I started out okay and was a pretty normal weight in school, but I thought I was fat at the time.  I guess you see yourself differently than others.  I was emotionally abused by my mother who battled eating disorders all of her life and grew up with a very poor self image and no confidence.  I got married right out of high school and that lasted 3 years and numerous pounds gained and several diets tried and failed.  Each time that I would diet, I would lose at first only to become frustrated and then deprived and then I would gain it all back and add 10 to 20 each and every time.  In 1985 I married a wonderful and supportive man and we moved overseas for several years where I continued to pack on the pounds and I discovered that I was a good cook.  We then moved to Washington State and made our home here.  We struggled with infertility for several years and I continued to struggle with my weight and it just kept on creeping up and up.  We ended up adopting 2 children.  I continued working, but my weight problems seemed to affect my work and activities.  I got very depressed and quit working altogether about 5 years ago and began doing foster care for difficult teenagers and vollunteering for a local animal rescue group.  I finally found my calling in life and began to be really happy for the first time in my life.  I was still looking for the magic "diet" to come along and tried various things, but never anything that was anything more than a short term fix.  I ended up deciding not to torture myself with the yo-yo syndrome any longer and for the past 3-4 years have given up "dieting" and "weighing in".  I have been maintaining my current weight for the past few years by doing this, but my health was starting to feel the effects of carrying the excess weight all those years.  I developed diabetes, hypertension, high cholestrol and with that said I decided I was NOT going to be fat and fifty!  I have my Lap-band surgery scheduled and have been working on getting to my pre-op weight.   I am worth every cent it will cost me, and I want to feel good about my appearance for a change. 

About Me
Bremerton, WA
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39.8
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Surgery
12/06/2007
Surgery Date
Oct 17, 2007
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