Still feeling beat up

Oct 22, 2007

Okay, so Sunday I wake up feeling like a new person.  I think OMG, I have finally turned the corner and from here on out I should continue to feel better and better.  So we get up early and go to a really large flea market.  I walk the entire thing.  We are there at least two hours.  On the way home we stop to do some food shopping.  I'm still feeling good.  Come home, have a protein shake, read the OH posts, answer some emails, watch a little TV, get back out for another walk.  Just having a really great, high energy day.  Today I wake up feeling like a bus hit me.  Why, yesterday was so great.  Why can't I function today???  I haven't even gotten out to walk yet.  UGH!!!  I hate feeling this way.  I just really, really want to feel that energy that everyone talks about.

Home four days now.

Oct 20, 2007

I've been home about four days now and am still feeling exhausted.  I force myself to get out and walk at least twice a day, but I'm not really walking that far.  Yesterday hubby and I drove to Core Creek Park (this is a park I could see from my hospital window while I was at St. Mary's).  I was curious about it and thought it was such a nice day and could be a place to take a nice walk.  We got there and started walking around the lake but I got so tired and lightheaded we had to go back to the car and leave.  On the way home I asked him to stop at Neshaminy Mall because I really, really wanted to get in more walking.  We went into the Mall, bought some new sneakers for hubby, then had to leave because I just didn't have the stamina to walk anymore.  This is becoming very distressing.  I really need to be moving.  I am a week behind because of the additional time at the hospital and I really want to lose all this water weight before I see Dr. Boe on Wednesday.  I just gotta keep on plugging.

Finally Home

Oct 18, 2007

Okay, so things didn't go quite as planned.  Had my surgery on Tuesday, October 9.  Had a really, really bad reaction to the anesthesia, causing me to dry heave all day on the 9th and into the 10th.  Evidently, all the wretching I was doing put a kink into my bypassed intestine, requiring more surgery to fix on the 11th.  Came through the second surgery great, feeling like a new person.  No problem with the anesthesia this time.  As I was getting ready to be discharged my heart rate dropped to 39.  Dr. Boe was out of town and Dr. Marymor and Dr. Koganski made the decision to have me transferred to St. Mary's.  While at St. Mary's my heart went into atrial fibrillation for a short time, but went back into rythym on its own.  I was kept for monitoring for a few days and finally released on October 17.   Overall, I guess you could say it wasn't quite what I had expected, but I do not regret my decision to have this surgery and would do it again even knowing the roadblocks I would encounter.  

My whole experience at Barix was amazing.  The doctors and staff are so amazing.  Everyone felt so bad about the second surgery.  When I was taken back down to the operating room the second time the same nurses were there who assisted in the first surgery.  They were so upset to see me come back I almost felt like I had to console them.  Dr. Boe said everyone hates to see that.  Dr. Boe was amazing.  He stayed by my side holding my hand the whole time I was being prepped for the second surgery.  Dr. Marymor was also in the operating room in case Dr. Boe needed assistance.  I had never met him before but he was just as compassionate and caring as Dr. Boe.  Dr. Marymor even came to see me at St. Mary's because Dr. Boe was out of town.

So, now I'm home, trying to figure my way through this new lifestyle.  I am feeling exhausted, and trying hard to get all the protein and water in.  Walking was very difficult for me today, even though I cut grooves into the track at Barix and at St. Mary's.  I don't quite understand why I'm feeling so tired but hope that it passes soon so I can start moving like I should.  Today I only took one walk.  Tomorrow I must do better. 

Off to Barix

Oct 08, 2007

Just sitting here waiting to leave for Barix.  I am having trouble typing, I am literally trembling.  Dear God, please allow me to come home to my family.

My day is finally here

Oct 08, 2007

Tomorrow is my surgery day.  I've been out of sorts all day.  I went to work because I thought it would be good to keep busy.  But I couldn't focus and really was of no use to anyone.  I am nervous about tomorrow.  Not necessarily about the surgery, but about the chance that something will come up and I will have to be cancelled again.  I guess I am just a little gun shy.  But I really need to move on so I can get past this clear liquid stage.  This is my 16th day on clear liquids and I have had just about enough.  I have nothing planned for tonight.  Everyone has already called to wish me luck so I plan to just relax, watch some TV, and try to fall asleep. 

Surgery Postponed

Oct 03, 2007

Got a call from Barix early this morning saying there was an emergency there and to wait until someone called from Barix with a new time.  They just called me and had to postpone me until next Tuesday.  I'm still on liquids until then.  So, I'm wiping away my tears and heading out to work.

