JUNE 23, 2007

Jun 22, 2007

STILL WAITING  Waitingfor my surgery date.  As I have said before my insurance requires 6 months of documentation before approving a surgery date.  DAMN THEM!  My first appointment with my surgeon, nut, and nurse was April 3, 2007! SO that would make my 6 months requirement date...OCTOBER 3, 2007...God that seems far away, but I have to "KEEP MY EYE ON THE PRIZE"!
I do need to start paying attention to my portion sizes a bit more and start drinking lots of water again.  I had so much stress from work that I lost my focus on my WLS and that is just not okay.  School is over so I now need to concentrate on ME.  Such a hard thing to do when you are a mom and a teacher.  Oh well, till next time. 






June 1, 2007 - Psych Evaluation

May 31, 2007

Yesterday I had my psychological evaluation and I have to say that the therapist was really cool.  I used to see a therapist and I forget sometimes how good it feels to just talk to someone who is not directly linked to my life.  He said that he feels I am ready to have the surgery and I also have a great network of support in my family.  I took a personality test that took an hour and a few other short tests. I will be going back on June 25th to go over the tests.  
I think I will be calling the therapist that I was going to and make an appointment to see her.  
I go to the surgeon on June 5th for another consultation. Hope all goes well and he is happy with my weight loss so I can get surgery scheduled.

May 28th...how it is going

May 27, 2007

This week I will be having my psyc evaluation (Thursday) and hope all goes well. I am starting to focus much more on how, when, and how much I eat at each meal. For some reason I have been retaining alot of water and feel bloated most of the time. Maybe it is the hot weather. I love to swim and lay out in the sun but I HATE showing any of my skin. I cannot wait until the day when I will look forward to bathing suit shopping and feeling good enough to go. 
I have a new mantra that a new OH friend has given me "KEEP YOUR EYE ON THE PRIZE" (thanks Heather!). I am going to repeat this during my morning meditation and when I am preparing meals. I will update on how this goes.
Until later, hugs and kisses.

MAY 8, 2007 - ONE MONTH AND 000000.00 WEIGHT LOSS

May 08, 2007

Went to surgeons for my first follow-up appointment after meeting him last month and putting me on a pre-op diet. I have to lose a MINIMUM of only 13.75lbs! Am I? Hell no, not me.  I started the month out pretty well and then 2 weeks later I stopped writing down everything I ate, stopped chewing 20 times/per bite and did not pay attention to my portion sizes. 
Fat Woman 2
And as far as exercising goes...I have officially turned my basement into an all equiped gym including boxing bag, elliptical trainer, ab lounger, TotalGym. GOD does it look great! Have I used it? NNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! I'm Mad As Hell 

My attitude scares the hell out of me. I want this so damn bad but my emotions are sooo much stronger than my stomach and brain put together. 
Okay now that I have gotten that out, chin up (flying in the wind), look forward and do NOT look back or my fat ass (literally) will scare us all!  
I am going to pray this month I have a little success and meditation is at least helping. WHEW!
Till next time!





Not gettin any easier. Not that I thought it would!

Apr 28, 2007

Wow am I struggling with this damn diet! I start off really good and slowly start doing bad again. If nothing else I truly know that WLS is the ONLY way for me to lose weight and be the active, healthy adult I want to be.
I know Mondo (a friend from work), look at everything as a positive.I have found a protien powder that I really like and can say YUM to. Its Kashi GoLean

I like to make a smoothie out of it. 8-10oz coffee, 2 scoops chocolate protien powder and ice. Blend in my Magic Bullet (love it!) and drink.
Until later. Big hugs and tons of positive energy being sent your way.

WOW THIS IS HARDER THEN I THOUGHT

Apr 09, 2007

Today is only my first day of following my surgeon and nuts diet plan for pre-op. All I can say is I REMEMBER WHY I NEVER SUCCEEDED AT DIETS!!!!! What the frig!    

