Hows about an update?

Jan 03, 2012

Been what - 18 months since my last update? Unforgivable! Sorry about that.

Lets see. I regained 48 pounds in a very short amount of time from around July 2010 - October 2010 after my husband, Eric, was put into remission in March of that year. Believe it or not - I actually gained my weight after he got better! I learned (after I decided to reclaim my health) that I was doing it to create chaos in my world because I was bored! I wasn't going to chemo, surgeries, doctors appointments, etc. I was just existing. And what are ya gonna do when you're life is full of chaos and then suddenly unchaotic? Embrace the luxury of time of your hands? NAH! Eat. Eat and eat and eat. Because you're gonna die anyway - might as well eat. Right? Wrong.

So what happened to make me get back on track? I had an amazing support system who whispered in my ear "Psssst. Hey... you have regain? I know some other people who do too. Wanna get together and share our struggles and not be judged for it? Come this way!" and I haven't turned back since. I'm part of an incredible group who are helping me carry the weight of losing weight. Cause it's just as hard as it was pre-op to lose - I just have years and years of wanting to be healthy now and knowing what it feels like to be there helping me this time. My good friend and I talk about how we eat now and we realize it's been long enough that we just don't want to go back to pre-op ways - even if we have had regain. I wish I knew what it felt like 5 years ago before surgery but I'm so happy I do now. I'll probably regain again in my lifetime - but I know I can lose it now. No matter what - I have what it takes inside me to succeed for the long haul.

So here I am now. I'm at the same weight where I maintained the easiest for years. 48 pounds of regain are GONE! Yay! I'm still 10 pounds above my lowest but I'm ok with that because I feel good. I have more goals in mind for 2012 though! First I want to lose 25 lbs to get me to the 200 lb lost mark. After that it's ONEDERLAND, baby!!! I don't need to stay in the 100's cause like I've said before - I like being meaty - but I want/need to see 199 one time in my adult life. If I maintain between 200-220 for the rest of my life I will be content as can be. Watch me closely, friends. This girl is on her way in 2012!!!

Take care and know that I appreciate everyone who has helped me in my journey. I might not come to a lot of boards like I used to but that doesn't mean I don't care. Leave me a note and let me know how you are! 


                 Oct 2010                                      Oct 2011




                               Oct 2010                                                                                 Oct 2011

And here's my sweet little family now! Everyone is healthy, happy, and glad to be back to normal!

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