dwilliams1913
Preparation Time
Nov 25, 2011
Well hellllllloooo good people and Happy Belated Thanksgiving!!! I know I certainly should not be a scale watcher, and that being so will only sorely disappoint me when I have a stall. I will be getting a tape measure very soon to take my measurements. I never thought that I would be a person to take my own measurements because of the difficulty of getting the tape measure around certain body parts, but after having lost 80 lbs., it's a little easier to do many things concerning my body. With having said all of that, it appears that I have lost another 4lbs. I don't know. The scale is tricky. I went to weigh in at a Weight Watchers center on Wednesday and I weighed 362lbs. This morning I got on my home scale and it indicated that I now weigh 358 lbs. Though I question having lost 4lbs. in three days, the fact of the matter is that I can feel the difference in my body. I can always tell whether I have lost pounds or inches from my body on the basis of how I feel in my own skin. My stomach is smaller. My face is thinner. My hands are thinner, and I can feel the small bones in them much easier than I could when I wore 438lbs. Just the other day I noticed that something was protruding from my arms. At a second glance, I realized that the protrusions were my elbows. LOL! I never even noticed my elbows before. As an intelligent person, I always knew anatomically that I had elbows, but to see them in a mirror is very exciting for me. Also, I now feel the tibia bones in both of my legs. I am so stoked about this! These seem like really small things, but I'm flying high about them never the less. I am 20 lbs. away from meeting my first goal of 100 lbs lost before surgery.
I am trying to prep my house for surgery. This past week I purchased a three month supply of multivitamins, calcium, iron, B12, and B Complex chewables. I have worked this into my budget and I just have to get used to it financially and physically. I also purchased a food processor and more items on my hospital stay list. I have purchased baby bowls, baby snack cups, and baby spoons. I have started to pack my bag for the hospital. Everything is packed very neatly. I like to have things in order, though I can be very unorganized at times. LOL! As you can see, Jesus is helping me to improve! Thank you Jesus!
Okay, I will admit, I have been going back and forth about the preop liquid phase of my diet. I really haven't gone full speed ahead in this area. This week has been especially difficult because of Thanksgiving. I am not making excuses, I am just telling the truth as I know it. What is scary is that this upcoming week I will have to go back to work and I am dreading beginning my FULL preop liquid diet. I am afraid of failing and it being a sure sign that I will not be successful after surgery. I have to face this fear and move through it. I have to remind myself that God has the ability and is willing to help me even in the face of all my imperfections, and they are many. I have to remember in these times to trust and rely on him because He and He alone is the source of my strength. Well, until next time good people, allow the Lord to walk you through this maze called life and strengthen and encourage you along the way.
