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Wow, I still can not believe it has been this long...time just really flies by once you get over the post-op period.  I rarely come to OH anymore, but I do lurk at times.  I must say, I am loving my DS and Dr Peters, he is the BEST in my humble opinion.  Stats: Height - 5'10"
Weight - 187
Pants - 16-18
Dresses - XL
Tops - XL
And note, these sizes are "regular sizes" not Womans....HOLLA!

And I will be the first to say, that if I cut out some of the junk carbs, I would probably lose more...but I feel I am at a good weight, I look good, I feel good....and if I could get this excess tire cut off my waist I would be even more thin....I see my collarbones everyday!!

Although I would love if the small window of doubt would go away, I am still (at times) fearful that I will gain my weight back and be 330 pounds again....but then I have a good poo and get on the scale and HELLO...same weight...just waiting for the head to catch up with the rest of the body. 

One downfall is......SHOPPING...this spring I have become addicted to dresses...and I am not talking those long maxi ones...hell no, I love the short ones that show off my skinny legs!!!

And to celebrate, when I was in LA last week, I got a new tattoo from LA Ink....I'll post a picture...

Good luck to everyone pre and post-op, although you will not need it, you had the DS!!  I know so many told me that and I wasn't a believer...but I am now. 

Take care and love you all.....Diana.

Ok...where to start...it is December 1, 2008 and I am 195lbs!!  I can't freaking believe this. 

Things have been going well, work is work.  Hubby has picked up a second job and so now I am solo Monday - Thursday until 8pm and every other Saturday...so that means it is cutting down on food costs, LOL.  We are not eating out every night and I am cooking more....and liking it. 

For example, today I made homemade lasagna and last night we had filet migon w/ sauteed perogies w/ oinions and mushrooms...YUMMO!  I am def making the filet again....easy and packed with protein!

I still have days where I feel that I am still a MO person....or that I am going to be MO again...that I am going to fail and gain all my weight back.  But I try to talk myself out of talking like that.

Thanksgiving was really good...a lot of family hadn't seen me in several months and were knocked over with how much I have lost and I know they were watching me eat...LOL.  Boy did I show them!  I love me some turkey with skin....gravy and stuffing, LOL.  Thinking about it, I might have a leftover turkey sandwich tonight!

Wow...15 months out. Still hard to believe.  Hard to think that I want to have plastic surgery....but I hate the hanging tummy so much...seeing it just makes me think I am fat and a failure and will never be "thin". 

Speaking of being thin....my family is already getting on me...."Oh you don't need to lose anymore weight, you are getting to thin as it is"...."how much more are you going to lose...you should stop".

I don't want to stop, I want to be able to to be thin, to feel thin....I want to be able to shop in any "normal" store and not have to worry if the XL will fit me.

I guess it is an on-going battle inside my head....it still has to catch up to where my body it. 

Wow, I can't wrap my head around alot of things anymore...the fact that it has been 1 year....365 days since I was cut open and re-arranged...the fact that I am no longer morbidly obese...that I am "just overweight" and seemingly on my way to "normal". 

By the numbers, to be a "normal BMI", my excess weight to lose is 157lbs.  That would put me in the normal range, weight in at 173lbs.  What I would look like at 173, I have NO idea.  I don't remeber ever weight that.  To these facts, I am currently at 80% excess weight lost...which is right on target.

The way I originally figured it, I would try to reach 190, as I remember (vaguely, very vaguley!) what that looked like...so based on weighing 190, I will need to lose 140lbs.  So, by using this number, to date I am at 90% EWL. 

I think either way, that is pretty cool.  By standards of surgery, I am a success. 

Do I feel like a success?  Not really, some days I feel really cool and wonderful and then other days I think - I am still fat and I am never going to make it to "normal".  But then I look at current pictures and my brain goes - HEY STUPID - you look normal.  What everyone says is true, it takes time for your head to catch up with everything else...and my eyes too. 

Weight: 203-204lbs.
Pant size: 16/18 in jeans
Tops: XXL from Old Navy  - REGULAR sizes!!
           XL sweater from JC Penney

Wow, I can't remember the last time I wore these sizes, much less shopped in "regular" stores....I pull the laundry out of the dryer and think - who's little shirt and jeans are these?!  I still can't believe I fit into those things. 

I have went for a PS consult last week...it was free and fun.  Although seeing all your hanging fat on a 20" computer monitor really doesn't help the self esteem, LOL.  But it was totally cool to see what he would be able to do for my hanging belly fat/skin. 

One year ago I swore I was never having any surgery again....I would live with whatever skin I had, etc.  Well...how times have changed.  After seeing a digital image of what could be done - just for the tummy area....SIGN ME UP!!!  I mean, honestly, I can't even imagine what size jeans I could wear without having to have them go around my fat panni that hangs down.  And to be able to look straight down and see my va-jay-jay....that would be a first!!! 

