dogbeau
Regaining momentum
Oct 13, 2009
For that last several months I have been seeing a therapist who specializes in eating disorders. She's been great and helping to uncover and dig to my core issues. A lot of it turns out to have roots in my early childhood with eating - especially bad habits picked up from my mother. Also I have discovered I am very much an emotional eater, even when I wanted to belive that I wasn't. All this has helped me to begin relearning good eating habits. I have only had one binge and am much more aware of when the emotional eating stuff. When my subconscious is screaming feed me, stuff me! I can now recognize that emotional response. It's great. I have on a few occasions felt actual hunger, where my stomach would growl and gurgle. IT was the wierdest feeling - because frankly I haven't been hungry - not physically hungry - in years.
But now I am asking myself - what of the weight loss surgery?
Well I decided this weekend that I will have it. I feel prepared for the procedure, the after effects, and most importantly for me, I feel like I am and will dealing with the underlying issues that got me to this state of morbid obesity. Hopefully keeping me from losing the weight.
So I know CIGNA requires a 6 month medically supervised diet. A stupid requirement since I've been on a bazillion diets in my lifetime. Going to see if I can get around this requirement. I have a couple more bariatric surgeons to interview before I make a selection. But I am excited and ready to get the show on the road.
