sad so sad

Jul 22, 2009

I have officially lost my mind.  I will be two years post op in December.  I have gained about 20lbs never reaching my Ial.  I experienced horrible side effects taking ambien cr to help me sleep.  I was sleep walking and binge eating while taking it.. I've been taking it for months so who knows how long i'e been eating in my sleep.  I am disgusted with myself.  /the smallest I had gotten down to was 191lbs on a good day! I have ballooned back up to 213l bs if not more.  It seems like my body is expanding every day!  I have completely forgotten how to eat and live like i've had rny done.  What makes all of this so terribly bad is that I'm already a revision patient.  I've always felt like from day one my pouch size was too big.  I felt like I could eat more than what I should.  'well now that I'm almost two years out, it's out of control... I actually have an appetite and get hungry with a vengqnce! Is there help out there for a person like me?  I wonder if my surgeon does the rose procedure? Hell he can at  least check to see if my pouch is too large.  I don't know what else to do and I'm so  afraid of gaining weight but not afraid enough to STOP EATING!  I haven't been on this site in sooo long.  Not even really sure why I got on here tonight.  Just tired and frustrated. It's so bad now that I take Alli the fat blocker to help minimize my weight gain... I wonder if my gp will prescribe an appetite suppresant.  I'm desperate and I don't know what to do....

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