My names Doris
.  I weigh  355 pounds.  I,m in the process of lossing weight so I  c an have weight loss surgery.    My starting was 395 pounds.  I lose some but, Not enough to make my surgeon happy.   He wants me to   get down to 320 pounds.  and  Then he will do surgery which is total of eighty pounds.

  I   battled   with my weight my whole life.  I was raised by my father, two older sisters and my one brother. My mother died when was five from cancer.  My father was huge man his whole life and I spent most of my childhood and teenage years taking care of my father.    He was   so over  weight that he could not get around.   He was  a diabetic and had half of foot amputated.        So my brother and two sister and I spent most of childhood taking care of  him .  Nobody was their to take care of us.  I took care of my father until  He died  when was in High school from congestive heart failure due to his weight.  My whole family was over weight by that time.         I grew up my whole life being  fat.  I was made fun of Bullied, treated cruelly and made fun of  by students and teachers alike.  I grew up in fear, depressed and traumatized.   I really can't remember having any friends.  Going to school was hell on earth.   Everyday was sure misery. Everyday back then seem like torture back then.  Graduation fron High school was a relief. I was probabily all ready 300  pounds when I graduated.  I watch my brother died at age 39 years old because of his weight.  He weight almost 500 pounds.   He got so bad that could not walk any more. He did every he could to lose include having Gastric -by- pass.  But, He gained the weight back and more.

     Now I find myself on my own journey to lose weight.  My weight has gotten so out of hand that could not more than couple 100 feet with being out breath and in pain because of my feet swelling.  I could not sleep at night my back hurt all the time.  I had Sleep apea and  was totally depressed and  thinking nothing would ever get any better.  I live with my sister in Ganado, Texas.  I never been married and would I
like to change the things in my life that  I am unhappy with  that are changeable.  The first thing I did was to get  help for my depression.  Then I started exercising.  I started eat right.      I start to get out of the house.  I,m seeing a therapist about past emotion and physical  abuse issues.  I trying to forgive others and myself for past mistakes.  but, even after all that I still can,t seem to lose enough weight to make surgeon happy.  Enough to schudule a surgery.

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Ganado, TX
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Jun 14, 2009
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