Bridget M.

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Well nothing good to report. I hate the Lap Band for me. Going to look into revision. Oh and getting a divorce now lol. Yeah life has been difficult this past two years.

Well its been awhile since I have posted. Life has been busy. I went to a new doctor today, Dr. Chung. Love him! He got me in one stick! I had 1.8 in my 4.00 cc band and I have been too tight for WAY to long. He looked at my Upper Gi and said I was tight but that I didnt need to take it all out. He took me down to 1.3 so basically .5 out. I have to admit, I havent eaten since November without tea or coffee and I probably get solid foods in about 3 times a week so tonight I was bad. I had a Big Mac and fries. Oh my gosh did they taste good and they DIDNT STICK or SLIME or PB!! WOOHOOOOOOO. Yes I know, bad girl. But I dont care. Im not going to go hog wild but I cant even explain how good it feels to eat again. I will make better choices because I WILL finally lose this weight, but it felt so good. I wanted to cry. We will see how tomorrow goes. Im still having my protein shake in the am and will get something healthy for lunch. We have court tomorrow and it will be the first I eat at lunchtime since about 2 weeks ago when we had court I PB'ed 5 times. I had to leave court and thank goodness I was still training and someone covered for me. Otherwise, as a Minute Clerk you cant leave court. I swore never to eat lunch again when we have court. But now I can! I am so going to work this band. I have felt like a prisoner for 9 months now. Way to long. Now I am free!! never never go that long being too tight, but I had little choice since I had medical problems and then the move. My weight is at 264 according to the doc's office. I cant wait to weigh myself next week and see where its at. The one time I could eat for 2 weeks I lost 18lbs. I hope and pray its the same now. I am looking forward to this band which is saying alot! Wish me luck!

Post Date: 7/9/07 2:21 pm
HI guys and gals,

This might be long, dont know yet. I have some issues and concerns etc. Ok most of you know the story but heres a bullet point.
1. Lap Band placed May 25, 2006 (2 fills for a total of 2.0 now)
2. Flipped port-surgery Aug 06
3. Cyst-operation, lost an ovary and tube 1/07
4. Married, moved 6/ 07

through all of this, I have lost (I wont say ONLY Bette!) 60lbs. I have to get an upper GI before I go see a new doc here in LA. The problem is, I cant figure out if I am too tight or not. You would think this would be simple but its not. I have always had to drink hot tea with everything or nothing will go down. Most times I cant eat any foods for breakfast, I have a protein drink. I have lunch, sometimes half a sandwhich, sometimes a whole, sometimes nothing and PB and slime. Dinner is the same, hot tea, sometimes its goes down. I make sure and have the protein first, and have done pretty well avoiding carbs but not all together. I still get hungry and snack, I buy those 100 calorie snack packs and have one, or the Carb Control ice cream when hubby is having a drumstick. I average PB'ing twice a week I would say and slime about 4-5 times a week.

 In the last month I have lost 10lbs and put 2lbs back, lose it the next day. For the LIFE OF ME I cant figure if I am too tight. Man I have been on the boards forever and you would think I could figure this out, but I cant. I HAVE to drink tea to get anything down, somedays I PB, somedays I dont. What am I suppose to tell this doc when I do go see him? I have no idea if I need more or less. Any advice would be great!

Hugs
Bridget

 

Hi gals and guys,

Its me. For the newbies, I am an oldie, for the oldies, you better remember me! So here it is in a nutshell, I had that cyst surgery 1/30, almost made it back to work and had complications. It seems my body healed itself in the wrong places when I had that 21x29 cyst in there lol. So when I finally started walking around a bit to much I pulled scar tissue (which hurts like Holy Hell btw) and was on strict bedrest for 3 weeks. Whew. Let me tell you, bedrest sucks major!!! I watched every program on Animal Planet and Discovery possible. The good part was my fiance' came out for a week and we had a blast. Pain in the ass he is, but I love him all the same. SO I came back to work this Monday and so far so good! WOOHOOO! The bad part is? Because of all this drama and trauma, my 1 year anniversary is 5/25 and to date I have lost only about 55 lbs. Sucks again. But my doc said with all the problems I have had this year my body was out of whack and good reason not to have been losing. Still sucks. I had this cyst thing since 9/06 (didnt go to the doc right away). Anyway, I just really wish I was further along on this journey!! So I have to get back on track and stop eating carbs. I saw a lady who had the bypass the same time I had the band and of course she is about 150lbs now. Makes me so depressed. Plus I havent talked to or been to a support group in months now. Sigh. Ok enough feeling sorry. I have much to be thankful for and blessed with. 

So thanks for the emails my friends, I have missed you all and welcome to all the new people! Im going to try and get online more often now and check the boards as before. 

Hugs and Loves
Bridget

P.S. Heres a pic of my sweetie and my beautiful son. Or I will post it on my profile!

 

Post Date: 3/2/07 12:45 pm
Hi guys its me again. Feeling a bit better and got my computer working again. Hopefully it stays that way! Well, Im 4 weeks out, doc says I have another 2 to go. Because the cut was so big he thinks I need all 6 weeks. Disability pay sucks, but what can you do? So people tell me whats been going on!!! ANything happening????? I need news! 

