wow...its been along time since I posted anything here

Jul 20, 2011

Its amazing what happens after you have wls... you get a freakin' life...
Between being back to work ( and not missing a single day due to illness since I have been back after my surgery)...going on my first cruise, going on my first mystery dinner train excursion, actually dating again ( and should I say having sex again) working out occasionally ( as long as we aren't counting the sex part) I just have not had time to keep things up like I was...I am sorry...
I have to say I am loving my life...
I have lost 150 pounds since my surgery October 11Th last year... from 400 pounds to 250... so far... I have lost a whole person...my mother weighs 158 pounds and she was shocked that I have lost the equilivent of her... imagine carrying a full grown adult woman and a preteen child wrapped around your body all day every day... OMG... you have no idea the freedom that comes with finally being able to set them down...to be able to move, and to breathe deeper... to have hope again, to love life again...
Now I realize that I am still in the honeymoon phase and that's OK with me... I like honeymoons... I have done the research... I know that it doesn't always last... but I am going to enjoy it while it does, and hopefully, baring any unforeseen circumstances, and I continue to do all the things that I am suppose to do, it will be a long and happy honeymoon....
now for some particulars...
besides the 150 lb weight loss to date...
I am completely off the oxygen that I was on 24/7 before surgery
I am completely off the cpap machine
I am completely off 23 of the 25 meds I was on before surgery .. (using only 2 asthma meds)
I have been completely cleared of COPD... (though I still have and will always have asthma)
I am completely off all insulin...( was taking shots and pills before surgery)
My goal of being able to walk and breathe at the same time is accomplished.,,,

And there are other more intangible though no less important things that have happened...
I am becoming more comfortable in my own skin... loose as it may be
I am getting to know Debbie... my confidence level is through the roof... I am getting much better at setting boundaries and sticking to them.. I no longer think that I have to be someone  I am not to make others happy or accept me...either you do or you dint... its entirely up to you...I feel better about myself... I may be a "looser" but no longer am I a failure...

Is life perfect...hell no.. wasn't before surgery and I didn't expect it to be after... my life in and of it self has not changed... I on the other hand have changed a whole lot more then just the number on the scale and my dress size... the surgery is part of that, but the biggest part is and was the decision to fight for and change my life 10 months before the surgery happened... and getting the surgery was part of those changes I decided to make in the effort to fight for my life...without it the way I was going I would probably not have been here to write this blog...,not the way I was going...after a total of 6 months in and out of the hospital last year, (before wls) I was not going to last a whole lot longer... so to say I love my life... you have no idea... if I never lost another pound... I would still be ecstatic with the results... who wouldn't be..,
love you all...
Deb

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