Where does the time go?

Feb 07, 2011

 I simply can not believe it's been almost 3 years since my surgery. I look at pictures and although I have all the painful memories of being so large, I don't honestly remember being that way, hope that makes sense. I can remember going into a place to eat and looking at the booth praying I'd fit, I can remember waking up in the morning and my feet crying as soon as they touched the floor, I can remember going to an amusement park and sitting while everyone else rode the rides, and I can remember how I had zero confidence in myself. Now, that all those things and so many more are just memories, my life seems to have taken a whole new direction. I sometimes still feel like that other person, but it doesn't last long. The self confidence is the most wonderful part, when we are so overweight we lack so much of that, we have zero self esteem, and can't see a good thing about us as people at all. Losing weight has done so much to help me in this area, not to mention my body and health. I'm still not where I want to be, and need alot of plastic surgery to help get me there, but I am the happiest I have ever been. To anyone thinking about wls do it! It is a life changing experience, I would yell it from the highest mountain, don't let fear stop you or anything else for that matter!
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So many changes..........

Apr 26, 2009

 I can't belive how many things have changed in my life, let's start with clothing, I went shopping this weekend to get some clothes because everything I have is to big once again, and I was able to buy XL shirts and size 14 pants, there was no 14w just size 14, I also bought a new bathing suit size XL. Never in my life have I been able to wear those sizes, not even when I was in high school.

 I can go to work out now and stay on the elipitcal machine for an hour! When I first began I couldn't last 2 minutes, now I can do an hour!  A few other big changes...Ah I can go for a piggy back on my husbands back lol anyone who has ever been overweight knows that this is and experience that is exhilerating, he has also picked me up while ummmm you know and carried me across the room, never would have been possible before, and his shirts are now loose on me, before I couldn't put an arm in! I can bend my knee and poot my foot in front of my butt to paint my toe nails. Ah I could just go on and on I just want to say I love my new life so much and thank god for it every day!

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A whole year later

Mar 23, 2009

I simply can't believe a year has come and gone since my surgery. I have lost 148 pounds since starting this wonderful journey, I can't begin to tell the many changes that have taken place in my life since accomplishing this. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I could be this person. I still feel like the old me, I'm embarassed to walk into a room full of people and always feel like people are staring right at me, I look at a booth or chair and wonder if I'll fit, I see people look at my husband and I often wonder if they think he could do better. I don't know if I'll ever get past this horrible mental thing I have going on. But I do know that almost 15 ten pound bags of potatoes is alot to carry around, I have a hard time carrying one so someone please tell me how exactly I carried all that on my body, and now that it's gone I have the skin, oh boy do I have the skin, sometimes I think it looks worse this way than it did being stretched by all the fat that I carried with me. I have less than fifty pounds to go to get to my goal and I simply can't wait to be there.


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Slacker me

Dec 08, 2008

Well I sure have been a slacker on my blogging, I guess life has just changed so drmaatically for me that I don't have time like I did before to sit at the computer like I did before. I'm active and happy, unlike before I hate being home all the time, there are places to go and I want to be there. It's funny how our weight can affect the quality of our lives. Now I just want to tell everyone I see, you don't have to be that way, there is hope, but it's hard and you can't jst approach someone who is overweight and bombard them with your story so you look and hope that one day they will get the joy of post op life as well. I've lost 131 pounds in about 10 months, something I never would have dreamed of being able to do, I'm so glad I gave myself this gift and will make the most of my life with it.

Oh wow

Aug 19, 2008

Just looked up my BMI....39.9  makes me obese..not super morbidly obese like I have been forever and a day..just plain obese..LMAO..who would have thought that would make someone happy..Tomorrow is my six month surgiversary..I'm down to 254 from 361 and it's amazing how different the quality of my life is. I see overweight people and think if they only knew how to change their whole life......I'm loving myself..loving my life..loving everything..it's just good to be alive..

