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Well here I am almost 3 weeks out.  I'm feeling really good and have had very few issues.  At first the gas was horrendous!  But it did disappate over time.  The pain meds made me sick so I stopped them the day after coming home.  I've been doing soft/pureed for about a week now and no real problems.  I got the foamies and a little sick one night w/haddock - but I think it might have been a little too dry.  That pain in the chest is a horrible thing though!

As for the scale....I hate it!  I lost about 2lbs. a day the first few days home.  Since then, not more than a pound!  I was expecting a stall at 2 or 3 weeks - not at 1 week!  I know I'm doing what I should be - I upped my protein and have been killing myself to get as much fluid as possible.  I also went back to the gym this week, so I know it's just a matter of time, my body adjusting, blah blah blah.  But it's so frustrating!  I picture myself sitting at the same weight 6 months from now - which I know is probably not going to happen - but I still picture it.

My son's graduation went well and the party was fine also.  I bought a new dress and it was a sz. 14/16W from Fashion Bug - thought it would never fit but it did and it looked awesome (if I do say so myself).  I'm in mostly 18s and some 16s right now - which is a big change from the 22s I was in late last year.  So I know there's progress being made, I just expected to see more loss postop at this point.  Hopefully in a few months I'll look back at this and bust a gut laughing at how neurotic I was.

The day is finally here and I leave for the hospital in less than 1/2 hour.  It's so hard to believe that it's here.  It was around October that I finally made the decision to seriously pursue WLS and here I am 7-8 months later.  I've gotten wonderful support from the Maine board, the Lightweights board and all the others that I lurk on.  I'm so nervous and excited and just all around crazy - but at peace too.  So if you've ever seen a crazy zen person - that's me!  I weighed in at 190 this a.m. at home - started with an official high of 236 at the PCP office in December.  So I lost 46 lbs. on my own while going through the process.  My initial goal is 120 so that would be about 70lbs left to lose.  I'm glad I lost some weight beforehand because it got my mind in the right place and I think it will (hopefully) help me to be more successful in the end.  I finally started telling a few friends and family about the surgery as well.  I've gotten mostly positive responses, which is good because I know I couldn't deal with anyone else's negativity about my personal choice right now.

Well the hospital just called and the Dr. had an emergency so I'm pushed back an hour.  So I have an hour to sit here and go bananas.  Great!  I just keep wondering if I'm doing the right thing...what if it's a horrible mistake...what if I fail?  It's normal to have doubts though, so I guess I'm normal then.  At least until my guts are rearranged in a few hours....

Yep the title says it all, I've been approved.  I decided to call the ins. co. today to see if they received everything and she asked what surgery, etc.  Then she said "Yes, we've received it and you've been approved!".  I think I started crying immediately, I told her she was an angel and thanked her profusely.  Then I got off the phone and just started crying happy and sad and all kinds of tears.  I called Dr. Trieu's office to let them know that the approval was coming, so I should get an official call from them next week.  So now I'm thinking surgery should be sometime in June possibly.  Which will be tricky because I have to work around DS's HS graduation on the 13th.  But OMG it's really really real now!

So after some poking and prodding from the gals at the bowling get together and Jackie the Nut at support group, I called the psych's office to find out where the heck my eval was.  Apparently it had been sent out and they just forgot to send me a copy.  So I nicely asked that they send me one and then I called the Bariatric Center.  Yes they got it, I went to Team and was deemed acceptable for surgery and have been submitted to insurance!  I was submitted on Monday so next Monday I'll call, make sure it was received and see where it stands.  I got off the phone and just screamed, it's all too real now!  I'm scared and excited and so nervous.  I guess I'm preparing myself for a denial so I won't go off the deep end if it happens, but trying to think positive at the same time.  It's pretty hard to be positive and negative at the same time!  I'm also trying to keep myself busy so I don't go insane.  A good friend of mine invited me to Hollywood Slots on Saturday, I'll probably go since I've never been and it will be a fun girl's day out.  Other than that, I practically live at the gym and of course the kids are on vacation this week so I'm hanging out with them as much as they'll let me.  Now it's just waiting.....

Yes I absolutely hate waiting.  I guess everyone does, right?  I had the psych consult on 3/17 and it went mostly ok I guess.  I'm a little nervous about it, even more so because the report hasn't come yet.  She said about 3 weeks and it's 4 weeks today.  I should be getting a copy in the mail as well, so I'm not bugging the Center about it (yet) LOL. 

There's just so many things going on that I want to get this started and get it done.  My son graduates high school in two months and I want to make sure that the surgery doesn't conflict.  I'm also trying to get a 20th HS class reunion put together for myself this year, and I want to be healthy and happy and thin by then.  So yeah I'm hoping to have it later in the year.

I've been working really hard at taking care of myself.  I've lost 30 pounds since the beginning of the year and I'm in a size 18 for the most part now.  It feels great to put something on you haven't worn for years and it fits!  It's times like these that make me wonder if I can do it without surgery.  But then I remember the success I've had in the past, and the inevitable weight gain plus more that follows.

So here's hoping the dang consult report shows up in my mailbox today so I can get submitted to insurance and get things going....

So things are moving right along for me.  I had my first consult with Dr. Trieu on 2/5 and my 1st NUT appt. with Jackie on 2/10.  I've been going to the support groups and also attending Nate's exercise classes.  I have an appt. with Jackie tomorrow and the dreaded Psych consult on Wednesday.  I'm definitely a little nervous about the psych consult.  A lot of people have told me what to expect though so I should be okay.  Seems like they should be submitting to insurance within the next month or so!

I've also been continuing to watch what I eat and have been working out faithfully 4-5 times a week.  I'm down just about 25 lbs. from the beginning of the year!  I bought a couple new bras, a pair of jeans, and a shirt at Lane Bryant the other day.  It's nice to have pants that do not fall off!  I usually have no problem losing the weight, keeping it off is another story.  But I'm really hoping that the work I'm doing now will cement inside myself the work I need to do after surgery.

That's all for now.....

So I guess the first official step has been made.  I met with my PCP today and they're faxing the referral to Dr. Trieu's office either today or tomorrow. 

Of course I'm so nervous about going through all this and insurance not covering me.  I don't think I have official comorbidities but it's only a matter of time.  I'm prediabetic, high cholesterol, joint problems, etc.  So I guess we shall see what happens.

I've started eating better and going to the gym as of the beginning of the year.  I'm down 8 lbs. according to the PCP scale and down around 10+ according to my WII Fit and my home scale.

That's all for now!