.

Then I gave birth to my 3 babies, 2 years apart from each other and zoom...up & up I went into the 200 range. And since then I've gained so much more. #144 lbs gained since 1975. 80 lbs. of that was in one year too!

Well, my children are all grown now and are all very health aware too. They all work out and eat healthy diets...and my husband Jeff is talking about how he'd like to travel starting next year. God I'd love to go and be able to walk, to play, to laugh without becoming drenched in sweat and so short of breath that I feel like I'm going to fall down!

9/14/05 I'm ready for my surgery I think and shooting to get on with my recovery. I want to be well on my way before the holidays get here...This morning before I'm admitted I I think of how I can't wait to see my kids faces as I start to get smaller...my boys are going to freak...my daughter will be excited for me...my hubby will be sad to lose his eating buddy though I think...or...maybe not...

12/7/06- I am frightened, very frightened this morning as I prep for my abdominoplasty...I am keenly aware of the potentials for complications for me here especially being a bariatric graduate but I am going to be ok...but my husband and my closest friends remind me that things really worthwhile are not without it's stumbling blocks. I've come to believe that this is true and I know I will come out on the other side of all of this happier and healthier than I could ever imagine.

Thank you Lord. Thank you Aetna. Thank you everyone who has supported me. There just aren't enough words to express my deepest gratitude for everything you've done to help make my wildest wishes come true.
 

About Me
Derry, NH
Location
24.8
BMI
RNY
Surgery
09/14/2005
Surgery Date
Jul 04, 2005
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