Independence Eve

Jul 02, 2003

On the eve of this Independence Day celebration I want to wish
everybody a happy and healthy holiday. I thinks it's so appropriate...this
INDEPENDENCE DAY! That's what we are all striving for to be independent
from our food addiction. I've had some good news. On Tuesday I will be
having my endoscopy and ultrsound. I spoke to the Leroy, the person in
charge of insurance for Cedars. He asked me a lot of questions about my
past diet history, medical involement, and about my diet and exercise
habits.

We are waiting for my doctor's progress notes for diet and exercise
programs. Leroy was very positive about my being approved! WOW...that was
wonderful. Now I can do what I need to do to get this thing rolling.
After that it's wait for a date. I am hoping for October. In September I
will be going to New York for four days....my last hurrah before my
life changes!! What a way to celebrate!!!

So, my AMOS family have a wonderful indepenence day and my wishes to
all of you who are beginning your journeys!

HS Reunion update

Jun 23, 2003

6/24/03

Hello Amos! I arrived home Sunday from my 20 year high school reunion.
It was wonderful. I was very concerned about my weight, but I shouldn't
have been. All my firends and classmates were wonderful. The years and
maturity do something to people. Everyone was so supportive when I told
them about my surgery plans. I find myself wanting to tell people. I
guess it makes me accountable for my actions. It also let's me share my
journaey with others who may be experiencing pain or denial in their
lives. My wonderful finace came with me and was such a doll. He was great
to everyone who wanted to find out about him and where he grew up. Six
hours of meet and greet and hugging and crying and he held up!!! What a
guy!

Sending my love to all!!! Keep up the faith friends.

Marcy

Went to the PCP

Jun 17, 2003

6/18/03

Went to my PCP yesterday and he wrote a request for the Gastric
Endoscopy and Ultrsound. After those are done I can get my date!!!! Still
waiting to get the final letter form my doctor about the records of
medically supervised weight loss programs. Aetna requires that a member
complete at least a 6 mos medically supervised weight and exercise program in
order to qualify for surgery. The programs msut be a least six months
long and cannpt be over two years old. I'm a little nervous because I
have been given diets and programs(over and over again) but they have
never been checked weekly. I hope that's not what they need. The last
weekly medically suoervised program I was enrolled in was the UCLA Phen Fen
program. That was a horrible mess! The drugs made me feel horrible and
I didn't lose that much.

Just another thing to check!!!! Going to my 20 year high school reunion
tomorow!!! Love and prayers to all my AMOS family members! 

20th High School Reunion

Jun 13, 2003

6/14/03

Hello Amos! Next week is my 20 year high school reunion. I AM going
because I don't think I could justify not going. However, I am feeling
very FAT!!! I left high school as the BEST ACTRESS at 130 pounds with
large breasts!!! I wasn't as thin as many of the other girls but I wasn't
350 pounds either!! I am meeting a friend there and my wonderful fiance
is coming with me. Those fears just keep coming!!!!! Anyway, I am
trying to decide what to wear. It's going to be in Sacramento and it will be
hot. No covering up for me!! Pray for me friends. I am a string woman,
but the feelingd of doubt and fear are still there just below the
surface. Has anyone had the same experiences?
Love and support for now-Marcy

ps-6/14/03

Just heard that all I need to get is two more documents from my doctor.
I'll see him on Tuesday. I will also be starting my tests. When I get
them done I can get a DATE!!!! I'm keeping me fingers crossed! Cedars
has been great. I have to keep up with them though. Persistance!!!


Patience

Jun 11, 2003

Hello AMOS!!!

I've been waiting to here from the insurance company. I know it's only
been a week and a half, but since I got on the scale and saw the REAL
numbers I have been freaked out. Perhaps it's just psychosomatic, but I
feel horrible. My body and legs ache and my stomach just keeps getting
bigger. Maybe my body is finally telling me...I NEED HELP...THIS IS TOO
MUCH WEIGHT!!!!

Anyway, I do so much love the support I've found here. It's hard for
those who haven't felt the weight, shame, and denial to understand even
if they love and support us.

Thank G-D for therapy!!! Last week I finally "came out" to my Doctorate
class mates. It was so refreshing to be able to talk and just have
people listen. No judgements. That's what you get when you let you denial
go and "come out" to a room of therapists! One of my classmate's wife
just had the surgery. She's a member of this site and I have been
tracking her progress with interest.

As of now I am working on my Patience!!!

Love and prayers to you all...Marcy


Love this site!

Jun 03, 2003

Last night I chatted with some of the AMOS members. I can't believe
that I felt like I was the only one who had "embarrassing" obesity
problems. It's so nice to be able to chat with others about experiences and
feel supported. I'm so glad I found this site. My family, fiance, and
friends have been really supportive about my weight gain and subsequent
tries at weight loss. Now that I've made this decision I can see relief
in their faces when I tell them. It's like they've been so worried about
my health, but could not approach me. DENIAL can be a pretty strong force. Finally, I can see through the clouds. I'm ready for my new journey. After all, I'm way to busy to let my body slow me down. Doctoral student, career counselor, and psych assistant....I'm happy and busy!!

More later...oxoxo Marcy

The Journey Begins 6-3-03

Jun 02, 2003

6/2/03 Just got my initial consultation done. Looking forward to a speedy YES from AETNA!!! Cross your fingers for me!!! I LOVE THIS SITE!!!

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LOS ANGELES, CA
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33.1
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Surgery
10/16/2003
Surgery Date
May 25, 2003
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