OKAY SO I HAD TO RESTART... AGAIN... 121o2oo8

Dec 10, 2008

okay let me be truthful i have been very busy... i finally moved back into my parents house....no comment onthat other than i am saviugn alittle bit of oney,.. but up til the new year that extra "saved up" money is going to straggling bills that i need to take care of...

so the dirt... i got up to almost 196.... but this week i started a new we got the area around the treadmill cleaned up and my parents put a tv, etc in the garage, unfortunatel teh treadmill doesn't face it,. and there is no other palce for i to go.. but i can walk and then do soome pilates... i expect some nice results in a month my stable weight has been about 193... but that jump to 196 just to see it on the scale got me so depressed... i was like no more!!! i never want to see 200 pounds again... i was reading about oprah gaining weight and getting back up to 200... and i feel her pain and know what she means.... i have got to get to 165 hopehopefully... technically i will settle at 170 but i like 165 it will give me even that much more leeway.. i started tracking my meals again on daily plate. and i will not go crazy over the holidays... (i may eat more pie) becasue since having the band i just don't think about food the same way... i graze a little and that's it... but ice cream....mmmmmmmm... and pie...mmmmmm. i will have some. anyway i plan on getting it right... i hope to lose 10 pounds this month.. i have been scedhuled for both a colonoscopy and endoscopy jan 6... (got something going in both ends onthe same day  ) anyway i think 10 pounds is feasible for jan 9 that would get me close to 183-185-is and that is good... i will feel better once i am back to the low 180s... i will feel more normal i think. eveythign is fittingme so tight it's ridiculous,... but at east i can still put it all on, but i don't like how i look and feel right now and that's the truth... and my skin has broken out something terrible,.. but hopefully sweating and taking better care of myself will help clear it up.. also i am slowly but surely getting through the process to see the surgeon about my port... i've had that thorn in my side (literally) for almost 2 years! geez!
hmmmmmm about crushy poo...lol we still talk...he's doing okay.. and according to him "...not bored with me" i am waiting patiently... kinda... i dunno how this si gonna go down,.. but apparently it is... i know i prolly just sound crazy and most of you would have given up, by now.... i haven't... just watchign and waiting... i don't have anythign else goinon in the way of men folk inmy life... well another guy i went to schoolwith but he's in vegas... so he's out of town too... i try not to flirt with him too much... lol because he's a sweetheart and i don't like to mislead people,.. but i dunno how interested i am... i like my crush right now and so everyone pales in comparison... but he's a good guy and if in fact i end up wrong about crushy... this other guy (if he's around) would be cool... but only time will tell.
okay quickly back to my weight loss journey... i have decided i will weigh myself once a week. so i don't drive myself crazy.. and now that i have less control over meals... i ave to rework the way i'm doing the wagonplan,... but i will be back on it... i think i need another week or two of just monitoring what i eat first... but i'll try to get my protein carb ratios in properly still

that is the update...TTFN!

o9112oo8 - the start over is going strong!

Sep 11, 2008

wow 7 years ago today! my thoughts and prayers go out to the familie sof those who lost someone in the 9/11 attacks! God continue to bless you and keep you.

okay so this morning i amazingly weighed in at 188.7! so the restart is going very well... i have to just really be mindful of these calories... somethign i should have been doing, but now i am adamant! i pay attention to everythign that i eat. some days i still overeat and eat the worng things but being accountable on daily plate has helped me to see what kinds of foods i am eating mand my fat carb and protein intake in a way that makes it so clear what i need to do.. and the next thing to work on as i get back into my 170s will be to work on cutting out more of the fat from my diet. i know i need to. i could definitely use it,. but my cholesterol and everything is good. my blood pressure is stable praise the Lord for the chance to get my meds for free for right now. unfortunately my blood pressure is hereditary and so it is just higher... but i am in control of all my stuff now and i will be back to my lowest weight soon enough.. i told my wonderful crushy poo that i gained wieght and he said i don't see why you are so concerned about it (he should, he knew me when i was heavy) but he said he said i hope it makes your butt even bigger cuz i like that (lol its big enough-- i thought) he's a trip we spoke a lil more about some stuff.. and it's been a practice in patience. LOL but it's paying off.. at any rate i'll right later.... next week i really will tryt o exercise... i know i keep putting it off... i suck,. but i am gonna try to better... for real...  LOL

TTFN!

o9o92oo8 - ummmm yeah,..... i gotta start over-- LOL

Sep 09, 2008

okay so the situation is this... i have to start over in the sense of my weight lol i creeped back up to 191 after a week binge of birthday cake and ice cream. but i have it in check once again this week. back to the basics... and a smaller piece of leftover cake. yes i will have one later today i think.... but my proteins and carbs ratios are in check... next week when all the cake is finished then i will be back to doing the under 100 carbs a day thing. the keeping it under 100 carbs is really some work.. trying to count calories even more geez that will be hard! but i am up for the challenge... anyway that is it! TTFN!


