Baby Steps Out of the Shadows

Jul 08, 2010

July 8th, 2010 - weight 325lbs
It is hard for me to believe that I'm writing this.  I am never, ever honest and open about weight issues with anyone- including and maybe especially with myself.  Yet here I am, picture and real name exposed right next to that glaring over 50 BMI.  What am I thinking?  

I guess I'm thinking that it's time to stop lying and hiding and pretending.  I'm ready to be me.  I'm ready to shed this shell of a person that I created to mask the real me.  I'm not in therapy and I'm surely no psychiatrist but I know there are deeper issues involved with my weight but I don't know what they are entirely.  I guess I've hidden from them just the way I've hidden myself from the world.  I hope, pray and believe that this is the day that I put a stop to it.  

My ultimate plan at the moment is to head down to see Dr. Alvarez and get this nipped in the bud (VSG) .  Any opinions or information on him and his practice would be very welcomed.  

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