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I will never figure out this tool hahahaha it is sooo crazy I will work out everyday not eat anything bad and not loose but on a week like I had this week were I didn't work out because I did not feel well and I at bad foods because my schedule was out of wack and what happens I almost drop 6 pounds. but I am not crying I am happy happy happy

Well as of today I am no longer in the SUPER Morbidly obese catagory. I am now just Morbidly obese  It is crazy to be happy about that but it  it is a step in the right direction. I can't wait till my number is on most BMI charts. I have a clinic where I work and I am still off the charts so I guess that will be my next goal. any excuse to party don't you know ahahhah.

well when I first started the journey I joked about how my BMI said I was super morbidly obese. and I was wondering were my super heroes cape was
now that my BMI is almost out of the 50's I will have to give up on ever getting that cape because soon I will be just extremly morbidly obese hahahah cheese and crackers. notice they stop after 50 because if you go any higher than that they just lump you in to the super catigory it makes me wonder who came up with these I have a whole new grouping that I think we should go by

new BMI
15-20----- need to eat a ham sandwich
20-24.9--- wow do I look good
25-30 -----Little junk in the trunk
30-50--- Large and Lovely
50-75 -- a whole lot of women
75-100-- Big Beautiflu Lady

This way we can understand that yes we are large but what ever size we reach we will still be beautiful because you can take away the pounds and you can suck away the fat and you can tuck up that skin. But you still keep who you are and how loving you can be!!!!

Wow I am so stoked. Today is my third month anniversary and I had a major Wow moment. I have a scale at work the old doctor kinds that I was tooooo fat to weigh on it only went up to 350 but I got on it today and it weighed me yeah today I am officaly down to 346 and longer will have to weigh on my rinky dink old scale that is weird. more and more I am getting used to my tool. it was not as easy for me as it seems to be for some. it was harder than I imagined it would be but I am loving it now. it is not all wine and roses but there are more good days then bad now.

Well at my 2 month check up I had lost 371 I now way 366 a week later. I am starting to loose at a constant rate. unfortunatley it is not as fast as when I lost weight in my 20's I have to live with the fact that I am 40 years old and I will loose weight as a 40 year old would.hahha still I am loosing and not gaining yeah!!!

Well as of Tommorow it will be one month since my surgery. I am down 18 pounds since surgery 34 before that. for a total of 52 pounds.  I am down to a size 38 which is still huge to alot of you but I was in a size 42 easy before and it feels good to be back in the 30's two more sizes and I can shop at Catherines and not have to order by Catalog. Physicaly I don't feel bad at all nothing has made me sick. Chili was on my Nutrionist list for things to try at 4 weeks out so I tried it went down good. so far nothing has bothered me. Mentaly I have some good days and some bad! I either love my husband or I am so mad at him  I just want to spit!!!! it is not fair he tries so hard but I just don't feel he sees me as a women. more as a child he needs to take care of. which is nice sometimes to be taken care of but it is important to me to always feel like a women. I don't know it could be that aunt flo is here and I heard that with all the fat cells you loose extra hormones are thrown out in the blood stream. I hope that is what it is. but right now I am so mad at him it is really hard to be nice. He wants to spend Memorial day with he buddys playing computer games and I feel he should stay home with his family. One the one side I can see that he is home with us all the time and he needs to get out of the estrogen house and have a testosterone time. However why on a holiday???? oh well it will be over soon .

Well I think I am loosing weight I am deffinatley loosing inches. But it is so hard when you don't see those numbers drop on the scale ( course my scale is sort weird ahahahh) . I am scared to go to my doctors office Because everyone says that if you don't loose fast enough he yells at you! I have been getting up at 3am to work out everymorning to aerobics then I of to work. Since I went back to work on the 12th I have only had one day off and I have worked 3 twelve hour shifts and have followed the plan to the letter. if I don't loose enough wait for him then I don't know what to do I know that I will break down in tears if he yells at me because I have been trying really hard and this is not easy oh well enough whinning!!!!

Well I am back to the rat race hahahha I started back to work today It feels good to get back. I started my morning I got up early and worked out. then I came into work and am going to work a twelve I might be jumping in the saddle kinda fast but I felt really bad about people who worked their but off will I was off. I feel ok  though I will see how I feel at 1800  My moms arm ( she burned it wile I was in the hospital ) Is doing ok I left on my lunch break and put a clean dressing I have been doing it daily or taking her to lancaster so a nurse can do it it makes things kinda hectic but you have to take care of your mommycause mommy used to take care of you!!!

Well I am officially staple less it fells wierd I got used to thos buggers hahaha. I am kinda bummed I have only lost 5.8 pounds since surgery and it flucuates up between 396 and 398 it drives me nuts. I actually burst out in tears in my surgeons office today. Dr Mcvy who works with my surgeon told me not to be upset that I had lost 20 pounds since the liquid diet. and I know I am not supposed to judge myself by other people loss but it is hard. I have so much more to lose than everyone else. Dr Micvy told me it was normal and not to weigh so much. So I am going to Boycott my scale and I will not weigh again untill I see him on the 11th of June wich it just happens to be the anniversary of the first day I quit smoking. seeing as all the doctors I have seen told me that they still consider you a smoker till you are 12 months out that will be my official day of being a nonsmoker that is pretty cool. also on the upside I am now on Pureed foods and not liquids I had a little bit of mash potatoes on the way home dang they tasted good. but will stick with more protein from now on!!!!

well I am home I actually got hom last night. two nights in the hospital wow that was crazy. well here is the run down on Cedars Best hospital ever. except what everybody told be about comfortable couch and cots haha husband would like to disgree. But he loved the fact that it had starbucks and a deli teehee.
Friday 4/25/2008 got to the hospital at 8 am went to be signed in turned around and saw a familar face. It was my pen pal Pam that I met through this site she was do pre registation for another surgery I can tell you I was nervous but there stood before me a beautiful smiling face of a women who three years before had went down this very road. she calmed me in a way that can not be described she was a little angel on cruches sent from God . after meeting up with here I went upstairs to wait. They took me in I had called earlier to have a priest come up to pray with me ( I am not a good Catholic but as my Mother always said there are no athiests in a fox  hole) Well the priest could not be found so they sent me a non denominationl rev who was real sweet. then 5 minutes after she left the priest came up and gave me anointing of the sick so I had so many good people of faith around to really get nervous although I did just about the time they were putting me out. Then I woke up in recovery. Not in hardly any pain at all but a little sick to my stomache. I guess I will have to go get check for sleep anpnea because the lady in recovery asked me if I had that I said I had never been diagnosed but believed I did she said I need a sleep study because while I was out she had to wake me up my O2 was dropping signifcantly.  Well my angel Pam and all my other angels on the BMI over 50 Board all taked to me about the importance of walking. No truer words will be spoken I walked ever couple of hours and that is why I think I got the boot so early. I had the surgery on friday and was released on Sunday feeling almost normal today with a couple of moments feeling kinda week. Vitamins going down well and so is Protein and fluids not having to really force feed them yet. I am almost doing so well I am paranoid I have heard so many horror stories. but will deal with everything (or anything ) as it arises.
Oh also for some of you getting ready for the surgery and something no one ever told me about before. if you wake up and one or both sides of your thigh feel numb this is normal it has to do with anestisa I did not know about it and freeked out my doctor told me it was pretty normal