o9o12oo8 - messed up this weekend

Sep 01, 2008

lol i made a mess of my eating this weekend, but i am back to the grind kinda.... i have to go and buy a few things from the grocery store, etc so that i can get back on track... but i feel bad about the eating and we shall see where my weight is this thursday. i wouldn't be surprised if i didn't lose anything but i hope so and i think i am gonna go ahead and try to exercise **cough cough** this week and see if i can turn things around... my daughter started back to school and it is her b-day tomorrow and I WILL HAVE CAKE AND ICE CREAM! so i will have t make provision in my carb intake for that this week and be sure to do my part to stay on track.... i will update later. TTFN!

o8/28/2oo8 weight in

Aug 28, 2008

the weight in weigh is 189.2 almost 188 LOL... I'm on a roll.. getting that pep back in my step

o8272oo8 almost week #2

Aug 27, 2008

okay i will let you know that i lost more weight. i will update tomorrow with the official week 2 count and just post my weight. but things are going well i feel in control and i am eating ton of foo. i need to watch my fat intake but let me get down a few more pounds as i research some good options... it's looking like shrimp is a good protein source for me i think i will defrost some soon, but i have to finish my salmon. i feel absolutely great! i'm starting to feel the pep in my step again yay! am really excited because my 165 is around the corner! and i am learnigna way to eat that will be pretty easy to maintian, and do what i need to do. if i get out of control it wll be easy to jump back on and everyhtign is gravy! i love it! i am just cool. this is good i am happy and it's all good!

i'll check in tomorrow with th officail weigh in and you will see the progress

TTFN!

o8212oo8 - my first week!

Aug 21, 2008

okay so for the big weigh in... i am 191 lol! Yippee a loss of 3.5 pounds! For one week that's excellent. if i can keep up the weight loss even at 2 pounds a week i will be where i want in 2-3 months. that is great and i haven't been absolutely perfect either. I've messed up 2 days and then one day i didn't get in enough carbs to protein and i haven't exercised worth anything. i did go and dance my butt off at the club, but it wasn't that serious to me. this coming week i start back pilates it looks like i burn 304 calories per hour doing that so that's cool.. right up my alley until i get moved. but things are looking good and i am pleased! for real!soon enough i guess i need to take some pics i think i will this weekend since i am going to a wedding i will take some pics. i just haven't had much reason to take them i haven't been anywhere special, but i will take some and then maybe i'll take some more regular pics and not wait for an event to do it.spoke to crushy poo ... the gap is closing...LOL... we're both kinda not sure how to go about seeing each other now since we're both horn dogs and not trying to have sex.... God work something out for us! Please and thank you and soon... maybe we need chaperones. LMAO

o8192oo8 i dunno what day it is anymore

Aug 19, 2008

Let me say this this wagon thing is working! I snuck on the scale and was down, but i won't give the official report til thursday! But clothes are starting to fit better. I never thought it might be a little hard to get in the calories i need everyday. but it is... i over ate on sunday... church dinner... that'll prolly kinda always be like that, but it'll be okay. i will incorporate exercise later this week or next week... some light weight stuff. but i actually do feel full and good. and if i think a portion is small... all i think its that in a couple hours i can go back and have some more. i hardly ever do that. i've even had my haagen daazs yummy! yay! and i take along time to eat and that full sensation and/or digestive system starts working and i don't need to eat more. i think i need to work on reducing my fat intake a little more, but maybe i can talk to James about that and see what he thinks... the fat i eat is mostly good fat.... fro fish and avocado oils, etc.. but i will see still... over all this is going good for me. and i like tracking my calories... already...i really do it's really possible now to reach my goal soon. and when i start exercising it will really take shape in more ways that one.. the detox is still going strong and great too... things are all going in a good direction. i will update later...prolly when i weigh in TTFN!

o8162oo8 - DAY 4 I THINK-- LOL!

