Diana_T
my thoughts today!
May 21, 2012
A little over 3 years!
Nov 17, 2009
I'm Still here!
Jan 08, 2009
It is now 2 years since I was given the gift of a fighting chance. I love my new life I even like my body again. I am now weighing in at 153. Instead of 332! i still can not beleive I was as large as I was. I look at photos of myself and get so emotional. My friends and family continue to be supportive. I have changed jobs. I never would have had the courage to do so if I had not changed my body. I am a confidant and succesful woman. (my spelling still stinks, but oh well. )
I am now wearing a comfortable size 12, I still wear a large top, because I don't like things snug, I do have some mediums that fit nice, but others buy them for me, I have not been able to pick up the ,ediums off the rack, is that weird??? i also had my husband forbid me to wear my 14s he says they are rediculous. hah ha. i do have a few 10s in dresses they fit fine, but I again just don't like the feel of fabric snug on my body.
I did finally speak with a plastic surgeon i got his name from barix, he was so dear and I am actually excited about the thought of having the skin and flab removed. he is confidant it will make a huge differance and it will be worth the "pain". if anyone ever reads this syuff please let me knw. I feel sort of stupid rambleing on. It is kind of cool to go back and look at what I have written. my only exercise is walking and a crazy fun Zoomba class at work 2 nights a week.
i still feel like I should be doing more, but I just don't know how.
I am just out of time and energy at the end of the day. my mom broke her leg in 3 places cooking dinner on Christmas eve. We will be helping her in her home for the next5 -6 months, she can not bear weight or move her leg for the next 3 months. and then the fun part of rehab will begin. The poor soul has a long road ahead. I have no idea how we will get through this one. but I know through the grace of God we will.
It's already August!!!
Aug 10, 2007
My life at work is crazy busy, but It is much better in many ways. So much has happened and changed there that It would take 3 pages to put it all down. My family life is what is to be expected when you have teenagers. My daughters are 17 and 20 soon to be 18 and 21. I find my husband and I trying to hold on and get the last minute parenting in, like on their birthdays we will have no more influence and there is so much we have forgotten to instill. It really is kind of crazy. So many changes!
April update.
Apr 03, 2007
So long!
Mar 02, 2007
Amother day!
Feb 11, 2007
I did go to church this morning. It was so nice to see everyone. They are all so supportive. It's funny though so many of them said things like ,"you are beautiful just the way you are," "you don't need surgery." etc. I'm sure everyone has heard similar things and now it is "you look amazing," " oh my i didn't recognize you, " etc etc etc. I weighed 252 on Friday. Yeah!!! That is 71lbs. I just can not beleive it! I always thought 71lbs was so much more. I guess the fact that I need to lose at least 170 lbs. Is why it seems as though I have a long road ahead. I suppose 71lbs. is nothing to sneer at it is just weird. Well I seem to be having a hard time putting thoughts together so i wil close for now. Diana
What a releif!!
Feb 08, 2007
Everyday more people compliment me and I think I am handleing it with grace. i work with some really great people. Even though things are crazy and I feel overwhelmed sometimes I know that I am making a differance. I know I am loved by the people I care for and I do like my job. I am at my parents house tonight they had to get out for awhile. My grandma is really being tough. I guess all of the therapy i was doing over last weekend has her really active. OOPS! Anyway I worry about mom and dad. My mom is not well, she has RSD and it is really getting her down, not to mention causing her major pain. She and dad are wonderful people and I hope I turn into half as good of a person as they are. I am going to close for tonight. If you read any of this let me know sometimes this page feels so lonely. Diana
Back to work!!!!
Jan 31, 2007
It's me again!
Jan 29, 2007
Anyway I just realized I hadn't actually talked about my job situation. I have decided to stay on a bit longer. I think we found someone to watch my Gramy, we will see how that works out. My parents are due back tomorrow. It will be great to get out of here for awhile. I really miss work too. It is really cold here today. it snowed last night, grandma fell out of bed again. this time I have a sheet wrapped very snuggly around her and I am watching her like a hawk. if she falls again I'm putting her matress on the floor. i don't know what to do? She hasAlzheimers so she doesn't remember her legs wont hold her and she tries to get up on her own. Yesterday i had her in and out of bed about 15 times. She just didn't know what she wanted. She yelled and slapped and screemed and cried. It was really a bad day. Today she seems much calmer. I may need therepy, before this is all over. It's weird I have worked in this feild for almost 22 years and it is easier to take when it is someone elses Grandparent yelling at you it is much harded when you look into the eyes of one of the dearest people in your life and there is no recognition, and all of this anger and frustrtion or even fear looking back at you. It really is hard. Pray for me!