Dodgergirl27
150 Lbs Down
Jun 02, 2015
Well, I'm just over 16 months out, and I realized today I'm exactly 150 lbs down from my HKW of 338. That kind of blows my mind. It also blows my mind that I've lost 10 lbs in the last 4 months. First, because the weightloss has been so slow, if my life depended on telling you how many lbs I've lost in the last few months I would've said 5. So it's kind of nice to realize it's a bit higher than that. Second, 10 lbs in 4 months is such a snails pace compared to what I was losing it at months 1 - 8. I guess the lessons here are abundant. I'm going to list them below, only as a way to organize my thoughts, not for any sort of precise value:
1. Stick with it, eat right and exercise and the weight will continue to come off, slooooowly, but it will get there
2. Take time to enjoy the NSV of your new life, there's more to this than just a number on the scale
3. I think I need to adjust my goal weight, but I have no idea what that should be. I figure I've easily got another 10 lbs to lose, more like 15...but 28 lbs will likely be pushing way too skinny (I can't believe I just typed those words, lol). Anyways, I'm in a 6 for the most part now (and 8 in some brands) and I really can't see liking my body in anything lower than a size 4, I'm of the belief that there is a thing as too skinny. However, I'm TERRIFIED of bounce back, and wouldn't mind losing 5 lbs more than my ideal so I have a little wiggle room.
4. Finally, I'm starting to really seriously research plastics. I'm so freaking nervous, but I also feel like it's the final step in this journey (well, not final, b/c this is a lifetime process and the choices I make every day will determine how successful I am every day from now until my last..but final in terms of no more surgeries :). I can't imagine having a body that doesn't have excess something (fat for so much of my life, skin for the last year). To just have a lean body that I don't have to somehow figure out how to "hide" flaws (black everything when I was fat, blousy tops now to cover my apron). It's almost inconceivable to me. Thank god for all of the kind people here on OH who share their post plastics experiences or I might chicken out.
Anyways, this post was more of just a reflection on what I consider a pretty cool milestone. It's also nice to see that by working my plan, I've lost more in the last 4 months than I realized and I'm still working my way to goal, no matter that the process is a slow one.
