I'm a fat disgusting non-loser

May 07, 2014

I've now gained 11 lbs.  Can't stop eating. Never feel full. Up 11lbs since April 10th.  I hate myself, I hate my life, and I wish I would just die.  I don't want to kill myself so don't anyone go calling the cops to my house, I just am so miserable I don't want to live anymore.  I can't stand busting my ass 4X a week at the gym only to be so constantly hungry and once I start eating I can't stop. I ate 4 slices of pizza yesterday, Ate a steak with mushrooms and broccoli today, I can eat a 4cup bowl of salad and still be hungry.  Oh yeah, it was employee appreciation day and the supervisors brought in 4 dz donuts.  I ate 4 donuts in less than 5 minutes, went home and ate 2 fish tacos. FML  Today it was 6 cookies and a cup of strawberries in about 5 minutes, and an hour later had that steak that I mentioned above.  I'm never full and I get hungry (for real) an hour after I eat and even when I'm not hungry, I  can eat ridiculous amounts of food. I used to have to take half my meal home when I went out to eat but now I can polish off an appetizer and my whole meal and still feel I can eat more.  This is so fucking ridiculous. (Excuse my language but I am mad, frustrated and depressed because I have no self control and I"m a worthless piece of shit) I have an appt with my Sx on May 21st. 2 hours and 45 minutes away.  I'll probably be 225 by then.  FML FML FML.

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