January 25, 2010

Jan 25, 2010

Well, I can just repeat what was said on my June, 2009 post except that I am up 5 pounds from then. I had an unfill of 1.5 ml yesterday and Amy's putting me on Prilosec for a month to calm my esophagus since it is probably swollen from all the sliming and Pbing and continuing to choose to live too tight. I am so done with it now though. My throat is sore and I just force food down and then throw up. I was starting to feel like a bulimic. I can understand how the cycle begins.

So I am on full liquids for 2 days, then will start JC on Thursday. I want to be able to eat 1 cup of ANYTHING I want including broccoli, rice and pasta. I don't even like pasta. Anyway, my goal range is back to 140-145. A new day. Yeah.
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June 9, 2009

Jun 08, 2009

So I finally had a 0.5 ml unfill yesterday. I had avoided it for so long thinking I was OK. But my weight is up to 152 and I feel awful. All I wanted to eat was ice cream, cookies and candy because it would go down comfortable and I could eat more than 3 TBSP at a time. Consequently, I have gained weight and the worst part of it is I am used to eating this way. So I have to get back to the basics again. I want to weigh 135 and feeling little hope for that at the moment. I know I can do it but I feel like it's going to be hard after the last several months of making poor food choices and having an excuse (tight band) for it. Time to move on and adjust the attitude.
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April 6, 2009

Apr 07, 2009

I have scheduled a slight unfill for early next month, the soonest I could see Amy. I have been too tight  for too long and resisting that truth for fear of becoming too loose after a slight unfill. I have weighed 145 for months and do not lose weight because I can't eat a decent quantity of solid healthy food. I eat ice cream almost every day and throw up almost daily. I feel hungry A LOT! I think about food all the time. Being too tight is awful! And being too tight for several months (since November I think) is even worse. I cannot wait to have some of this fill taken out so I can be a normal bandster again, not one with soft food syndrome who probably nutritionally deficiant.

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October 6

Oct 06, 2008

I thought I should update this since I am NINE pounds from my goal of 139 and I feel motivated as well. I'm happy with my weight loss and I feel great. I am wearing size 10 in most items. People compliment me all the time about my weight loss so it's very fun.

July 28

Jul 28, 2008

Today I saw Amy. I had 8.6 cc in my band. She added 0.4 cc for a total of 9 cc in my 9 cc Realize band. She said "that's it." You're at a normal weight and you've got you band filled. I'll see you in 3 months.  I can tell I'm a little tighter than I was....water goes down slower.  This fill will get me to my goal of 139. I'm happy. I love this band.

July 23

Jul 22, 2008

Oh my goodness, how grumpy I was in that last post. Since posting that, I lost TEN pounds. I found some restriction again and think I must have been PMSing there at my previous post.

So today my weight is 155 and I have 15 left to lose. I do need a bit of a fill because I only stay full about 3 hours and can eat probably 2 cups of food. I havn't lost any weight in about a month. I still battle with the ice cream monster. I have a fill scheduled in 5 days.

May 20, 2008

May 20, 2008

Well, I am depressed. For 4 days I've been eating terrible. I thought I still had good restriction but I don't. I don't eat terrible with good restriction. I am craving carbs like crazy and I can now eat THICK CRUST PIZZA. OK......my restriction isn't good anymore. I am feeling hungry in the morning, ate solid protein at noon and felt hungry for the chocolate brownies at work an hour later. If I had good restriction, I would have been able to ignore those. We always have good food at work available. So I'll need to call for my fourth fill again. I am getting sick of spending  $220 for this process and am just really grumpy about it today.

May 12

May 12, 2008

Finally went in for unfill today. Amy took 0.2 cc out of band and so far, much better. Water goes down quite well but I still feel satiated on 1/2 cup of food. No more tummy growling in my throat and watering salivary glands.

April 28

Apr 28, 2008

HEE HAW! I have restriction!
PA placed 2 cc in my band so I have 9.2 cc in and water goes down SLOW but it goes down. I've never been this tight and hopefully it won't be too tight. I am so happy to have restriction! YEAH!

April 7

Apr 07, 2008

One week post second fill and very little restriction. I have enough restriction to know I have a band but not enough to keep me from obsessing about food and eating poorly after planning yet another menu to keep from gaining weight today. I feel very depressed  about it today since I have no fill for three more weeks and what if I STILL don't hit that sweet spot? At least let me get just short of the sweet spot. I want that sweet spot! 

What if I don't HAVE a sweet spot?

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