Eileen O.
13 months, 2 weeks since surgery
Jan 07, 2010
Well it has been one hellava year! I'm down 155lbs since my highest weight of 430 back in September '08. I count my weight loss from that number as it was the highest weight I was ever at...I lost about 17 lbs prior to surgery. My life really is pretty much the same as it was a year ago...pretty funny actually. My issues and problems are all the same - I'm just lighter! I deal with things a little bit better without the added burden of the life threatening weight but my life is still chaotic just the same. And although I definately eat less than I did prior to my sleeve - I still eat over emotions & out of boredom. Only real difference, thanks to surgery, I'm never really hungry - I just know I have to eat.My intake of food is a lot more than it was this time last year. For breakfast this morning I ate a 2 eggs, 1/4 c soy milk, 1/4 c mushrooms & tomatoes and 1/2 c cheddar cheese omelet; after drinking 64 ozs of coffee with sugar free french vanilla creamer. Now I did that over the course of about 4 hours but that is the problem...I'm still grazing. Part of this is due to the fact that I am home, once again on sick leave from work as I had a hysterectomy on Dec 8, 2008. Being home, with no money and hugh financial worries constantly has me looking for something to STUFF the anxiety away.
Food is such a horrible nemisis....I have to eat. I have to make decisions everyday on what to eat, when to eat and how much to eat....drugs & alcohol-I put it down and never had to pick it up again...this is definately the hardest part of my addiction. Yet I have a wonderful support network (crucial in my humble opinion, to long term success) and so many people who are vested in my success. I will succeed. I will never give up believing that tomorrow the miracle will come. Took 40+ years from me to walk into the forest, I may never walk all the way out but I am enjoying the stroll in that direction.
I hope all my OH buddies are well....I'm sorry I've been absent. You are never far from my thoughts. Peace~ Eileen
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About Me
Blackwood Terrace, NJ
Location
46.8
BMI
Surgery
11/24/2008
Surgery Date
May 10, 2008
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