Labs - I just had my blood drawn last week, so I am still waiting to get the results, but I am feeling good...been procratinating on starting the perscription iron my doc gave me...I am so set in my routine of pills...figuring out where to stick it in is throwing me...plus I am scared it will bind me up....and if I don't have a good morning poo, I am off for the whole day, LOL. 

I will be 100% honest and say that I think I would have lost more weight, quicker if I wouldn't have started in with the candy and carbs so early out.  The past few months I have been eating whatever, whenever I want...and a lot on the candy front.  I am working on cutting that back out...at least a little.  But I gotta say, I think I am still doing a great job and that is why I wanted the DS...so I could have candy and cake and still loose weight!

I guess that's about all for now...I am at work, so I better do some work!

I'm back....it is 9 months...still can't believe how great this has been.  I am done to around 220lbs.  My weight loss seems to have slowed down.  I am wearing sizes ranging from 18-22/24. 

I am starting to worry that I will not make it to under 200.  But then again I am really happy where I am.  Although under 200 would just make my life!!  I know what I need to do, I have been letting the sugar slut back into my life. I need to kick her out.  It is hard though.  I tried these damn cherry flavored gummy slices...and they have been like a demon....luckily they are all gone and I am NOT buying anymore.  

And I am kinda hoping that this is maybe just my body re-adjusting some.  I have been losing - slowly but losing none the less...bouncing around b/w 220-224....

Besides that...still hating my job but dealing with it as the $$ is soo good and we need to....and Mama wants a tummy tuck.  LOL.  

All else in the life of Diana is great.  

Check out my profile for my 9th month pic - wait for it.....in a DRESS!!!

All I can say is that mind is still catching up with everything that has gone on.  Approximately 6 months and some days, I have hit the 100 lbs lost mark.  That is incrediable.  I mean...WOW.  I still have around 40-50 more to lose to get to 190lbs which I think would be a good size on me.  And I am worried that I will not get there, but then I think...why wouldn't I?  I got off 100lbs and didn't do a damn thing to get there.  

I love my DS and I LOVE Dr. Peters for giving me this GIFT.  That is what it is.  The gift of life back.  I am so much happier, healthier, and even more outgoing if you can believe it!

I went bike riding for the first time in years.  It was so much fun.  I am actually excited for the summer...to swim and play.  My next purchase is going to be a HUGE trampoline...I had one growning up and I loved it and it was such good exercise.  

I am still on the hunt for a coomfy pair of sneakers so I can start walking.  I feel as though I need to do a little exercise, which will help me.  And the weird part....I WANT to do some exercise.  I get tired of just sitting around.  Which is a totally forerign thing for me, LOL. 

Stats: Weight - 230
          Pants - 24
          Tops - 22/24

Weight: I am down 88 pounds.  Wow...is all I can say.  
Clothing: from a size 30-32 to a 24.  
Health: feeling GREAT, more active, more energy, etc.  
Food: trying (not hard enough) to get in enough protein...working on that daily.

I can't say anything except how QUICKLY this has all past.  Last night I was cleaning out our office and found my journal from when I first decided to get WLS...before I even knew about DS.  Man, I am SO lucky for this board that lead me to Dr. Peters and to the DS.  

Time is just flying by....and I am find more and more bones each day, LOL.    Each night my DH "holds onto" my hip bone, he calls it is "handle" so I don't go too far.  He is too sweet!!

I have even been called "skinny minnie" at work, which at 242, I am still a ways from "skinny"...but I am happy to say I am heading that way!!

Where to start....let's see.  

WEIGHT:  I am at approx. 255!!  WOOT!

I just had my 3 month appt. with Dr Peters and he said the labs were good, although I was a little low in Vit D and Iron.  So I placed a order with Vitalady for some goods.  

Although I have to be 100% honest, I have a feeling my Vit D was low b/c I have been LACKING on taking my calcium which has D in it.  The pills are just so big and I haven't found any of the chewable stuff to be ok enough to eat.  Alas, I promise to do better.  

I got to see Terri, "Travelin'Pants" and she looks WONDERFUL!  We planned to meet up again at our 6 month appointment and Robbie was wonderful and planned it around the same time as the support group meeting.  So we are going to plan a dinner out...I will need to pick a hotel and make reservations to stay the night in the "big" Electric City!!

CLOTHES: they are shrinking.  I am in 26's and they seem to be baggy, however the 24s are way too tight feeling.  

HOME / LIFE: Going ok, my "Poppy" died this past Friday night.  He had Alzehimers and we knew it would happen soon...but it was still hard.  I managed thru the viewing ok but when my Dad gave a speech about Pop at the funeral and he began to cry....I did too.  He was my Poppy and I have such great memories of him and spending time with him and my Nanny.  I just pray to God that she stays with us.  Her and Pop were married 62 years....can you believe that....SIXTY TWO!!  WOOOO.  I am in awe.  He loved her so much.  