Tomorrow

Oct 03, 2007

Well, this is it.  This is the last day that my body will be as God created it.  Tomorrow I am putting my life into the hands of a doctor I've only met once but for some reason trust.  Am I out of my mind!  I am so full of mixed emotions.  I am trying to keep myself busy, busy, busy, so I don't think about it so much.  But it's really hard.  

Okay, enough, knock it off.  There are a million reasons why I wanted this surgery.  But my most important reason is my precious Abigail.  I just love her so much and I want to have so many more years with her.  So I will have this surgery, become healthy, and be sitting in the first pew the day she walks down the aisle.

Loser's bench, here I come!

Surgery this Week

Sep 30, 2007

Only four more days till my re-birthday.  Had my hair highlighted and cut early on Saturday.  Came home to find my granddaughter at my house earlier than expected.  Abby is 17 months and an absolute JOY!  Both my daughter and son-in-law have bachlor/bachlorette parties to go to on Saturday night and grandmom is babysitting.  I love having Abby stay overnight.  She is such a good baby, and she keeps me moving, which is a good thing.  I'm still on the liquid diet, but my hunger is gone.  I truly am not one bit hungry.  I am sticking with protein shakes, sugar free jello, and some popsicles.  Still staying away from the soup because I don't want to retain water and make the scale move in the wrong direction.  I definitely feel like I lost the weight that Dr. Boe wanted me to lose this weekend, but my scale only goes to 300, so I have no way of knowing right now.  I was thinking about taking a ride up to Barix to use their scale, but how obsessive is that.  Besides, if I haven't lost weight I would be too upset for words.  I still have four days before surgery which gives me four more days to lose weight.  I think I'll just wait until then.  

Last night my husband and I took Abby to Franklin Mills Mall so I could get some walking in.  I've been trying to up my movement so after surgery it won't be so hard to do all the walking that is required.  I work in a large building in Center City and everytime I leave my office to go to the ladies room I walk all the way around the entire floor, which is the equivalent of a Center City block.  That has definitely increased my movement over the last week or so.  But Last night at Franklin Mills Mall I could only go halfway before my hips started killing me.  Today I am really hurting.  I hope this goes away soon, because I know how important it is to keep moving.  I'm going to talk a short walk after I finish posting just to keep my stamina up.  

Tonight I am going to take my "before" pictures and take my measurements also.  I also have to remove my acrylic nails.  I've never done that before, but I got some good tips off the internet and bought everything I need to do it.  My nails haven't seen the light of day in over 4 years. 


Stressed and Upset

Sep 28, 2007

I got a call from Barix yesterday.  Dr. Boe wanted me to come in to get weighed.  So I go last night to the nurses station on the second floor to get weighed only to find out that after five days on the liquid diet (which I have followed faithfully) I have only lost two pounds.  That worried me, but I thought at least it's a loss and not a gain.  So this morning I come into the office and the nurse at Barix calls and says "I'm so sorry to tell you that Dr. Boe has cancelled your surgery."  My heart fell to the floor.  I asked why and she said because I have gained 40 POUNDS since my consultation in May.  I said that's not true.  At my PATs last week I was down 4 lbs from my consultation.  She said no, it says on your chart that you were 300 lbs at your consultation.  I said the chart is wrong, I was 350 lbs at my consultation.  She said she would doublecheck and get back to me.  She called back and apologized and said she was sorry, I was right.  The original chart said 350 lbs.  However, Dr. Boe still says I have to lose at least 5 to 6 pounds over the weekend.   Here are some of my problems.  First, I am very constipated.  Second, I am definitely retaining water.  I mentioned this to the nurse and she told me to stop the broth because it's too high in sodium.  Third, I have my period, which definitely puts 1 or 2 pounds on me.   I am already on a water pill, but Dr. Kovanski changed my water pill prescription to a lighter one because he doesn't want me to become dehydrated prior to the surgery.  

They have also pushed my surgery back by one day.  I really like Barix and Dr. Boe.  When I went to the nurses station to get weighed last night I stayed and spoke with the nurses for a bit.  What a great group of people, so very friendly and helpful.  One of the nurses told me that all of Dr. Boe's patients come through the surgery great.  They have less problems than some of the other patients and they seem to be able to move better.  She said that's all because of the liquid diet.  I want to do what's best for me.  It's just really, really hard sometimes.

CLEARED!!!

Sep 26, 2007

Got a call from Barix this morning.  I am cleared for surgery.  Lung scan came back showing no change in the nodule that was detected on a scan done in November, 2006.  Surgery is one week from today!!!!  

I'm on day 4 of the 10-day liquid diet.  I am cranky, to say the least.  My stomach just rumbles and rumbles.  I am drinking my shakes and sipping my water, and slurping up broth like a mad woman.  Now I know what the term "head hunger" means.  MY HEAD HURTS!

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