Aug 16, 2008

So ever since the "aha experience" i have been doing very well with my eating staying at my level each day to eat. my calories i have been watching and calculating. And i will be making more changes soon i just need to get this down right now ad i am good. i need to actually ea a few more carbs today. i think i am liking planning my meals. i thought it would be harder than it really is.. and since i don'[t get bored eating the same thing. everyday i can do one week of one type of meal. and then i can do something different for the next week. and that will be the easiest was for me to get used to mentally knowing what and how to eat. i feel two months of this i will be able to look and see what i need to eat everyday.. and i will still be doing well. i can actually meet my goal of 165 before the end of the year i'm SURE OF IT! and then onto the maintenance phase of it. that would be nice  good christmas present for myself. and i will be able to get some sort of long term plan going in my mind. its really turning into a REALLY GOOD THING that i'm moving back in with my parents, they cook like crazy and i'm so over trying to eat their food, but that means my daughter can eat well while i get used to my new way of eating, and by the time i move out it will be more normal and easy for me to do my life and adapt it for my daughter a little healthier way of eating and preparing foods and she can continue to be well balanced in her eating. i am excited yay! everything is looking up... i haven't felt hungry as long as i am doing this. also my clothes dare i say it already seem to fit a lil more loose... fit me alil better (since almost everything was fitting tight)... i am loving this and i feel so much more in control of everything... i don't feel like i did before. it's almost like having WLS again..(kind of) i now have a tool to help me lose weight and keep it off.

TTFN

o8142oo8 FIRST WHOLE DAY!

Aug 14, 2008

okay i told you that once i started my mini re journey i would post more often. well here it goes. so last night i was very disappointed... in myself.. i have SO GROSSLY MISCALCULATED MY CALORIES THAT IT'S ABSOLUTELY AMAZING... I WAS WELL ON MY WAY TO REGAINING A LOT OF WEIGHT. My caloric intake for yesterday alone was 2,681! Geez.. that was almost 3000 calories! what was i thinking. I mean i know i had some  fast food yesterday, but the truth is that I prolly wasn't too far off from he truth from my regular "normal" everyday eating. i have to say what a god-send dailyplate.com is. i was never one to do a food journal,.. but i like the way this particular one is going. it calculates calories, fats, proteins, carbs,.. etc and gives you the break down of what percentage of those things you eat and everything so that is great. i see i have a lot of fats in my diet as well as carbs.. but i haven't had the bulk of my protein yet.. and mot of the fat comes from avocados, and will come from the type of fish i eat, etc. so t fat just calculates fat not good vs bad fat.. which is still fine. tonight i will be eating tuna steaks which are high protein low fat and almost no carbs. so we will see what happens. i have made a deal with myself to not get on the scale until next thursday and see what i have accomplished. i expect to accomplish something. i will also vary my caloric intakes to keep my metabolism guessing. i am looking to have a big turn around within the month of september. maybe i can lose the 10 pounds by october.. it's now possible! and when i move to my parents' i will have the extra time to do exercises that fell by the way side. and everything will be on the up and up... i think it is very possible to reach my goal of 165 and maintain it. i will spend this week planning the rest of my meals... OH BTW... i counted portions, and everything, and after i griped and moaned about it... the portions weren't that bad. and the good news is... being portion controlled i can go back and have another serving in a few hours and be cool. i don't think i will make it to a snack today maybe a lil treat this evening, but that's all i have actually been rather full. i cam also going back to my band rules which means no drinking (or very little drinking) while eating and it still works (LMAO like it wasn't) i will be using a few appetite suppressants if i need to which i will buy this weekend. i like using slim mints the freshen your breath and keep you from eating.. and i can kinda pop them like candy. net week i will restart doing pilates to help myself tone as i lose weight. also my detox and cleansing is going great, in fact i need to order my next two months supply. i am more regular, my skin is staying cleared up, my skin texture is smoothing out wonderfully, and my energy is not so much through the roof, but it is okay i am able to go a full day and NOT be completely fatigued. i have stopped taking my iron supplement for the duration of my detox, because i'm supposed to be ridding my body of toxic metals (like mercury) as well, and i don't want any adverse effects from taking iron. so i am just going along nicely... i feel great today i mean i really do.. i am making the right choices again,. i am fully aware of what i am putting into my body i need to get a few more fresh vegetable in to my diet. i learned i don't' like many cooked veggies so i have to have an alternative... anyway... i'm siked.. i'll TTYL...TTFN!


END OF DAY! i made my calorie goal with 100 calories to spare.. my daily allotment is 1658 and i had 1558! horray! i may just have a spoonful of ice cream as my treat.. and can i tell you i AM FULL like the taco bell commercial! i may not have any ice cream just yet, i may throw myself off too soon. but maybe on my cycle down day where i can eat whatever i want or something like that i have to listen to the video again!  okay that's it. TTFN!

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OKAY SO I HAD TO RESTART... AGAIN... 121o2oo8
o9112oo8 - the start over is going strong!
o9o92oo8 - ummmm yeah,..... i gotta start over-- LOL
o9o12oo8 - messed up this weekend
o8/28/2oo8 weight in
o8272oo8 almost week #2
o8212oo8 - my first week!
o8192oo8 i dunno what day it is anymore
o8162oo8 - DAY 4 I THINK-- LOL!
o8142oo8 FIRST WHOLE DAY!

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