One week Post Op (okay well yesterday was)

Jul 07, 2010

 As always, I was reading through the forums today, just listening to peoples stories. I came across a womans post about how her family thinks she is using her surgery as a crutch and how she said shes not usually an emotional person and apologized for posting another depressing post.

It got me thinking about myself. I wasn't a crier or really expressed my feelings very much. As I got married and had kids it changed a bit. But not like it is today.

As it got closer to the time of my surgery I had to exclude more food.  4 days before surgery, no red meats or leafy veggies. In those few days the tears started to come. The day before surgery was all liquids, the tears came even harder. The day of surgery I cried at everything. of course some of that was to due the fear of the surgery itself.

But reading that post this morning, it really made me see how food was such an important thing in my life, something that actually kept my feelings bottled inside. Without the food I could feel freely. I can express when I am sad or upset. 

Granted I am only a week post op, but for me, coming to this conclusion about food is a huge weight off my shoulders. I can only hope from here on out it gets better.....And my lovely husband came put up with the tears.

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