WORK:  What can I say, I pretty much hate my job.  But it pays decent, although I feel as though I am the least paid and do a LOT that is "above" my title and that I don't get recognized for it.  But alas, we have my surgery bill and car payments and house payments, etc....so I will keep plugging away.  

My DH did get a promotion to a manager!  WOOT!  It is about time, he has been doing the job of a manager for some time now, and now he finally gets the respect for it!!!  GO HONEY!!

PHOTOS: I am going to have my DH take my 4month photo today and I will upload some updates and maybe even change my avatar!  Watch out peeps...I put up a ticker too!!!

Let's see...I am approx. 260, down from 330, which is about 70 pounds. Wow.  70.  That IS a lot.    I have been fitting into newer, smaller clothes and doing more things, having more energy.  It is really amazing. 

I now fit into 26 pants and can shop at Lane Bryant!!  It has been a LONG time since I bought clothes at a store and not via the internet. I am still wearing my 28 pants b/c I bought some 24s and they are still pretty tight but I am going to keep them hoping that I will fit in them soon. 

I have cut my hair short, which isn't anything huge for me as I have had all lenthgs different times of my life.  It seems to really show off my weight loss in my face and DH loves it. 

I have finally went out and bought an electric blanket to help keep me warm at night so DH and I don't bicker anymore, LOL.  

Well, I guess that is about it...I will update with some pictures here too.

Oh yeah - I am no longer MO, *just* obese. 

I am such a slacker!  I told myself and DH that I was going to track my "journey" and take my measurements, etc.  As you can see from my profile, I have slacked big time.  But man, losing like 50 pounds make you want to do so much, LOL. 

Let's see...the first month or so was rough...I got my short term disability extended...and went back to work at like 6 weeks...it was rough at first but now I am right back in the groove of things. 

I have lost approx 50 pounds in 2.5 months, which seems SOOO good...but I still get scared/nervous that I am going to stop losing and be stuck at 270 for the rest of my life.  Which, in reality, is better than 326.  

I have went from size 30/32 to a 26/28 and they are getting loose enough I can take down my pants without unbuttoning them, LOL.  People at work are telling me I need to get smaller pants.  Which feels great!

Walking all around is no longer a issue, my legs and back don't hurt.  I feel good and happy.  My parents really noticed that, my Dad was sooo happy to see how happy I have become.  I didn't realize till then, that the weight was really weighing me down, in every sense of the word.

I do have some 2 months pics which I need to post...just in time for my 3 month pics, LOL.  

The only bad part about the surgery, is I am still paying off the loans I had to take out.  But hell, it was SO worth it.  

I have my 3 month appointment w/ Doc Peters on December 20...and I had all my blood taken.  

I am working on getting better with getting all my vitamins in, especially my Calcium. 

This Sunday I am flying for business and I will be SUPER excited to see how much better I fit in an airplane seat...I will have to post about that!

Well, I can barely believe it...next Monday, one week from NOW...I will be in a hospital bed recovering from my 8:30am surgery.  WOW.  It seems so surreal.  

This past weekend I have cleaned the entire house top to bottom...ceiling fans and everything!!  I have made a list for this and that, started to pack my hospital bag, etc, etc, etc.  Some calls this the "freak".  I think they may be right.  

Tonight on the way home from work my DH asked me if I was nervous yet and I was like...no...and he said he was.  He was worried about me being in pain, etc. I said no worries, if I had pain you KNOW I will be hollering for some meds!  Truth be told I am a little nervous.  Part of me keeps thinkings that I could die or have complications, etc and the other part of me feels, all will go smoothly and it is "just" surgery and nothing...it will be ok. 

So I flip flop...and it seems like the days are going FOREVER...I just want the weekend to get here...so I can do the last of the laundry, pay the bills, pack and get ready to travel on Sunday and surgery on Monday. 

Luckily I do not have to do a bowel prep or anything...just no overeating and no solidas after like 5pm. Wooo Hoo...no bowel prep!!

What else...just trying to think of "everything" to make sure it is all done and ready for when I leave.  

As I will be leaving behind "my kids", Harry and Kitty.  Harry will think his Mommy abandoned him   I will miss him SOOOO MUCH!!  But I know he will be in good hands!!

Well, that is all for now...I am trying to keep updating so I can go back and read what I was thinking/feeling.  

Oh yeah...I go tomorrow AM for my blood test to test my thyriod again before surgery.  Hopefully all is a go still...

Oh yeah again....I got my short term disability info back from my surgeron and let me tell you...three weeks DOESN"T feel long enough to be off.  I mean, come on I got 6 weeks at 100% pay.  LOL.  But I guess it will be better to be ok and be able to go back in 3 weeks as opposed to having something happen and not.  It is nice that this is going to be paid leave at least as we had to take out two different loans just to pay for this surgery.  I really hope our healthcare system realizes this is NOT cosmetic....grrr.  Ok, we are not going there tonight, LOL.