Oh my good news is I have lost 24 lbs since 1/22. Is that amazing or what? I think I need a fill tho. Dunno, cant make up my mind. Sometimes its hard to eat anything, other times I eat to much. But if I am getting a fill I want to get it before I go back to work obviously. 

So talk to me! Someone, anyone! 

Hugs Bridge

Post Date: 2/6/07 11:59 am

Hi all! It be me with an update! I am finally out of the hospital, thank you Lord! Let's see, the operation went well, a few setbacks but I have no cancer YEAHHHHHHHHH!! The doc said my cyst was the size of a small watermelon, dont have the finally pathology reports on all of it yet. I have 38 staples. They had to make the incision longer than my C-section cause the thing was so damn big. I get my staples out on Friday and get to go to my home then. Im staying with my mom for now recovering. I remember most of NOTHING last week. I was so drugged and out of it. I left the hospital Saturday. I try to get up and move around as much as possible. Whoever told me about "binders" God love you! It has helped alot. So now its steady and slow for awhile. I will get weighed on Friday and tell you what the results are now. I do need to remember to ask the doc, I had part of my right ovary removed prior and now my left one is all gone. Does that change hormones? Or if I can even get pregnant again? I wonder. 

As for the man of my life. Im still in love and missing him terrible since I have to sit and have nothing to do.  

Other than that, just bored out of my mind people! Still cant sit in this seat for too long without getting uncomfortable so Im going for now. I miss you guys. I will try and get my puter up and running and home, I cant go 4 weeks without checking in! Cant wait to start participating again! Thanks for all the well wishes and prayers, they helped SOOOOOOOO much! Hugs all

B

As of today, I have been referred to a gyn/oncologist in Sacramento (about 1 1/2 hr away). I have a cyst on the right ovary that is now about 9 inches, it went from 6 inches to 9 inches. I think its growing. I'll be giving birth. Anyway, my doc wants me to go to this other doctor because they will have to operate and when they cut me open they will do a biopsy and see if anything is cancer, if not they will take out the cyst and the ovary, if it is they will do a hysterectomy or however you spell it. I now wait for a date. In the meantime doc says dont sleep on the right side, dont move, dont bend, you should be off of work etc. So I walk around like a 90 year old woman trying not to rupture this thing. Mainly because if it is cancerous and it ruptures it will be all over my body. To boot my left side hurts now. Doc said probably because its so big its pushing everything around in there. Sleep is almost impossible. By the end of the work day I am exhausted from pain. I dont want to have to wait another 2-3 weeks for surgery but I have to wait and see what they have open. Im very distressed and actually not eating alot of anything. I am taking Norco and Vicodin. So please say many prayers. One for energy and pain to go away! Thanks all. 

Post Date: 1/7/07 12:39 pm
I want to say so sorry for not being around. I try to post to those who have questions, support others and be active in this community. However of late I have not. So I'm sorry guys and gals. I havent forgotten you!

Seems alot has been going on in the boards lately, not to minimize anyones feelings or beliefs, but I wish we could all just get along. 

So I have been gone cause of this whole uterus thingie. My MRI came back and it seems a have an ovarian cyst thats about 6 inches. Yep, huge. Lovely isnt it? SOOOOOOO I have to be really careful not to rupture it until I can have surgery (Open) to take it out. I have to have another ultrasound on Monday and a blood test CA-125 to see if its cancerous.  Its probably not, but better to know these things. Then I am assuming surgery right away to get the thing out. Doc said it couldnt be lap, it would be open which means 4 weeks or so off of work. Not looking forward to that as a single mom. Thats the highlights, thought I would keep you posted. 

Bad part is I cancelled my fill, again. No tightening the band with all of this going on. So now I have missed the last 2 months. Great. 

Now onto good news, one, I lost 3 lbs this week!! oh and this cyst is so big Im thinking thats another 5lbs!

It will all work out. I will try and check on the boards and answer when I can. Even if not, I am thinking of you all and saying prayers.

Hugs
B

Ok heres the deal. I found some instant messages a few months back between some co-workers. In it, they said some mean things, but whatever. One of the things was that "you know shes a closet eater because she cant eat that little and not lose weight". Again, whatever, it hurts but you cant change people.

So today, my boss is asking me about this surgery, if I would do it again, how long is it supposed to take to lose all the weight etc. I told him this is the most questions he has ever asked about it. He asked me "so be honest, do you binge eat at home?" I said no! I mean I ate more sweets during the holidays but I dont buy stuff at home to binge on. Course Im rethinking that now, maybe I will tonight. I am hurt. Just because I am losing weight SLOWLY, everyone is now assuming I am cheating or not doing it right. I will get over it, but sh**, what else can I do except not eat at all?

I did explain to him that it takes between 3-8 fills most times and when you get to be where you should the pounds come off quicker. I am on fill 3 and told him I had an appt in Jan (I had to cancel Decembers-financially) for my 4th one. Ugh. I hate this feeling I am now having. Shake it off I know, just had to vent. 

B