A. Robinson

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UGH!!!!!!!!!!!! So, yesterday was supposed to be the day I had been looking forward to for about a mth and a half. I took the day off & so did my husband. I was going to see a surgeon in Chattanooga, TN about 2 1/2 hrs away from my home. I was all excited and we left on time, giving us about a 20 minute cushion. My appt was at 3. We stopped for gas about 2 and we were about 35 min away. My husband looked at his watch & said he forgot that we had just went through a time zone & the time had changed. WTH?! I totally forgot the time went up an hour!!! I called them to explain and they didn't want to hear it. They said he was already behind and my appt was an hr long & he had a meeting at 4. All of that could NOT happen in an hour regardless. They wouldn't fit me in any kind of way. I had already driven for 2 hrs. I was CRUSHED!!! How could I be so stupid? I completely forgot I was switching over time zones and they were an hour ahead of us. I cried all the way home. Getting off of my job is a big deal. I wasted it. I thought about that appt everyday for about 45 days. Oh well. My update.

So here I am 2 1/2 yrs after my initial sleeve gastrectomy and I am feeling like a huge failure. I wish that I had chosen the RNY over the sleeve gastrectomy. I haven't lost the weight I had hoped to & I have gained back 21 lbs. I have had a lot go on in the past few years and I am in a much better place than I was then. I am hoping to have revision surgery. I have an appt in Chattanooga on Nov. 11th and hope that this surgeon will see a need for a revision. My original surgeon does not perform revisions. I am so bummed that I failed the original surgery. I truly want one more chance to get this right. I want to be an athlete again & be healthy. I will update once I meet with the surgeon...

One month down & the rest of my life to go! Since I began the weight loss journey, I have lost 28 lbs. That included a 10 day pre-op diet. Now that I have pretty much healed, I am going to kick the exercise up this month. I am going to walk more vigorously and drink more water! Those first few days post op were kind of hard because I felt like all I did was drink water. I had no trouble swallowing anything, I was just tired of the taste. Unfortunately I do not like flavored water. So it is just water, unsweet tea & skim milk. I know now that I can do this. I will overcome this struggle that has had a grip on me for 20 yrs. I am going to healthy & full of energy : )

Ugh! This is very hard. Going cold turkey is not what I had in mind. I have cheated a time or two but with nothing unhealthy. Im just not use to fighting through the hunger. I have not had a Diet Dr. Pepper since Monday morning and I feel surprisingly good. I don't even crave it. I ate some grilled chicken nuggets from Chick fil A for lunch when I was supposed to have a protein shake. I have to make sure that I drink that shake for my dinner tonight. I also have got to start working out some this weekend. No baseball and the gym is literally in my back yard. I will do better!!! Next week when I have to have 4 shakes a day I will put nothing in my mouth other than that!!!!!!! I hope I am not the only weak one. Can't wait till the 29th so I can start a brand new me & hope & pray that I start eating to live instead of living to eat!!