To Pre Op's

Nov 18, 2006

So your at that stage where your nerves feel like something is in there shaking them like crazy.  I know how that feels and it can drive you nutty at times.  Its normal to feel the emotions that your feeling at this stage.  Its near time to have your surgery done and you have so many mixed emotions that you don't know how to handle them all.  Being scared and wondering if I would really go through with it kept me on the edge all the time.  It wouldn't have been a normal day for me if I didn't bite someone's head off because of all the stress.  But, if could go back to my preop stage i would handle things a little differently.  I know now that worrying does nothing at all to help the situation and most of the time it can only make it worse.  

You've come this far in the game, just let the ball flow easily and take one breath at a time.  The healing part isn't bad, the pain isn't that bad or it wasn't for me.  Just make your mind up to do everything that your Dr. tells you do because only they know what is best for you.  

As far as having the surgery vrs not having it.  My advice to you is take your time and research this very well.  Make sure that you have not only the will but the heart to withstand all that comes with it.  This isn't an easy way out of dieting, in fact to me, its harder.  It's not a thing where you do a diet for a short amount of time then go back to normal.   From the day of surgery on, that is your normal way of life for the rest of your life.  It takes a lot of dedication, planning and determination to be a bariatric patient.     Make sure you know all about protein and how much your going to need from day one.  

So Im now taking my blog and making it into something to help you.  I thought this would be simple,  easy and carefree.  I just knew that this surgery would be my easy way out and man was I ever wrong.  I have to work at this everyday.  Would I do this again,  in a heartbeat and once a year if needed.  

Don't be in a rush.  We didn't get obese overnight and surgery is going to be there for a while.  If you have doubts, question those.  Write them down and weigh out the differences of being obese and not.  

Have a great day.

Gina

A year and a half and a person and a half gone.

Nov 13, 2006

I lost a person.  I lost the hurt and pain that went with her too.  She carried around not only the fat and pain from weight but the heartache that scars so many of us for life.  I lost a double sized Me.  Im so happy now that words can't even explain to you.  I feel like im worthy now and that i can do things that i couldnt even imagine doing before.  I find myself remembering back on certain things and get teary eyed knowing that i let myself get that out of shape and overweight.  I know the difference now in being fat and being healthy and its not easy being either way.  I begged for this surgery for a long time and here i am a walking example and success of it.  I don't have any trouble out of my post op.  I follow what my dr. told me to and i stick to it .  There is times that i crave chocolate so bad that i could eat the side of a barn off and ill just grab some m&m's and im happy.  I am a food addict.  No i didn't want to admit that before.  I blamed all of my obesity on other things like fluid, rather than blaming me for sitting there eating like something goofy.  I know that food is my means of survival and before I made it my means of life.  If there was a way to roll my window down in the car, it was stuck next to a drive through window getting me some food and not just once a day but 4 or 5 times a day.  I spent every dime I had on the fast food junk that I can't stand now.  I'm not boney skinny but im thin and very athletic.  I have deep muscle cuts in my legs and butt.  Now getting these arms in shape.  I can see a muscle buldge coming up finally.  BUt man its hard.  I get lazy at times and just want to sit around, but hey, i wanted this now ive got it and its only up to me to take care of it.  I know i don't get on here a lot, but when i do i read through the posts that every puts up and im so thankful for all the people here that helped me along the way.  Shannon if you see this, your precious and you nearly saved my life by talking me into having this surgery done.  It's changed not only my looks, but my whole outlook on life.  Thanks so much for standing beside me so many times and dealing with the person that I use to be.  I can never repay you for all you did.

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Powderly, KY
Location
36.4
BMI
RNY
Surgery
07/14/2005
Surgery Date
Aug 02, 2004
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