That Pisses Me Of Damn Damn 

Whew! Now I feel better. I guess if I really think about it I did not do all that bad but it is so different when you have to pay attention - I mean REALLY pay attention to what you are putting in your mouth. AHAH! That is why they want me to do this. A little bit of behavior modification before hand is not that bad of an idea.
I will let you know how its going!
Bye


4/4/07 I MET WITH MY SURGEON...YIPPIE

Apr 04, 2007

Finally met with my surgeon yesterday and have a great deal of confidence in him.  Have to met with general physican before I begin my weight loss and exercise regimn. Let you know how things are going on Friday. Until then

Still Waiting 3/25/07

Mar 25, 2007

It seems like April 3rd cannot get here fast enough.  I am going to begin a walking program with a few other people on the OH site.  It is called Couch-to-5K Running Plan. I will try and remember to post the website. At first I was going to begin it tomorrow but then I thought "How many times have I said that in my life? I WILL BEGIN TOMORROW" NO I will begin this TODAY. So me and my dog Montana will begin our walking regimn tonight once my daughters birthday dinner is over.  My oldest dog Montana has been put on a weight loss program by his doctor as well. I wonder how many overweight people have overweight dogs? Hmmm I might research this one.  
We will walk briskly for 20 minutes or until one of us pass out LOL.
I have been telling people about my WLS plans and I am happy to report that I have mostly gotten positive feedback.  
I am a little pissed off I have to say at my boyfriend. It is bad enough that things are not going that great between us but then today I tell him about the Couch-to-5K Running Plan and I said that if I stick to it I might be able to walk up to 3 miles in 9 weeks! His comment was "Ha,
I doubt it!" What a jerk he is sometimes and the worst thing is I don't think he realizes what a jerk he really is. Oh well, this is about me and what I am doing for me. 
I will try and make a more concentrated effort to post more often.
Oh and my BMI is 50.8! HOLY S!#@... I am almost exactly 1/2 fat! YUCK! So let me think this through:
I am 5'2" and 278lbs and that makes my BMI 50.8 which is morbidly obese (call the coroner I am fading fast).
I will have to be a minimum of 163lbs to have a BMI of 29.8 which will place me in the overweight category.
I will have to be a minimum of 136lbs to have a BMI of 24.9 which will place me in the normal weight range. (God, normal weight! I do not know I will handle this).
What does this all mean?  I have to lose at least 142 lbs. I wonder what my surgeons goal will be?
Okay enough rambling. I have a ton of homework and school papers to grade and record.  Till next time.

The Confusion!

Feb 20, 2007

2/20/07
Oh the confusion! I finally got a letter from the surgeons office stating my appointment is for April 3 at 9:00am.  I am trying so hard to not get overwhelming excited but I cannot help it.  I know there are alot of hoops that I will have to jump through before the surgery but that is fine.  Its my insurance POMCO that is really confusing.  It states that there is an exclusion for weight loss but then when I called the insurance company they said that it may not apply to a medical necessity.  I talked to another woman who had WLS with this surgeon (we work together and have same insurance) she said not to worry about it because the surgeon will submit all of the information as to why it is a medical necessity. WHEW! I think.  I will call the surgeons office just to confirm this because I just cannot imagine my life to stay as it is.
You would think that this would force me into losing weight on my own and I am sure that I would. But the reality is that it will never stay off without the surgery.  I look at WLS as a constant personal trainer that you carry around with you at all times.
I will check in to report how my contact with the surgeons office goes, plus I need to find out information on the support group that I need to start attending.

Sending me my scheduled appointment...

Feb 15, 2007

2/15/07
I called the bariatric center where I had to send my information to and wanted to know where I was at with them.  The girl was sooo nice and said I will be getting a letter in the mail next week that will tell me when my appointment is scheduled!  OMG! I am getting so excited.
Check in really soon. 
Big hugs and kisses.

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JUNE 23, 2007
June 1, 2007 - Psych Evaluation
May 28th...how it is going
MAY 8, 2007 - ONE MONTH AND 000000.00 WEIGHT LOSS
Not gettin any easier. Not that I thought it would!
WOW THIS IS HARDER THEN I THOUGHT
4/4/07 I MET WITH MY SURGEON...YIPPIE
Still Waiting 3/25/07
The Confusion!
Sending me my scheduled appointment...

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