Almost five months out

Jul 13, 2008

 This week will be my five month mark, I'm one pound away from a total loss of 100 pounds and I simply can not believe it. When I began this journey in June of 07 I could only look at before and after pictures and simply wish that could be me. Today I sit and look at my before and after pictures and wonder how the hell I let my weight get so out of control. I always started the days with the best of intentions, I always swore every year that by June i'd be smaller so I could go and enjoy the amusement park like everyone else, why did it take me so long to make this desicion? My life has changed so dramatically in this short amount of time. I'm no longer the person who wants to sit in the house and do nothing all the time, I want to be busy, I want to go out and I want to be seen. Who whould have ever thought that would be me? I've always been shy and soft spoken and embarassed when people talk to me. Now I love it when people approach me, especially people from work who I never talk to just to say they notice how much weight I have lost.

 

  I can't help though but question one thing and I know it's silly but that thought is always burning in my mind. My husband who I know has loved me before we ever even saw each other seems to be enjoying the shrinking me more than the old me. I don't mean he didn't enjoy the old me, just the new things like I can wear his shirt, and he likes that, or my hip bones pop out, or my ribs other things that are changing he really likes, does this all mean he merely settled for the old me because he loved me, but he didn't love the way I appeared? I hope that made sense. I tried my best to put it all in writing.


My wow Day

Jun 22, 2008

 We can forget the Wow moment, I had a whole wow day yesterday. We went to cedar point amusement park as a family trip we do every summer. Back in oh probably the early nineties I stopped riding the rides after being humilitated becaus eI couldn't fit on a ride at geagua lake park. So I would sit as the whole family went off and rode all day and had fun. Well yesterday after being a bit apprehensive, because yes you see numbers moving on the scale but you see the same person in the mirror I tried the seats at the ends of the lines and I fit, with room to spare. I rode every ride I could with exception of a few of the ones with bigger hills, lol, I am a sissy. But OH MY GOD I rode the magnum and so many others, more rides than I ever thought possible. I had the time of my life and felt like a little kid all over again. I have so far to go with my weight loss but this one day made it all so worth while. I will treasure this memory forever.

this picture is from June 21,2008

This picture is from June 24, 2007..What a difference!!


A lil over three months and......

Jun 05, 2008

 Oh my, down to 283 that's almost twenty more pounds to add to the weight that is gone and never coming back. Some days I feel like it is happening so slow, then I sit and think when is the last time you lost almost twenty pounds in a month..lol ..then it doesn't seem so slow. I can move into positions I never knew existed, during sex and in daily routines. Hell tying my shoes and clipping and painting my toes has taken on a whole new dimension. People at work are noticing, people I've never really spoken too are calling me skinny and saying how much I've lost. My husband actually sat up in the middle of the night to make sure it was me he had just put his arm around, what a wow moment that was. I'm wearing a size 2x shirt and a very loose 22 pants. I simply can not believe how much I have changed in such a short time. and as for the rest of the loss all I can say is bring it on!!


Two months!!

Apr 15, 2008

 I am amazed at how my life has changed in just two months. I'm one pound away from being under 300 lbs, I never in life imagined I'd be saying that. I was stalled for two weeks and yeah it sucked but even then I was still losing inches. I have begun my workouts at the ymca, thirty minutes three days a week is what my trainer requires, I am requiring at least five days at a minimum of thirty minutes. I feel good when I go, so don't want toset myself back by not going. 

 I feel better than I have felt in years, if only I could describe the happiness I feel every morning instead of dread. What a switch is all I can say!!

Wow, almost seven weeks

Apr 06, 2008

Oh my I can't believe how fast it's going. Tomorrow will be seven weeks since my surgery. I feel so much better, I sleep at night, without a breathing machine and the hubby says no snoring! I awake feeling like I slept and refreshed. It's been so long since I have felt this good. I have energy, I walk every day! I joined the ymca and as soon as I get the go ahead from my surgeon I'm going to be there working out. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and the very best thing is we have a wedding to go to this weekend, I only have one dress in a size 30/32 and well it's probably a lil to big didn't try it on because it's the only thing I have worn to occasions for about six years..lol..anyhow my sister says you can try on one of my dresses, she wears a 22/24...it fit!!! I am going to wear it Saturday and smile all day long!! I simply can't believe how much I'm changing so quick. I actually lost three inches off my waist in one week! All I can say is I am loving my new life!

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Parma, OH
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02/19/2008
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May 24, 2007
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