Daily Freak Out

Jun 22, 2010


So I'm not sure if anyone even reads these but hey it s a great place to empty my brain.

The past 2 weeks have been very long ones... Last Monday my dogs tumor rupsured, we rushed her to the vet and they set an app for sugery Wednesday, Tuesday i had my ECG and Pulmanary test (see blog "Quick Update" for that epic tale) Wednesday we droped of Kayla (my dog) at 8 am at 11 my hubby calls me...the vet called and said they cannot operate becuase the tumor is to big (i now spend half the day crying @ work) they take a biopsy and we pick her up that night. Thursday I have a day long seminar, Friday work ..... get home exsausted from my week.

Move on to this week, Monday - work followed by running errand and not getting home till 9pm - get home to find out that the vet called - biopsy came back as Cancer - Option #1 pay thousands of dollars for chemo (that might killer her) to shrink the tumor then more money to have surgery (which might also kill her) to remove the tumor to extend her life 1-3 years or Option #2 keep her on her pain meds and anti inflamatories and keep her home and love her as long as we can then do the right thing when the pain becomes to much.  Now for reasons that have little to do with money we have chosen option #2 . My girl is old, @ 12 chemo and surgery is just cruel and selfish. Right now she doesn't really seem to be in to much pain at all, she is still eating and talkative ... maybe not as mobile or energetic as she use to be but she seems happy. The whole ordeal breaks our hearts but you know what... death is a part of life and as much as it hurts all the happy years where worth it. And you know what? Everyone who has pets (unless you get a parrot) goes through this and we all do it over and over again in our life time, becuase the love we share with our pets far out weighs the pain we feel when we loose them.

  Ok emoness done.... Today is work and hopeing to go right home afterwards and play some World Of Wacraft ... Tommorrow is my appointment with the Social worker at HRRH.. Then work Friday then Off to the trailer for the weekend to relax and going out Sat for some Karaoke.

  I got a app with my GP next week. Then the following week I have Bypass Class and my app with the Dietitian (that same day I book a app with Dr Klien to review my results from all my tests and book my surgery date woot). Its all moving so fast and all the information I am cramming in my head from the forums is kind og overwelming.


Everyday is one step closer......

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