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I have been overweight my entire life..never known what thin is like...about Christmas '07 I started researching VSG and decided to go ahead that June....my life had been pretty much the same for a long time, single girl, great career....well my whole life has changed this year....I met and quickly married the love of my life(I copied a post I made a while back below of our courtship!), something I thought for so long was something "big girls" don't get to do...and on June 23, 2008 I had my VSG....the surgery went so well, really no problems, and I am doing great!!! I feel so blessed....I attribute it to having great support and a positive attitude....I am so happy to look forward to a happy healthy future filled with possibilities!!
My Love Story:
So, I guess I will start from the beginning....last September a dear friend of mine visited me for the week-end...I shared with her my real desire to find someone, I have been single my whole life, ....I had been dating quite a bit....had made a decision to just say yes to anyone that seemed interesting (I was on Match.com)..I also had a go-to guy that was fun, but really just a friend....but they all were not what I wanted really, there was always something missing....so my friend Nicki told me I needed to decide what I really wanted in love....and it would come to me....that night I wrote a letter to god....asking for the man I wanted to come into my life...I asked for him to arrive by my birthday March 11 2008...I outlined what came to me that night...I sealed it and mailed it back to me, I thought this way it would cast the spell and I would have a postmark....I put it next to my bed, unopened...and whenever I got a lonely feeling, I would just think "no, the letter is working...",
Around Christmas, I started researching WLS again...my insurance doesn't cover it and the Lap-band and RNY never seemed to fit me...but when I started learning about the VSG all the reasons I had against it before seemed to not be the case....I knew my job would end in June...so I started to plan on it for the end of June, found a surgeon and my focus shifted to preparing mentally, financially and physically for the VSG...my birthday came and went....no love found me....so I thought "well maybe next year" with a hint of disappointment, but my hope was bent on my upcoming plans....So, at the beginning of April...I began thinking I should take down my profile on Match, I was pretty uninterested in dating and knew it would be sticky with the surgery..... on April 6...I got a "wink"....it was from "N", I had seen on the site and thought was interesting , he's British, in the movie business like me, and had just moved to the same suburb of LA I live in...but in his preferences it didn't list "curvy" or "full-figured" so I never considered contacting him myself....but after the wink I thought why not....I sent him a quick note...and a couple days later he wrote me..but with the news he was leaving for six weeks to work in Asia and was concerned I may not want to write....but I thought this was great! I was so jaded by dating that it got me off the hook to have the awkward coffee date so soon...so at best, I thought I would get some news about what Beijing is like....well I go something so much better.....we proceeded to write over 100 letters to each other....love letters...about our hopes, dreams, lives.....beautiful words exchanged between two people who have been looking for each other for a long time.....however there was one problem...about 40 e-mails and a few phone calls in, I still hadn't mentioned the surgery...I wanted to tell him in person, I actually posted a topic on here looking for feed-back on what to do...I think there was one guy who very kindly advised me to tell him as soon as possible...but I still hated the thought it was all going to end...and an e-mail or a phone call wasn't good enough....but then one day I knew I was falling in love with N....and if i didn't tell him soon, I would be crushed if he rejected me...so that night I wrote him, telling him as concisely and honestly why I had chosen to do this and that I understood if it was too much for him....I then shut the lap-top, walked the dogs and was about to crawl in bed to try and not suffer the wait for his response...and then the phone rang.......it was him.....calling from 3000 miles away....he was calling to say that he was 100% supportive, that if that is what I needed to do to be happy, then it made him happy, the tone of his voice was so loving, so concerned....I couldn't believe it, never could I have dreamed of this.....after I hung up. it was then I opened the letter....I knew it my heart what it said, but didn't remember the details....in one of the first lines....I got goosebumps....I asked god to send me a "world traveler", he had been to over 14 countries just this year...and everything else described him to the letter....and then the last line said that "I would promise to live the healthiest life possible if god granted me this love", it was a little scary and exhilarating at the same time...I mean I wrote a few words, made a wish and it was coming true!!!...
I picked "N" up at the airport on May 13, we were so much in love before every being in each other's presence, but when we met, it just all came together....he had been looking for me for a long time too...he had made a similar wish, had decided to move to LA about the time I wrote the letter and moved literally up the street from me about a mile.....all he says with the intent to find me....
We were engaged about two weeks later at my parents house in Florida, a day before their anniversary!..and got married at a small chapel in a beach town in Northern California on June 2 ( I had actually planned the trip and rented the beach house a month before, never thinking it would be our honeymoon!) The same friend Nicki, that had inspired me to write the letter was a witness, her husband the other, I had told her when I first called her to tell her I had met N, that it was good karma, well when I called her a month later to ask her to be our witness, she told me she was pregnant!!!, due almost 9 months to the day, N and I met, I told her I may need to warn her next time I send her good karma!!!
We will be having a proper wedding at Christmas with friends and family at a large ranch in Ojai...and as an added bonus, by then I will be able to wear a beautiful wedding dress I feel great in!!!
I thought I would be going through all of this on my own, as I have most things in my life up until now....I now have the most loving, supportive, amazing man to be by my side....who I know loves me no matter the number on the scale.... all the reasons to do the surgery before have changed.....I now want to live the longest life possible for my husband, family...to have healthy pregnancies and be a happy mom......so to anyone out there looking for something, be it love or some other seemingly impossible dream....let this be an inspiration....set an intention....and believe in it ...even when it's hard to fathom....because there is some kind of magic to it all....Blessings and Joy to everyone...I will be on here a lot more beseeching your help as I start my journey in the next couple weeks!
Thanks!
