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Nov 17, 2010

I went to my doctors office today and the receptionist nearly freaked out...I have lost about 70 pounds since I started this journey and she just made me feel so good... This is my reg doctor's receptionist and she has been so supportive and encouraging during this whole process... It just made me feel really good to see her reaction.
So many times so one may tell me how good I look now but you know its not real... they go over broad, call me skinny ( not likely since I am still over 300 pounds) tell me how i am wasting away...its just not real and you know it... then like a breath of fresh air someone gives you an honest reaction. i would rather have an honest negitive reaction then a fake positive one any day of the week....

There are pros and cons but I think even the cons are pros... such as...
i can eat what ever I want now...I am only 5 weeks out but have no trouble eating what ever I choose just not alot of it, so it is very important that i choose what is going to be best for me... it puts the resposibility on me. When I looked into getting wls and was checking out the different proceedures I was drawn to the sleeve for this very reason, for me... and I do preference this with "For Me" because we are all different and have different needs and wants... so For me, what I really wanted was to have a "normal" life when all was said and done... and that means not having food, and what i can and cannot eat not be at the center of my life all the time... it was reading so many blogs,hundreds (believe it or not)that convinced me that it was posssible...
I make more positive choices in my life concerning my food... since I can only have so much I make sure  get some kind of protien with every bite...
I find that I am craving stronger flavors... I want every bite to count.,..not just nutritionally but in flavor as well... because i eat so much less I am finding that I can afford to buy better cuts of meat, fresh fish/seafood,  fresh organic veggies and fruit... so that is a wonderful thing... though I notice that things are different when I go out to eat...
This morning my mother and I went out to breakfast at this new place she wanted to try.. I had 1 egg and 1 sausage link and ended up not eating all the sausage... what I really wanted was the spinach and cheddar omlet but I knew that I was never going to be able to eat even half of it...so I didn't order it...but it really sounded good and one day at home I will try to make my own version...
This is all about taking resposibility and making changes in my life... my sleeve makes it easier for me to do that...
I feel better,
I have more energy
My blood pressure is normal
My blood sugar is normal
My blood ox is getting close to normal.
I am stronger
I am happier
I am more content
I have hope
I am proud of what I have accomplished this year...

My whole life I have spent waiting to live... when grow up I will do... when My kids are grown I will... when I loose weight I will... always at some future date i will live my life.... no more... today i start living my life... this moment I start living my life... I will do all the things I want  to do, and stop waiting for some future moment that never really arrives

well I guess that's it for a while..
I really do love my sleeve and I am learning to love myself

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Fort Myers, FL
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10/11/2010
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Mar 14, 2010
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